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Composite Sun Oh so Random Post

I started to think about the composite sun while having a conversation with someone today. The Sun in the composite chart is the soul of a union, partnership, friendship etc. This person mentioned I know more about them than anyone else at our job. He mentioned he is very private. I already knew this, his sun is conjunct his Nadir more commonly known as the IC or 4th house cusp.

The Nadir is one of the four angles, each angle ruling a different facet of life. It is also one of the karmic houses along with 8th and 12th. The 4th house rules our family, our ancestry, our roots, our home base, it rules the mother, real estate, the unconscious, the hidden, and it’s the lowest part of the chart and represents the beginning of life and the end of life. From the womb the start of life to the tomb the end of life where we are buried under ground. The Nadir or 4th house cusp is the lowest part of the natal chart.

Together this person and I have a composite 4th house Sun. When he said that I know more about him I immediately remembered our composite 4th house Sun and admired the fact that astrology can often be obvious. No need to go looking at asteroids and searching for fixed stars. If it is written it should be right there in plain view. None of this his Karma conjuncts my Psyche and trines the 5th house cusp. No. The 4th house rules midnight. We met late at night, we met while working overnight.  I find that to be perfect if not even funny.

(You can read more about composite charts here)

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2011/11/21/composite-chart/?preview=true&preview_id=166&preview_nonce=907735eb5f

And here                                                            

http://www.astro.com/astrology/in_composit_e.htm

and here

http://astrologystudy.blogspot.com/2012/08/composite-houses-and-4-clusters.html

 

The Composite sun and moon give indicators as to the purpose of the relationship   (A relationship can be a spouse, a friend, an employer, a lover, a parent). The sun often being the focal point of the relationship of the 2 parties involved you can follow the aspects to see how it plays out.

 

The composite 4th house Sun often builds a home together, this is not my particular experience but I have found myself saying “you feel like home to me” there is an ease when communicating with this person and I feel like I have known them always in a way. Familiarity and a certain level of comfort exist, I suppose. The literal manifestation as us having met late at night and I can attest to the fact that something is private about the connection with him. I do not speak about him to others. Or I guess I should say I rarely do, but not my inner workings, not my thoughts or feelings. Under different circumstances I think I could have cared deeply for him as a composite 4th house suggests…but that’s a whole other post. You get the gist comfort; home, familiarity, and privacy are themes. Our composite sun conjuncts Mercury (communication) makes a trine to Uranus and squares Pluto. Text book would say we have a mental connection, accept one another’s eccentricities, but the square from Pluto says nothing here is light. Pluto transforms whatever it touches

 

 

I had a dreaded composite 6th house sun with my plutonic love. The 6th house is the house of health, work and servitude! This is not where you want your relationship sun. We also had an exact Sun conjunct Jupiter the planet of excess. Jupiter multiplies whatever it touches your joys and your sorrows. Someone once said we could have never lived a real life together because we would have never gotten anything done. We existed in a bubble (Sun opposite Neptune). There was drinking, slow dancing and music, bubble baths and fire place flickers. On the plus I felt we communicated dare I say telepathically. (You will never understand until you have lived it) But at the end of the day the 6th house is not a happy house, unless you work together. I have a composite 6th house with a coworker, I love her but I don’t want to marry her! Plutonic Love and I knew each other as children. His words: he always liked me. I didn’t like him, we had childhood issues I don’t care to write about it here. But in short I didn’t like him and he would write me letters and god I don’t even know if I read them. Years later we reconnected I was crazy about him, he married someone else. The balance is always off. He still had pictures of us as children handy. (Oh the things we carry with us always). I was not in a good place when showing up on his doorstep 15+ years later. Emotionally I was vulnerable and here in itself lies several Sun in 6th house issues. This is the house of servitude, servant to master, the employee to the boss; one party in the relationship has the upper hand.  Obviously it changes from time to time, who has the power that does not. Often this shows up in extramarital affairs. There is a sense of inequality with the composite 6th house sun. Someone is sacrificing something, I didn’t see it at the time but even in the most perfect circumstances we would have had to sacrifice ourselves to be together. I wouldn’t have believed it at the time I was too busy making deals with god to bring us together, but we would not have made each other happy.  I will also say this position doesn’t particularly cultivate healthy relationships patterns. My personal quote regarding my composite 6th house sun is “you had to accept me at my worst because you could have never had me at my best”.

 

Composite 12th house Sun

I have a friend we share a composite 12th house sun the 12th house rules self-undoing, secrets; it is also a karmic house like the 4th and the 8th indicating knowing one another in a past life or us sharing past life karma. This house also rules prisons, seclusion, dreams and things we do not see clearly. We are friends only and I can say that we often give one another free passes on bad behavior. When we go out it is always “oh have another drink” “oh you want to hook up with so and so go ahead even if he is bad for you” “you only live once” I try to be conscious of the ways we encourage bad behavior in one another but the 12th house is the house of the unconsciousness so that information is hard to grasp. If either one of us has done something we know no one else would approve of, we call one another. We give the green light to indiscretions. We have Sun trine Jupiter unlike the conjunction it lends to caring and forgiveness without excess, we also have Sun trine Neptune, we drink together listen to music and go to the movies; all Neptunian fields. But I’m not hoping he will save me from myself 😉 we have Sun opposite Pluto similar to the square this isn’t a light friendship. There are power struggles, but this is the 12th house ruled naturally by Pisces and Neptune, forgiveness is offered as is turning a blind eye to anything we do wrong out in the world or to each other.

I would love to hear your composite sun story!
It is also worth a mention I have heard the best synastry in the world will not negate the composite chart. The Composite chart is how your relationship functions as a unit, synastry in basically just chemistry and we all know sometimes the best chemistry isn’t enough to build a life.

Happy New Year Love and Light! xo

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I think I have Venus Retrograde running through my veins

Its 6am and I m awake I think I have Venus Retrograde running through my veins. The days I can’t sleep are rare…today is one of them. Venus is on its way to turning retrograde in the industrious sign of Capricorn in my 12th house of endings, secrets, karma, seclusion, subconscious, a lot of what we don’t see and yes self-undoing. Some Capricorn keywords are work, worth, responsibility, and seriousness. Capricorn is an earth sign so dependability and practicality are celebrated when planets are placed in the sign of the mountain goat.
Venus hasn’t even catapulted into full on retrograde motion and I have already begun to feel it. That quiet review of my finances, coming up with a financial strategy (Venus rules money) Next year should I go on Vacation (Venus rules enjoyment) or remodel my kitchen (Venus also rules beautification) perhaps I can work like a maniac (Capricorn) and do both. But then there is the other side of Venus, the side that speaks to your heart that in Taurus fashion (ruler of Venus, along with Libra) has us questioning what is of value? Do things and people that we once placed on a Venusian pedestal still have value in our current lives? Revelations I want to put the brakes on it, too late it is already in its shadow period and I feel that sudden uprooting of things I would rather not know, see or feel. How very 12th house of me. I’ve already had my first contact from ghosts of hook ups now past. We use to work together, how very Venus in Capricorn. He said to me you are meant to be someone’s wife not just a girlfriend and I thought this is very Venus in Capricorn, know your worth. After seeing him I had my own revelations about myself, how once I’m done with someone there simply isn’t any turning back. This is probably why I struggle with relationships. It is important that they keep momentum that they always stay fresh and new. I also began to think about endings. When things end for me they usually are engulfed in flames and how only a few years ago I was desperate for a happy ending. But now I much prefer an ending that is etched in stone that has bridges set a blaze behind me. So you know that it is done and you can’t turn back even if you wanted too. This has also brought me face to face with feelings that I keep turning a blind eye too over a friendship that suddenly dropped off, that didn’t come equipped with that definitive end. How something that once seemed bathed in beauty (Venus), is now nothing. When we first met I recall thinking I want to look at them every time like it’s the first time with all that wonder and amazement. But now it’s like I don’t know them, like I never knew them. I have tried several times to reach out to them, I am not sure why maybe because this ending was unsatisfactory to me. Only to realize that there is no satisfactory ending when you don’t want things to end. I reached out and I reach out and that sudden revelation that I’m the only one reaching and this is it. This is the end. ( oh so 12th house).There isn’t any going back, and I should stop trying to meet someone half way that doesn’t want to meet me at all, this current situation is no longer of any value. Venus in retrograde reassessing what is worth it? Self-undoing never is, make sure you are getting a return on your investments. I tweeted today “nothing real ever dies so what we had was never real”. Capricorn is enduring, long lasting, so let’s remember to have 2 open palms this Venus retrograde one to release all unhappy endings and one to catch some new beginnings once she goes direct January 31. Upward and onward my friends knowing when to hold them and when to fold them seems to be on this year’s holiday menu.

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Sometimes you are Damned if you do damned if you don’t

solar retun chart
I looked at my solar return chart months prior to my birthday and saw that I had my solar return Venus on my natal Saturn. Venus the planet of love on Saturn the planet of restriction, duty, commitment, and time. Timing is everything, how very cliché. Venus doesn’t go well with Saturn, they don’t hold hands. One is light and love and well the other is work. I thought this can’t be good. No you should not look at one aspect you have to take the entire chart into consideration blah blah blah but being single I want to know where my moon (feelings) and Venus (heart) are going to be for the year. 2012 was good year I had Saturn in the 3rd house of communication and thought so I spent a lot of time writing and it was nowhere near my moon or Venus. I’m going to tread lightly here, but this year Venus is in the 10th house of career and Saturn is in my 6th house of daily work; draw your own conclusions on how we met. Looking at this year’s solar return the energy was vaguely familiar so I looked back on my Solar return charts since 2009 when I first met my “plutonic love” and this only enhanced my state of awareness. Damn astrology. I had Scorpio Rising then as well, Saturn in the 7th restricting my relationships, moon in the 12th; feelings that lay secret. 2010 Saturn yet again in the 7th restricting relationships, my moon was in the 4th house; the 4th house is the darkest part of the soul it rules the cradle to the grave and lastly in 2011 when my “plutonic love” married someone else I had Saturn Conjunct moon in the 5th house of love affairs falling into the 8th house of transformation. A recipe for heartache. From 2009 – 2011 were very difficult times for me. I had a lot of sorrow. I mean those years were the catalyst for all I do today, the reason I moved, the inspiration for this blog, those years defined who I’m today, sadly sometimes joyfully but always definitely. So here we are 2013 and I meet someone, I like I never like anyone, sadly. I called my friend when I met him and explained the charts and said I can’t go through this again. Then went to see my own astrologer, I didn’t mention anything and he said this year is a good time to have an affair, (Gay men gotta love them they are so liberal). I myself clearly can see this Venus conjunct Saturn in my Solar Return indicating this is a man I like that has prior commitments. Just like the Saturn in the 7th house for my other 2 solar return charts. 7th house equals relationships Saturn literally can indicate a man with commitments, where Saturn lies there is restriction and hardship. I thought to myself; you cannot go down this road again this road that leads nowhere this path that is nothing more than a cul-de-sac where you end up where you started. I’m not in the mood for a transformative journey because I have been transforming since 2009 and I’m tired. Oprah once said; lord don’t teach me nothing new today”. That’s how I feel. I decided to choose differently, because I didn’t want to be in that place because I know that I’m not a light sort of person, I know if I like you I have the great capacity to love you and I’m unable to have just a good time. So I chose differently, I choose to acknowledge that this person is fascinating, but I will do nothing about it. When you know better you are suppose to do better. Isn’t that the idea to learn from the past and not repeat it? Someone tweeted the other day: We must all suffer one of two things the pain of discipline or the pain of regret and disappointment. That’s where I’m at emotionally I wondered if I could avoid my destiny, avoid what is in the chart? And I can say yes and no. I decided to not jump in head and heart first like I always do, but Venus is still on that Saturn and I still do like a man that has prior commitments. What up with you and your solar return? xo

PS a fabulous Gemini recommended I watch the movie TIMER I think considering Saturn in Astrology is considered Father of Time and timing is indeed everything, it is worth a mention.

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