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Synastry You dont attract what you want, you attract what you are…

Published July 18, 2014 by starsmoonandsun

 

In my late twenties I use to lie to myself and say “I want a calm normal relationship, why can’t I have a tranquil relationship. I use to lie to myself but I won’t dare lie to you today. I want a passionate partnership, I want my intensity dial turned up to 100, and I don’t have a clue what I would do with a “normal and tranquil” relationship. I guess that’s a good thing because they always elude me. In my natal chart I have an Aries moon, the moon is your comfort level Aries is the sign of the warrior.

Aries Sun Lady Gaga Sings in the song “Marry the Night” I’m gonna marry the night. I won’t give up on my life. I’m a warrior queen Live passionately tonight.

Just as the Cancer Moon finds safety at home, and Pisces moon may find religion or alcohol a comfort zone and a Libra moon needs to always be in a partnership, Scorpio moons destroy themselves, Virgo moons need to take care of others well Aries moons need battle, conflict, we find comfort in doing battle. We need the rush, the highs…there is simply no changing or denying that. My moon opposes my Pluto in the 8th house and Squares my Sun in the 5th.  Complicated order! Pluto on the Sun and Moon is not for the faint of heart. Relationships involve dominance, control, possession, issues surrounding jealousy and shared resources.

I laugh thinking I wanted a light love, a tranquil love. I didn’t know who I was in my late 20’s.  It is only over the last several years I have come to terms with who I am….or at the very least attempting too come to terms with who I am. Warrior Queen sounds about right

I saw an ex of mine, the last time I saw him was 7 years ago. I actually see him in 7 year intervals for most of our lives. He is important to me; he is someone that holds significance. He said to me something I always say to other people; real love doesn’t really die. If it is genuine it lives on. Ahhh god nothing like those loves in your youth.

While looking at his chart I could see the glaring similarities between us, but it made me wonder if we should seek out partnerships with those that are similar to us or those that can balance us?

I have been wondering about the relationships we form with people that inadvertently bring out our worst traits; whether that be our insecurities, over indulgence, or possessiveness.  Or what about those whos worst traits mirror our own more difficult attributes.

In synastry it is often said you find comfort in dating someone with the same moon sign. And I have always said I can’t date another Aries moon because we will kill one another. I mean who will take a step back, who will be the reasonable one?

I looked at my Leo ex’s chart and he has an exact moon square mars; this is very similar to having an Aries moon. Hot headed, emotionally impulsive, with a short fuse. He himself like moi, is attracted to relationships that involve conflict and battle.

It was many years ago that we were together and things fell apart do to his imposing his will on me. He would actually tell me “my will is stronger than yours”

In Synastry my Mars squares his Sun; this is where aggression (mars) and will power (mars) meets his ego and identity (my sun). The other day he remarked I try to overpower him. I assure you I don’t; this is simply how he receives me.

However Sun square Mars is a very combative aspect in synastry, one that I think may even negate a lot of beautiful synastry, we have major 7th house overlays my Venus and Mars fall in his 7th and his Sun, Venus, Mercury and Mars fall in my 7th. Obviously this is indicative of an important relationship; but never forget the 7th house rules partnership and open enemies.  Love gone wrong often becomes hate.

I have natal Mars in the 3rd; the 3rd house rules communication. Mars is the planet of aggression. I am blunt and direct in speech, people always say I am the most direct and honest person. If you don’t like me you will probably say I am rude.

My Leo ex has Mars conjunct Mercury; this is the same sort of dynamic simply in another form. Our Mercury’s correspond to one another nicely and I actually find him very funny; he is more direct then me which I find immensely refreshing. But would I want to argue with him, probably not we are both very assertive and go for the jugular. Who would take a step back and be the voice of reason?

So many things have crossed my mind lately; mostly the quote “you don’t attract what you want; you attract what you are”.

For so long I wondered why normal and serene relationships alluded me, and now I have the answer  perhaps because I am not a tranquil and serene person myself.

Mostly I think we can use astrology when relating to others; we can pinpoint the areas in relationships that will be a source of contention and bring them to light. Maybe and I do mean MAYBE in warrior relationships you can take turn yielding to one another. What do you think visit me on twitter and let me know? Should we avoid relationships with those that are similar? Do we need to find our opposites to find a balance?

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Aquarius; born to stand out

Published February 2, 2014 by starsmoonandsun

I’m on this kick of embracing your natal placements for better or worse. Saturn in the 7th you will not defeat me, you bastard! Reading tweets from someone on twitter that is an Aquarius inspired me to write this post. Aquarius are different, they are eccentric, they are born free and in a way I don’t believe they can be tied to anyone and anything completely. This could be said for Aquarius Sun, Aquarius Rising and Aquarius Moon. We are detached, air signs we are independent thinkers (I have Aquarius Rising). My Astrology Instructor said we are either excluded from the group or we lead a group but we are never fully amerced in the group. We are not a part of the group. We have to own that. Often Aquarian types take on causes that involve issues surrounding equality due to the fact we never felt equal.

I will share with you a story, as a child I was the only kid in my private school with one parent. I hated private school and all the cookie cutter kids that resembled paper doll cut outs.
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Each one a carbon copy of the next. Father’s day was a bitch, all those cards we had to make and I was the only one with no father. Never mind the fact that my birthday fell in July and wasn’t privy to any class parties. I didn’t really give a shit, and often the teachers would call my mother and report their concern that I wasn’t playing jump rope with other children. How very Aquarian of me

I don’t give a crap about identifying with groups. I never follow the majority, when I’m in work meetings and no one stands up and speaks the truth; I do. I say this company sucks! You aren’t delivering the goods. I’m a Union Member yes but I’m actually an elected Union Representative fighting for the rights of my colleagues, insuring union rules are followed, insuring they are treated fairly. I have tried to donate time to the Innocence Project, but unfortunately I don’t have much to offer in terms of a legal background. I believe strongly in people’s right to a fair trial. As unpopular of an opinion as it may be; I feel people like Scott Peterson should have been acquitted…not because I think he didn’t do it but because convicting someone without evidence puts our entire judicial process up for review.

My opinions are endless and not necessarily popular, but I didn’t give a shit as a kid and I certainly do not now. I will keep speaking my truth, I will keep being true to myself and I encourage everyone to do the same.

Aquarius are represented by 1 or 2 glyphs the first is lightening through water due to Aquarius sudden insights
aquarius glyph 1

or a man or woman pouring water that is representation of the knowledge they pour into the world

aquarius glyph 2

Aquarius mode is fixed
Aquarius element is air
Keywords: “I know”
Ruler of the 11th house home to groups, organizations, networking, astrology, hopes, and wishes

You will have a strong Aquarian signature in your chart if you have Uranus (Aquarius ruling planet) on an angle (1st, 4th, 7th & 10th house)

You are more likely to own your individuality if Uranus is in pleasing aspect to your Sun and Moon via trine aspect or sextile. This is often indicative of parents whom encouraged your individuality or you possess a certain ease with your own quirky aspects.
I have noticed those with Uranus in the 12th house (not on the Ascendant) tend to mask their individuality, they hide it, they have a desire to appear “normal” to blend in where as those with Uranus Conjunct the Sun or Moon are in your face different, in your face rebellious. Think Charlie Sheen Tiger blood. People with Uranus in Square moon or sun wrestle and struggle with incorporating the eccentric parts of their selves whereas the opposition will take turns acting out the sun or moon and then suddenly breaking off and doing something Uranian and wildly independent.

Just taking a moment to offer words of encouragement to everyone, explore your individuality, own that parts of yourself that make you unique. Don’t be another paper doll cut out; after all you are in good company

Aquarius Sun celebrities
• Rosa Parks
• Abraham Lincoln
• Ellen DeGeneres
• Jennifer Aniston
• Oprah
• James Dean
• Bob Marley
• Eckhart Tolle
• Darwin
• Virginia Woolf
• Jackie Robinson

Let sleeping babies lie; Saturn in synastry

Published November 19, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

Saturn on the Sun, Moon, and Venus is deemed one of the worst aspects in synastry. You need more than one aspect to declare this. Everything is good in moderation, even Pluto but put it on several of another person’s personal planets and you may feel as though you are living inside an episode of Revenge.

Revenge

I have several blog entries about Saturn due to meeting someone over the summer. Not a lover but not quite just a friend, all I know is I found his mind to be electric, I found him to be fascinating and different then what I had been experiencing over the last few years. If anything I was worried about all our Venus connections and superficial ties. I don’t do superficiality
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/07/02/venus-is-synastry-light-and-fluffy-coming-right-up/
I saw that his Saturn was on my Sun, Moon, and Mercury and we had a dreadful Saturn square Venus Composite (this one never survives) but quite honestly even as an astrologer I did not want to believe what was said about Saturn:

saturn in synastry

When older more seasoned astrologers looked at our synastry, it was “Oh”. “Or oh no this is bad”. I could not believe it; after all the two of us on a number of occasions would say to one another. “you are fascinating “and the other would say “oh no you are fascinating” Until fascinatingly enough those Saturn ties kicked in. Saturn rules time, so it takes some time but ultimately those Saturn connections will prevail
At first I believed he simply didn’t like heavy conversations. I’m a get to the root and soul of the matter sort of person, but I was happy to bask in his light.
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/06/20/love-is-hard-saturn-aspects/
Than I thought maybe I just need to try to break through those walls; I have a way about me I believe in the impossible. Than I thought maybe he is guarded and perhaps accept that there will always be that slight distance
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/08/19/saturn-in-synastry-round-2/
but ultimately wah-lah we are at a point where we will not be friends, obviously we cant be lovers. And like a sleeping baby in a movie I felt he was a parent (Saturn rules authority and fathers) tip toeing out of my room as I dream careful not to wake me, tip toe, tip toe and just like that now all that light and fluffy, all those fascinating conversations have diminished and all I see are Saturn ties

The Astrology of Reclusive Celebrities

Published November 8, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

I happen to be thinking of Eminem the other day I’m not sure why maybe because his new song Monster was on the radio. I like him, my go to Karaoke song is “I’m whatever you say I’m”. I get him; that feeling of living under a microscope people wanting to define you, wanting to shove you in a box and label you. Some woman at work once yelled at me. “I know who you are. I know all about you”. I had to laugh wow, really, you do I assure you know nothing about me. I’m accustomed to people watching me, concerned with me & what I do when I quite frankly don’t care what anyone does. I have Neptune conjunct my Midheaven there is that twinge of glamour but the price to pay is high. The 10th house is the highest point in the chart it can be the filter through which the world sees you, it represents your ambition, your contribution to the world if you will. I’ve suffered false accusations on things I wouldn’t dare write about, people have always judged me attempt to label me, don’t see me clearly I feel that I live my tiny life through a magnifying glass I can’t imagine how that feels on a grand scale being a celebrity. The Kim Kardashians of the world, don’t interest me. I don’t watch gossip shows E or whatever. I will read a gossip magazine if someone gave it to me, but I certainly wouldn’t purchase one. I don’t understand people that approach celebrities or want autographs. I think this stems from my Pluto in the 8th house squaring my Sun in the 5th. I get the need for privacy. The sun is the ego the 5th is the house of creativity so sure I write here, I tweet, I act in my free time, I’m outgoing by all appearances but once you get to know me you will find I like to spend a crazy amounts of time alone I act not for fame but to be surrounded by interesting eccentric types. That is how I give of myself, here on this blog but I’m not the type of person whose house you will drop by uninvited, I live in an apartment with 24 hour security. I chose how I want to share; whom I share with. I can’t imagine how it is celebrities that are like me… exist. I mean I just have to fend off nosy neighbors not the entire world, not fans, paparazzi and the media. I Googled Eminem after he popped into mind and was unable to find much about his present day life. He may be engaged he may not be and there is the speculation of his affiliation with the illuminati…but then again the nosy lady down the hall from me thinks I’m a prostitute because I work nights ha ha. Eminem has a stellium in the 9th house. See here courtesy of astrotheme.com

eminem

And while the sun and Pluto do not directly connect all of those planets come from the same house, so they are all filtered through one another, they act as one. The Sun in the 10th house is a very public position, it declares “here I’m” put that with Pluto planet of control and secrecy along with the Sun whether it is opposition, conjunction, square or coming out of the same house acting in unison; you will want to have some if not complete control over the way you share yourself generally speaking. Perhaps not always-Pluto also rules prostitution, Guess that explains Kim Kardashians Sun conjunct Pluto in the 10th house. Selling sex as a career. I think she is the anomaly for this however. I tried to think of other extremely private celebrities but I couldn’t think of any other than Johnny Carson (Moon opposite Pluto) so I googled it and found Time Magazine had released a list
J.D. Salinger
Howard Hughes
Greta Garbo
Harper Lee
Emily Dickinson
Syd Barrett
Bill Watterson
Thomas Pynchon
Dave Chappelle
Marcel Prous
You can read the full article here
http://content.time.com/time/specials/packages/article/0,28804,1902376_1902378_1902428,00.html
Over half the people on the list had Pluto opposite moon or Pluto on the Sun via Square or opposition
Pluto represents
Darkness, secrecy, control, privacy, death, rebirth, probing, destruction, annihilation, the underworld, things that are buried, hidden, taboo, power, survival, security, paranoia, excess
Sun Represents
Some what the opposite of Pluto, life, light, ego, energy, identity, creative expression
When Pluto is on the Sun a person oscillates between being all out shining brightly and then hiding. The need to express itself via whatever outlet the house the sun is in and hiding away from the world.
Moon Represents
Our emotional responses, the past, safety, our needs, fluctuation, instinct
When Pluto is on the moon it is said that people want to control what people know about them. I do see that as being entirely true. As a person with Pluto on my Sun and Moon I think it is more of a case of not wanting others to stir up our emotions, our joys and our anger, we feel everything deep. And our perception is spot on. I often say we know the end before it begins. So it isn’t that we want to control what people know we often just want to protect ourselves from the intensity of our feelings. Being well aware that allowing people into our inner worlds also gives them access and opportunity to stir up emotions in us we would rather keep buried.

The 9th house YES the higher mind

Published September 21, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

I’m very 9th house esque this year; I get some shit from people when I write about the 9th house people often get offended when I explain that the 9th house is the house of the higher mind. This does not imply that if you do not have planets here you aren’t intelligent and further more I did not invent astrology this is one of those cases where; it is what it is. If you embrace astrology you have to embrace all of the parts of yourself. In any event people are often offended when I say the 9th house is opposite of the 3rd house in astrology (which it is) naturally the 3rd house is ruled by Gemini, Gemini oversees communication; fax, letters, emails, electronics, our siblings, grammar school education, short trips, gossip, it is considered the “lower mind” across from the 3rd house is the 9th house ruled by Gemini’s opposing sign of Sagittarius which overseas long distance journeys (out of the country), higher education like university, law, religion the BIG stuff. I had a nasty email from someone that is offended by this. But it is fact. I have Venus and Mars in the 3rd house, I certainly consider myself intelligent, and learning is a continuous process, while I do not have a masters degree I have an Associate’s Degree, am a certified astrologer, notary and chef and am presently enrolled at NYU for a certificate in Journalism, I’ve been many places Europe included but you will not find me backpacking anywhere. I like short trips France in 4 days, I short trips they restore me however if my Venus and mars were in the 9th house I would probably marry someone from a different country, have a degree nothing short of a bachelors, perhaps a PhD or a Law Degree I would travel the globe extensively and maybe even speak several languages. One is not better than the other, they are just different.
This year I feel very 9th house oriented, I have the Sun, Moon and Mercury in my 9th house in my solar return, Praise the Lord Saturn is finally leaving my 8th house by October and will enter my 9th house and Jupiter (ruler of the 9th house and Sagittarius) is transiting my Sun. My mind feels alive, I can’t quite explain it, but there is an explosion going on inside my head. I have discovered Eckhart Tolle recently and feel like that man is speaking to my soul. I’m actively trying to live his book “the power of now” to be present is essential, I’m meditating daily sometimes up to 3x a day and there are affirmations and yoga classes several times a week. This whole feeling of wanting to align my mind, body and soul. And of course I’m taking classes at NYU for journalism, forever studying something astrology related, just booked a night at a Positive Thinking workshop. It’s all very strange. I have books in my house that I have read in the past but didn’t find them to be useful. I’m not a read for enjoyment person, so I had some books about meditation and healing your life that I had stored away in boxes when someone on twitter suggested I read a particular book that I actually already had. Two things dawned on me
1. Everything we need we already have
2. When the student is ready the teacher appears ( I wasn’t ready before)
My view of the world is changing, I’m finding an inner surrender, and I’m aware that that is today and tomorrow it may all change. I have this urge to travel particularly to Costa Rica on a yoga retreat. I will get there, by the looks of it astrologically not until next summer, but I know I will be there. I feel it in my soul that zip line is calling me! Saturn is legendary for nixing travel when in the 9th house, it’s not the best idea to travel when it is there except for work, I cant help but think to myself this is work, my inner work.
I wonder how 9th house people feel all of the time, not just when the 9th house is activated by transits. Do they just walk around 24/7 knowledgeable? I find the entire experience fascinating. I remember looking at my solar return 2 years ago thinking please don’t let me become a born again Christian. No offense, I’m just not one for organized religion or the idea of going to hell because you ate meat on a Friday or because you are a man in love with a man. When I’m doing my downward dog I breathe out a sigh of relief, you can never quite pinpoint how the change will occur but I’m happy the way my higher mind, yes my higher mind is taking shape. Namaste

Saturn in Synastry Round 2

Published August 19, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

I keep going back and forth on Saturn in synastry. This was my 1st post

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/06/20/love-is-hard-saturn-aspects/

I think the song “Beneath Your Beautiful” by Labrinth (feat. Emeli Sandé)
is a great representation of Saturn in synastry

You’ve carried on so long
You couldn’t stop if you tried it.
You’ve built your wall so high
That no one could climb it.
But I’m gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, boy, take it off now, boy
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, tonight?

I’m gonna climb on top your ivory tower
I’ll hold your hand and then we’ll jump right out
We’ll be falling, falling but that’s OK
‘Cause I’ll be right here

When Saturn is on your personal planet ultimately the personal planet will feel like they have run up against a wall; maybe you feel like you are banging your head against the wall…repeatedly. There is much to admire about Saturn he is responsible, dutiful, calm & collected. He is together; he is strength on the upswing. I think I must be destined to be with a Saturnian person my Saturn in Leo is on the 7th house descendent. I always find men in control to be sexy, admirable on the positive but on the negative it’s challenging to get an emotional reaction from them, they can live in there head during times they need to live in there heart. I’m not sure I’ve arrived at an accurate conclusion as to how I feel about Saturn in synastry text book analysis Saturn is paternal to you, he lives in a world of realism, he is too harsh on the moon & the sun. At the astrology conference I attended a great astrologer said Saturn puts up walls; Saturn puts distance between whatever planet it touches, it puts space. That can be challenging when you are trying to get close to someone. I wonder how can you break Saturn’s barriers. Or perhaps you need to work with in them. I’m unsure. A brilliant woman on twitter told me: you know Saturn is in your 7th house learn how to cook with it instead of getting burnt by it. That’s some food for thought. Surrender to it instead of opposing it. What do you think? I’m beginning to think I dont really have to choice

Please read the follow up post regarding Saturn in Synastry; essentially the end result

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/11/19/let-sleeping-babies-lie-saturn-in-synastry/

Sometimes you are Damned if you do damned if you don’t

Published July 26, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

solar retun chart
I looked at my solar return chart months prior to my birthday and saw that I had my solar return Venus on my natal Saturn. Venus the planet of love on Saturn the planet of restriction, duty, commitment, and time. Timing is everything, how very cliché. Venus doesn’t go well with Saturn, they don’t hold hands. One is light and love and well the other is work. I thought this can’t be good. No you should not look at one aspect you have to take the entire chart into consideration blah blah blah but being single I want to know where my moon (feelings) and Venus (heart) are going to be for the year. 2012 was good year I had Saturn in the 3rd house of communication and thought so I spent a lot of time writing and it was nowhere near my moon or Venus. I’m going to tread lightly here, but this year Venus is in the 10th house of career and Saturn is in my 6th house of daily work; draw your own conclusions on how we met. Looking at this year’s solar return the energy was vaguely familiar so I looked back on my Solar return charts since 2009 when I first met my “plutonic love” and this only enhanced my state of awareness. Damn astrology. I had Scorpio Rising then as well, Saturn in the 7th restricting my relationships, moon in the 12th; feelings that lay secret. 2010 Saturn yet again in the 7th restricting relationships, my moon was in the 4th house; the 4th house is the darkest part of the soul it rules the cradle to the grave and lastly in 2011 when my “plutonic love” married someone else I had Saturn Conjunct moon in the 5th house of love affairs falling into the 8th house of transformation. A recipe for heartache. From 2009 – 2011 were very difficult times for me. I had a lot of sorrow. I mean those years were the catalyst for all I do today, the reason I moved, the inspiration for this blog, those years defined who I’m today, sadly sometimes joyfully but always definitely. So here we are 2013 and I meet someone, I like I never like anyone, sadly. I called my friend when I met him and explained the charts and said I can’t go through this again. Then went to see my own astrologer, I didn’t mention anything and he said this year is a good time to have an affair, (Gay men gotta love them they are so liberal). I myself clearly can see this Venus conjunct Saturn in my Solar Return indicating this is a man I like that has prior commitments. Just like the Saturn in the 7th house for my other 2 solar return charts. 7th house equals relationships Saturn literally can indicate a man with commitments, where Saturn lies there is restriction and hardship. I thought to myself; you cannot go down this road again this road that leads nowhere this path that is nothing more than a cul-de-sac where you end up where you started. I’m not in the mood for a transformative journey because I have been transforming since 2009 and I’m tired. Oprah once said; lord don’t teach me nothing new today”. That’s how I feel. I decided to choose differently, because I didn’t want to be in that place because I know that I’m not a light sort of person, I know if I like you I have the great capacity to love you and I’m unable to have just a good time. So I chose differently, I choose to acknowledge that this person is fascinating, but I will do nothing about it. When you know better you are suppose to do better. Isn’t that the idea to learn from the past and not repeat it? Someone tweeted the other day: We must all suffer one of two things the pain of discipline or the pain of regret and disappointment. That’s where I’m at emotionally I wondered if I could avoid my destiny, avoid what is in the chart? And I can say yes and no. I decided to not jump in head and heart first like I always do, but Venus is still on that Saturn and I still do like a man that has prior commitments. What up with you and your solar return? xo

PS a fabulous Gemini recommended I watch the movie TIMER I think considering Saturn in Astrology is considered Father of Time and timing is indeed everything, it is worth a mention.

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It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want too

Published July 6, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

Tomorrow is my birthday truth be told I’m ready for it to be over. I don’t mean this negatively, I’m happy I’m here another year! Still I’m ok with just getting on with it, getting on with life. This is strange because I’m the birthday person; I’m the person that encourages everyone to celebrate each passing year. I’m an astrologer for petes sake! This year is different, this year I’m different. I crave simplicity, stillness, and quiet. This is not to be confused with sadness, I’m not sad at all so perhaps I should’ve made the title of this post: It’s my party and ill ignore it if I want too. Last night I went bowling with a group of people from work. That is what I wanted to do; simple, light no drama. I have spent many birthdays in Las Vegas, I’ve flown to Paris for a weekend and have climbed Chichen itza on whim. This year I’m still. Last year I had all the pomp and circumstance at STK and bottles were ordered, filet mignon was had. But that was last year; this year there was this underlying feeling from others “are you sure you don’t want to do something else”. I didn’t. And when a close friend of mine was a no show like she often is and didn’t bother to call, I was fine with that too to everyones amazement. I feel flat lately. I’m not going to say uninspired because I find inspiration in daily life, but I guess I feel somewhat emotionally vacant. I’m ok with it, I suppose. Other people in my life, uh not so much. For 35 years I was that impulsive person, with a fiery temper that got drunk and danced on table tops but after 2 years of emotional upheaval, I’m trying to embrace my inner calm, after all I prayed for it. I have a strong desire to be alone, to retreat, to climb into my shell. I want to take a break, go bird watching, and simply be silent. I want to make cake pops and feed some hot man grapes while passing thoughts between us telekinetically. Ha I know I don’t want to be drunk, self destructive or living some meaningless existence filled with moments that don’t really matter, spending time just to pass the time with people that don’t matter.
I have been working overnight at work ya know the grave yard shift; everyone is stunned I’m not enraged. I’m really not and I know some people would like to believe I’m secretly angry but they are wrong hence the saying
As Above, So Below
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All of outward experiences are directly related to a need from within. I need solitude so this shift works for now. I guess the 2 years prior to this one I needed a transformative experience and some life lessons, so that’s exactly what I received.
There is a reason and a season for everything.
Though I know the delivery sometimes sucks and the reason eludes us.
I recently met a man and sadly he is unavailable. In the past perhaps I would have been upset, I would have thrown a pity party, made some abstract deals with god; like ill trade you 4 sunny days and raise you 1 Gucci bag if I can have that man. My mode now is different; I’m like oh well I guess this isn’t meant to be.
I don’t care to discuss the past, truth be told I never like to discuss the past I know someone that always wants to discuss stuff from 20 years ago. I struggle with the past ya know that’s the nature of cancer, that’s the sun in cancers journey. We carry people and things with us from the past and sometimes we’re held prisoner of it. Not anymore, the past can be 10 years ago, 10 months ago or 10 minutes ago. I possess a strong desire to live in this moment. We have this moment here, you and I just us in the here and now and its really the only moment that counts.
I recently went for an astrology reading, after 2 years of emotional upheaval, I was alarmed by the way I was feeling. Most people go for readings when life is chaotic, I’m accustomed to that, it’s the quiet that scares me. The que sera sera creeps in and worries me. The astrologer informed me my progressed moon is in the balsamic moon state and will remain this way for an entire year. The progressed Balsamic moon is the end of a cycle, the last stage, the emotional retreat and the preparation for the new. My natal moon is in Aries, the 1st in the zodiac, the sign of impulse, immediate gratification and passion; no wonder this is weird. My moon is a warrior, the astrologer said he finds it odd that I’m supposed to be in a state of rest yet he could see in my chart I hardly sleep and have a 100 hobbies (writing, acting, NYU classes, blogging, etc) he said if it weren’t for all these creative outlets he would suggest I see a therapist because people often have difficulty with this progressed phase. The letting go of who you were, the releasing of the past, the stillness, the rest before the progressed new moon hence new beginnings. Today I woke up feeling out of sorts like I hardly recognize myself. Someone asked me what I want to do for my birthday; I said I want to attend a new moon meditation group. That is really what I want to do. After 35 years of insanity I think I deserve that, I think I deserve a little rest, to check out mentally and emotionally a bit. I checked my progressed chart after being a bit weirded out by my own emotional process, what do you know? My moon is in the final degree Cancer. The 29th degree, whats known as the critical degree, when a planet is in the 29th degree of a sign it’s on its way to another sign. My progressed moon will enter Leo on August 7th. When a planet leaves a sign there is a crisis, an ending and a new beginning; this is the moon we are talking about so an emotional crisis indeed. Who knew being calm could be so questionable? I’ll make sure to put on my patient cap author Nancy Anne Hastings writes in her book Time To Remember :when the progressed moon moves from Aries to Leo being they are both fire signs; “you will get through difficult situations with a minimum of emotional upheaval”. Looks like things are going to be calm for awhile, Im just not sure who is having the harder time adjusting; myself or others Here is how to find your progressed moon phase

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And here is my other post on progressions:
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2012/03/04/a-breif-introduction-into-progressions/

Love is hard; Saturn aspects

Published June 20, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

Lately I have been thinking about Saturn in synastry, it gets a really bad rap. I heard a relationship (composite) chart with Venus square Saturn will not make it. Venus the planet of love in hard aspect to planet of duty, restriction, and hardship is well uh hard. Love shouldn’t be hard, not in my opinion. Love should be transformative (Pluto) wild (Uranus) transcendental (Neptune) but hard no thank you. I did a reading for someone that often complains about marriage & raising children I knew he was going to have Saturn square Venus because even taking kids to little league games sounds like a chore. No matter who he would have married I would assume he would think, wow this is hard. Secretly I think he blames his wife, but really it’s him. That’s the natal aspect but in synastry if one persons Saturn opposes or squares another persons personal planet Sun (identity), Moon (feelings), Mercury (mind), Venus (love and finance) and Mars (sex) the Saturn person brings with them into the relationship the Saturian energy, for example they can often critique the Sun person for instance my Saturn in Leo squared the Sun of a Taurus I knew and I often made reference to the manner in which he lived his life. Negative references. Why are you this way? Why do you play things so safe? After awhile that can become annoying to the Sun person, for understandable reasons.
Signs are square one another when they are in the same mode Taurus and Leo are both fixed signs but the way they operate is very different.
I also know a person that has Saturn in Libra opposing my Moon in Aries (Aries and Libra are opposite in the zodiac) and while I have tremendous regard for them there is often a sense of not being able to plunge the depths of them emotionally. His Pluto is opposite my Moon which indicates emotional transformation but the degree is much wider than the square from Saturn, the tighter the orb the greater the impact.
While I would try to avoid Saturn in harsh aspect to Moon Sun Venus & definitely Mars (sexual issues like mad) in a Composite/Relationship chart. In Synastry I’m not so sure as of yet. I think it depends on the individual A. If they have a natal Saturn Square Venus and some ones Saturn Squares their Venus they are already accustomed to love being hard etc B. This took me a very long time to learn, but not everyone is looking for emotional exploration. So if I’m closed emotionally and some ones Saturn is in hard aspect to my moon. Maybe I would be ok with that because I like keeping people at emotional distances. The problem would arise when you have someone that is extremely emotional and needs to connect on a deeper level, but they feel the Saturn person is at a distance. You can’t quite reach them.
I would love to hear from anyone that has experienced hard Saturn aspects in synastry or composite. How did this manifest for you? Were you the Saturn person? Is love indeed hard

Follow up post with end result:
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/11/19/let-sleeping-babies-lie-saturn-in-synastry/

Neptune Retrograde; Your not like the others futuristic lover

Published June 15, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

With Neptune in retrograde motion for the next 6 months and squaring my Venus I thought this would be an opportune time to write about Neptunian love affairs. I tweeted the other day if you have ever found yourself whispering “I need you” to a completely unavailable person then you undoubtedly have experienced Neptune on your Moon, Venus, Mars or Sun. Its alluring, hypnotic with a come hither vibe that whispers sweet nothings that sounds like somethings in your ear. Touch becomes otherworldly,

Like in the song by Katy Perry;

They say you’re not like the others, futuristic lover. Different DNA They don’t understand you

You’re from a whole other world. A different dimension. You open my eyes and I’m ready to go now lead me into the light.

Neptune will have you walking between worlds, the one based in reality with the tangible touch and another dimension that you can’t grasp with your hand but you know it is there. Or is it? In 2009 Neptune began to loosely square my Venus and became almost exact in the summer of 2011, when the veil was lifted and I was served a hard dose of reality. I have written about him so much quite frankly I could throw up, he is the reason I started this blog, he is my muse I suppose and though I could not feel further from him; he is a frame of reference for a lot of my astrological posts, he is my plutonic love. In Synastry or the comparison of 2 charts my Pluto aspected his entire chart, so that brought life changes, obsessions, upheavals, death and rebirth and while that was our combined energy I also had a Neptunian transit, the belief that everything was going to work out, that magically POOF! I would end up with him. Neptune = delusion. And the delusion came to a head and the veil fell on the day he booked his wedding at my place of employment. I don’t care to relive the past, I much prefer to sweep in under the carpet and leave it as some dust that has settled in that you can’t be bothered to clean up. But I want you to see how transits work; there is this experience occurring and then once the planets become exact there is an explosion, a truth, a change that occurs, a beginning or an ending. How that manifests is deeply personal for everyone. Surely no one on the face of the planet has had a fling with someone and then had that person come to your place of employment on their wedding day. Flash Forward present day; Neptune is working its way backward over my Venus yet again. Neptune is slow. Whereas the Sun changes sign roughly every 30 days Neptune will remain in Pisces until 2025! That’s a long time to live in lala land, a long time to walk between portals of what is real and what isn’t. But as with all retrograde periods life gives you a chance for a redo. Not with the same person, but perhaps with the same test. And maybe this time the ability to get it right. Fingers crossed. I don’t check my natal chart every day I live my life and as the saying goes I do believe life is meant to be lived forward but understood backward. The interesting thing about astrology is once you are familiar with a transit you can recognize it when you experience it again. Recently I have met someone I find extremely fascinating, like WOW similar to my 2009 plutonic love we don’t have a damn thing in common. He is unattainable but every word that he speaks is so utterly interesting. Retrograde planets: Hmm I have been here before. And when he said “I think you are amazing” and I said no no I think you are amazing. I knew I was in the midst of another Neptunian transit. Neptune is rolling over my Venus. I’ve placed 2 toothpicks in my eyes to make sure they remain open, consciously remain aware of what is not what I hope life to be. That is key in the midst of a Neptunian transit you should deal with facts and tangible realities. I’m not saying every part of a Neptune transit is heartbreaking I mean there is so much beauty to be found in unrequited love. Neptune on Venus is what poetry and sonnets are made of, and I don’t know if I have ever felt more alive or blindly hopeful as I do when Neptune is aspecting one of my personal planets.

The Facts:

Neptune travels backward through the zodiac for roughly 5 to 6 months. Neptune in Pisces will affect most profoundly those with planets from 1 – 7 degrees of mutable signs. So look to see if you have Moon, Mercury, Sun, Venus and Mars in 1-7 degrees of Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo or Pisces. That’s where you will experience the allure and hypnotic energy of Neptune. Retrograde periods are a time of do over’s, they are for reflecting, looking back, perhaps revisiting old haunts. It is often a time when a theme in your life from the past resurfaces, I like to think of retrograde periods as: a second time to get it right.

The feeling:

I have never felt this way before, I need you, I want to curl up inside of you because a breath between us is too much, your beautiful, you are perfect (that has to be the worst) I have to have you, your touch is transcendental, Can we run away together, walking on the moon, looking at the stars, I know you just told me you are _____________(fill in the blank) married? Jobless? A priest? But I love you and have to have you anyway

What to remember:

It is very easy for all of us to play the victim, oh poor me. I didn’t see it I didn’t know it etc. it sucks yes but we have to take responsibility for our own poor choices no matter how painful. In the very Neptunian; Great Gatsby Scott F Fitzgerald said: “It takes two to make an accident”

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People have the right to select a life they believe will make them happy even if they have decided that life isn’t with you:
I believe Oprah and Iylanya said it best on Oprahs Life Class when they said:

You don’t get a vote in someone else’s life

On the days I become upset I have a picture in my phone of a quote I heard on the Oprah show Super Soul Sunday It one of my all time favorites:
Super Soul Sunday

A lot of times under a Neptunian transit there is a self sacrificial theme. I would have given up anything to be with my plutonic love. We exist worlds apart, he is very suburban think Mercedes Minivan and those family stick figures on the back windshield and I m very city-ish, I like to act, write, and hang out with gay men. I keep this in my phone as a reminder that his dreams were not my own and vise versa.

What to do:

Write, sing, and learn how to play an instrument, do not commit to anything until this transit passes in a few months, and guard your heart, your soul and your hot pocket. And when all else fails pour a glass (ONE glass Neptune also rules addiction) of wine and turn up the music. I’ll leave you with a lovely Neptunian song.

strange and beautiful

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