With Neptune in retrograde motion for the next 6 months and squaring my Venus I thought this would be an opportune time to write about Neptunian love affairs. I tweeted the other day if you have ever found yourself whispering “I need you” to a completely unavailable person then you undoubtedly have experienced Neptune on your Moon, Venus, Mars or Sun. Its alluring, hypnotic with a come hither vibe that whispers sweet nothings that sounds like somethings in your ear. Touch becomes otherworldly,

Like in the song by Katy Perry;

They say you’re not like the others, futuristic lover. Different DNA They don’t understand you

You’re from a whole other world. A different dimension. You open my eyes and I’m ready to go now lead me into the light.

Neptune will have you walking between worlds, the one based in reality with the tangible touch and another dimension that you can’t grasp with your hand but you know it is there. Or is it? In 2009 Neptune began to loosely square my Venus and became almost exact in the summer of 2011, when the veil was lifted and I was served a hard dose of reality. I have written about him so much quite frankly I could throw up, he is the reason I started this blog, he is my muse I suppose and though I could not feel further from him; he is a frame of reference for a lot of my astrological posts, he is my plutonic love. In Synastry or the comparison of 2 charts my Pluto aspected his entire chart, so that brought life changes, obsessions, upheavals, death and rebirth and while that was our combined energy I also had a Neptunian transit, the belief that everything was going to work out, that magically POOF! I would end up with him. Neptune = delusion. And the delusion came to a head and the veil fell on the day he booked his wedding at my place of employment. I don’t care to relive the past, I much prefer to sweep in under the carpet and leave it as some dust that has settled in that you can’t be bothered to clean up. But I want you to see how transits work; there is this experience occurring and then once the planets become exact there is an explosion, a truth, a change that occurs, a beginning or an ending. How that manifests is deeply personal for everyone. Surely no one on the face of the planet has had a fling with someone and then had that person come to your place of employment on their wedding day. Flash Forward present day; Neptune is working its way backward over my Venus yet again. Neptune is slow. Whereas the Sun changes sign roughly every 30 days Neptune will remain in Pisces until 2025! That’s a long time to live in lala land, a long time to walk between portals of what is real and what isn’t. But as with all retrograde periods life gives you a chance for a redo. Not with the same person, but perhaps with the same test. And maybe this time the ability to get it right. Fingers crossed. I don’t check my natal chart every day I live my life and as the saying goes I do believe life is meant to be lived forward but understood backward. The interesting thing about astrology is once you are familiar with a transit you can recognize it when you experience it again. Recently I have met someone I find extremely fascinating, like WOW similar to my 2009 plutonic love we don’t have a damn thing in common. He is unattainable but every word that he speaks is so utterly interesting. Retrograde planets: Hmm I have been here before. And when he said “I think you are amazing” and I said no no I think you are amazing. I knew I was in the midst of another Neptunian transit. Neptune is rolling over my Venus. I’ve placed 2 toothpicks in my eyes to make sure they remain open, consciously remain aware of what is not what I hope life to be. That is key in the midst of a Neptunian transit you should deal with facts and tangible realities. I’m not saying every part of a Neptune transit is heartbreaking I mean there is so much beauty to be found in unrequited love. Neptune on Venus is what poetry and sonnets are made of, and I don’t know if I have ever felt more alive or blindly hopeful as I do when Neptune is aspecting one of my personal planets.

The Facts:

Neptune travels backward through the zodiac for roughly 5 to 6 months. Neptune in Pisces will affect most profoundly those with planets from 1 – 7 degrees of mutable signs. So look to see if you have Moon, Mercury, Sun, Venus and Mars in 1-7 degrees of Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo or Pisces. That’s where you will experience the allure and hypnotic energy of Neptune. Retrograde periods are a time of do over’s, they are for reflecting, looking back, perhaps revisiting old haunts. It is often a time when a theme in your life from the past resurfaces, I like to think of retrograde periods as: a second time to get it right.

The feeling:

I have never felt this way before, I need you, I want to curl up inside of you because a breath between us is too much, your beautiful, you are perfect (that has to be the worst) I have to have you, your touch is transcendental, Can we run away together, walking on the moon, looking at the stars, I know you just told me you are _____________(fill in the blank) married? Jobless? A priest? But I love you and have to have you anyway

What to remember:

It is very easy for all of us to play the victim, oh poor me. I didn’t see it I didn’t know it etc. it sucks yes but we have to take responsibility for our own poor choices no matter how painful. In the very Neptunian; Great Gatsby Scott F Fitzgerald said: “It takes two to make an accident”

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People have the right to select a life they believe will make them happy even if they have decided that life isn’t with you:
I believe Oprah and Iylanya said it best on Oprahs Life Class when they said:

You don’t get a vote in someone else’s life

On the days I become upset I have a picture in my phone of a quote I heard on the Oprah show Super Soul Sunday It one of my all time favorites:

A lot of times under a Neptunian transit there is a self sacrificial theme. I would have given up anything to be with my plutonic love. We exist worlds apart, he is very suburban think Mercedes Minivan and those family stick figures on the back windshield and I m very city-ish, I like to act, write, and hang out with gay men. I keep this in my phone as a reminder that his dreams were not my own and vise versa.

What to do:

Write, sing, and learn how to play an instrument, do not commit to anything until this transit passes in a few months, and guard your heart, your soul and your hot pocket. And when all else fails pour a glass (ONE glass Neptune also rules addiction) of wine and turn up the music. I’ll leave you with a lovely Neptunian song.

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