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Uranus conjuct Saturn transit The battle continues

Transits are said to be felt the most when an outer planet-Saturn, Uranus, Neptune or Pluto touches a personal planet Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, or Mars. Every transit affects someone differently. When Saturn was on my moon I longed to be with someone I couldn’t have. (Saturn a man with responsibilities & moon ruling feelings). Someone else I know has Saturn restriction on his moon (the mother, the past & roots) he is having issues with his mother. In astrology the moon symbolizes all of these things; feelings, the past, the mother & the home. Saturn’s transit to my sun was the worst but someone else I know that sees the world perpetually through rosé colored glasses didn’t even blink during this transit!
Most astrologers would say that you cannot feel the effects of an outer planet on an outer planet because everyone in your generation will experience that. For instance Uranus was in Scorpio from September 1975 – November 1981, so everyone born during that period will have Uranus in Scorpio & will experience present day Saturn in Scorpio conjoining their natal Uranus.

The outer planets change or pass through the zodiac slowly since they move at very slow speed unlike the moon which can change signs daily or the sun which changes every month or so.
Right now Saturn is conjunct my Uranus and I feel as though I’m suffocating. Look at any planets in 5-8 degrees of the fixed signs to see where you are affected. (Fixed signs are: Taurus, Scorpio, Aquarius & Leo). I’m an Aquarius rising so Uranus is my chart ruler I’ve thought perhaps that’s why I’m feeling this or maybe it is due in part that it is occurring in my natal 8th house an intuitive receptive house. All I know is I would like to tell everyone in my life I’m out of order for 30 days figure shit out yourself. Don’t call me with questions, don’t tell me your problems, I’m crumbling. I feel like I’m in a pressure cooker, I have exploded on several people I love dearly & I have to say I may regret the way I said it but not what was said.
I confess this happens to me periodically maybe every 2 years or so I become burnt out, I require a time out. Perhaps it’s my cardinal t-square the doing the going perpetually in overdrive & I feel like the people in my life have no respect for the amount of shit I do in a single day. Or maybe they don’t get it that I have an inability to relax. I also have Capricorn on the 12 the house cusp, father died young the feeling like I must do everything myself blah so I’m working I’m going, I’m planning & then I’m done. Burnt, fizzled out, short circuit. Stick a fork in me!
People at work laugh because I have called my boss & say I need some time off & he’ll say like a day & I’m like “no the week I’ll see you next Monday”.
I have Saturn in the 6th house so I’m that person at work that people call when they need something, I love them & 300 days of the year I don’t mind but when days get like this; I feel like in suffocating. I feel like I’m my Sun in 5th house most days funny, joking laughing but respect the fact that I can’t be that way everyday. And while I have Saturn in the 6th & take my job somewhat seriously there are days perhaps I need an extra break!

Uranus is the ruler of rebellion the avant-garde the eccentric where you go against the grain. Saturn is restriction, responsibilities, things you have to do, he is Father Time. Astrologer’s state when Saturn conjuncts Uranus you feel your expression is restricted, you have a lot of responsibilities to tend too. I cried on the way to work today wondering where is the fun & why have I given up all if the things that are “bad” for me but do not feel any release. Responsibilities feel like burdens, I want to write and create. There is also this becoming very in tuned to the eccentric side of my personality & having to face a harsh reality of the things I’m not, seeing all of the practical things I suck at. Saturn is nothing if not practical like laundry & going to the supermarket. Ugh! I broke down the other day over Christmas tree ornaments Aqua or teal? I don’t know I’m fucking color blind! They could’ve been chartreuse for all I know. Its weird realizing there are things in this life you don’t do very well & these things feel like chores. I cried while throwing out a huge box the other day, it sat in my living room for days I had to throw it out & did so in tears. My coworker said aww don’t cry you are independent. Really I didn’t sign up for this shit or maybe I have Aquarius & Uranus as a chart ruler is nothing if not an independent free spirit.
I would love to hear from those born between September 1975 – November 1981 so you can share with me your experience of Saturn on Uranus.
This is Saturn’s last hurrah for awhile I’ve spent the last 3 years with him in my 8th house this is one of the hardest transits he squared my sun, mercury conjoined my north node and Pluto & now he is on my ruling planet.

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On October 2013 he will officially enter my 9th house I think I’m going to plan a bon voyage party! I just have to try to abide by the rules for the time being though I feel like a war is going on inside me a fight for independence vs. the fight for practicality. Which side will win is anyone’s guess.

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Confessions from a Sun Square Moon Person

Yesterday was a busy day, all the days lately are busy between working 16 hours & trying to find time to redecorate. My mind is in over drive, I have post-its in a 100 places to remind me: you need window treatments, the carpet guy is coming in July, the couch guy is coming next week, your working your days off the last week of June as my mind wonders who the hell I’m going to get to hang that effing canvas I bought. I drive to my second Home Depot of the day because the 1st didn’t have enough door knobs. I needed 3 they had 2. Only to come home & find that NONE of the 3 fit although the Home Depot man said they were universal but after many attempts trying to figure it out I relented, it just wasnt happening. After I had to get in the car & drive to Queens park the car & get on the subway into Manhattan to attend astrology class & I fought back tears as I ranted to myself: I m so fucking tired how did I get to this place where I’m doing every thing! And why don’t they have a handyman service where some cute man picks up the shit you need & hangs it for you. And what is a wall sconce and why can’t you just drill it into any place on the wall.
Truth be told: I never wanted to be this person that had to do everything! (natal cardinal t square: I’m that person) As i slide into class my beyond well versed astrology instructor says those with sun square moon are not comfortable with themselves. It couldn’t be more true. I m all to aware that the moon represents you natural instinct, your emotional attachment. The moon in Aries is not a comfortable position. Moon in Aries needs to get things done ASAP they want their needs met immediately, it’s a masculine energy where as the moon is feminine. There is a conflict. For me all i wanted was to just be someone’s mom and stay at home& bake cookies and stuff like that! Cancer Sun wants that they long for intimate connections they enjoy staying home they want someone to nurture them & take care of them & in return we will love you forever.But an Aries moon is impulsive, action oriented they want to go go go! A montage plays in my mind of the people I could ve dated long-term the men that could have hung my curtains but eh I didn’t like the way one chewed his food, he didn’t pull out my chair , or that one got boring. Venus in Gemini needs to keep things interesting Saturn in 7th takes commitment seriously, all dates are interviews for me like can I look at this mans face forever. So I leave class unsure of how to reconcile my Cancer Sun & Aries moon, I hop on the train then get into my car drive to Home Depot number 3 return the door knobs get new ones, install them, lay on my bed & cry my eyes out dreaming of the day I can sit by my pool, write a novel (Sun in the 5th) & start online bakery business (Cancer Sun)
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Sometimes Old Lovers Can be Good friends

Had a small chat with an ex boyfriend today I complained of being tired working 16 hour days in the midst of renovations, I can’t find any time to work out I haven’t really been sleeping. (Transiting Jupiter conjunct natal mars) classic sign of overdoing it. At this point I figure I’ll sleep when I die. He said you always put too much on your plate (natal cardinal t-square). I sarcastically asked if he renovated the residence he bought last year, to which he replied; “no it was in perfect condition”. All white walls? I queried. “Yup” he agreed (he has 3 planets in Virgo so fresh and so clean is the motto). I want splashes of chartreuse in the middle of the day he enjoys Monet. Go figure.  We laughed as he challenged, “So what is your entire house purple and hot pink”. “Yes” I conceded. Poetic Purple, I don’t know how that is working out god willing perfectly with a little help from natal Jupiter (good luck) conjoining transiting Venus (beauty) in my natal 4th house of real estate. Fingers crossed. We laughed and spoke about the past, he remarked how calm I seem I assured him appearances can be deceiving and the reason being is simply that I m exhausted. I advised him I mentioned him in my previous blog regarding Sun in the 2nd house and how he is aggressively attached to his values. Did you change my name? Did you post my chart? He wanted to know. In typical fashion he prefers to remain anonymous.  You are so very Uranus in the 12th house, I smirked. He quipped “I’m just private”; I searched his chart for any indicators of conservatism (perhaps Saturn in the 9th) but came up empty. Perhaps Neptune in his natal 1st house makes him more sensitive than most. “I don’t like to be the center of attention” he went on to further to explain, telling this to me, a 5th house sun is a foreign concept. He brought up some past occurrences, this one time in particular when I wore over the knee boots to a “familystyle  restaurant”. He demanded I change I refused and remarked his burgundy shirt against khaki pants made him look like an usher at a movie theater. Welcome to Lowes! And a year later we parted ways. I will never grasp the concept of a shrinking violet, hiding your authenticity, trying hard to assimilate…That is so very Uranus in the 12th house to me. With all that being said It is still nice to sit and talk with someone that knows damn well your eccentric side isn’t tucked away its sitting right there in your freshly polished poetic purple living room