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Progressed Moon Conjunct Natal Saturn

Progressed Moon

I have been tired, like I can hardly put two feet in front of the other…kind of tired. I am not a nice tired person to be honest, I can be very cranky and when I need to sleep I must go to bed immediately. My mother would say I always slept through the night even as a baby and she would often check on me to see if I was still breathing.

And when I am up I am up full steam ahead awake. I like to juggle 100 tasks, I walk very quickly, my mind is fast, I am alert, quick to react and I love being this way. I can’t stand feeling sluggish. It makes me want to cry. Seriously.

Unfortunately I can’t rest I have to go to work, I don’t have a vacation planned until spring and I am currently out of sick days. So I am sluggishly moving along without the energy to go to the gym which quite frankly makes me mad and I have some independent projects I want to work on but lack the gusto to do so.

In my natal chart I have Mars sextile Mercury, a Grand Fire Trine and Cardinal T-Square these are the configurations of someone that goes out and gets things done, takes chances and is enthusiastic. Ugh not today, not yesterday and probably not tomorrow. The other night I called my Mother to pick me up from work because I thought I would fall on my face.

I want to be clear I am not depressed I’m simply lacking energy.

Naturally as an astrologer I pulled up my chart to see what was going on; aside from my Sun and Moon being hit by Uranus via transit what do you know on the exact day I called my Mother to pick me up my progressed moon was conjunct my natal Saturn.

I have written a bit about progressions here:

A Breif Introduction Into Progressions,

They are essential to learn just as transits are essential to anyone studying astrology and the art of prediction. (I find a number of astro newbies do not read them correctly If you have a question please hit me up here, on Google+ StarsMoonandSun or on twitter)

I am at the end of a progressed balsamic Moon Phase I believe in April I will experience a progressed New Moon in my 7th house and I honestly cannot wait this is an event that happens once every 28 or 29 years or so.  But until then I am dragging along, tired and on some days uninspired and I hate it.

Most astrologers use the progressed Moon as timing indicators, seeing the aspect it makes to natal planets. With the progressed Moon conjunct natal Saturn in my 6th house of work and routine it would make sense that I am drudging along, perhaps a little bored, lacking the desire or energy to forge ahead. After all Saturn rules restriction, boundaries, delays and the moon rules feelings, women (I have had several issues with women at work), comfort levels and nurturing.

I will say the plus is the progressed Moon moves fast and by January it will be 3 degrees away from Saturn and on April 8th god willing the universe will catapult me into a fresh start under this progressed New Moon Phase.

I also want to say that a lot of literature is written and is floating around about the progressed moon phase A. transiting the 6th house and B. conjunct Saturn that sounds rather scary. I have read a lot about people losing their jobs or having some sort of health crisis so you should find it refreshing that while I have been undergoing some structural changes at work that I do not enjoy I am still employed and regarding my health I had a breast cancer scare (An Arise eclipse hit my moon this year) but after a head to toe check up I am in top shape! So yes I know there are worse things in the world then being tired

Love and Light

Xo Danielle

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It’s my party and I’ll cry if I want too

Tomorrow is my birthday truth be told I’m ready for it to be over. I don’t mean this negatively, I’m happy I’m here another year! Still I’m ok with just getting on with it, getting on with life. This is strange because I’m the birthday person; I’m the person that encourages everyone to celebrate each passing year. I’m an astrologer for petes sake! This year is different, this year I’m different. I crave simplicity, stillness, and quiet. This is not to be confused with sadness, I’m not sad at all so perhaps I should’ve made the title of this post: It’s my party and ill ignore it if I want too. Last night I went bowling with a group of people from work. That is what I wanted to do; simple, light no drama. I have spent many birthdays in Las Vegas, I’ve flown to Paris for a weekend and have climbed Chichen itza on whim. This year I’m still. Last year I had all the pomp and circumstance at STK and bottles were ordered, filet mignon was had. But that was last year; this year there was this underlying feeling from others “are you sure you don’t want to do something else”. I didn’t. And when a close friend of mine was a no show like she often is and didn’t bother to call, I was fine with that too to everyones amazement. I feel flat lately. I’m not going to say uninspired because I find inspiration in daily life, but I guess I feel somewhat emotionally vacant. I’m ok with it, I suppose. Other people in my life, uh not so much. For 35 years I was that impulsive person, with a fiery temper that got drunk and danced on table tops but after 2 years of emotional upheaval, I’m trying to embrace my inner calm, after all I prayed for it. I have a strong desire to be alone, to retreat, to climb into my shell. I want to take a break, go bird watching, and simply be silent. I want to make cake pops and feed some hot man grapes while passing thoughts between us telekinetically. Ha I know I don’t want to be drunk, self destructive or living some meaningless existence filled with moments that don’t really matter, spending time just to pass the time with people that don’t matter.
I have been working overnight at work ya know the grave yard shift; everyone is stunned I’m not enraged. I’m really not and I know some people would like to believe I’m secretly angry but they are wrong hence the saying
As Above, So Below
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All of outward experiences are directly related to a need from within. I need solitude so this shift works for now. I guess the 2 years prior to this one I needed a transformative experience and some life lessons, so that’s exactly what I received.
There is a reason and a season for everything.
Though I know the delivery sometimes sucks and the reason eludes us.
I recently met a man and sadly he is unavailable. In the past perhaps I would have been upset, I would have thrown a pity party, made some abstract deals with god; like ill trade you 4 sunny days and raise you 1 Gucci bag if I can have that man. My mode now is different; I’m like oh well I guess this isn’t meant to be.
I don’t care to discuss the past, truth be told I never like to discuss the past I know someone that always wants to discuss stuff from 20 years ago. I struggle with the past ya know that’s the nature of cancer, that’s the sun in cancers journey. We carry people and things with us from the past and sometimes we’re held prisoner of it. Not anymore, the past can be 10 years ago, 10 months ago or 10 minutes ago. I possess a strong desire to live in this moment. We have this moment here, you and I just us in the here and now and its really the only moment that counts.
I recently went for an astrology reading, after 2 years of emotional upheaval, I was alarmed by the way I was feeling. Most people go for readings when life is chaotic, I’m accustomed to that, it’s the quiet that scares me. The que sera sera creeps in and worries me. The astrologer informed me my progressed moon is in the balsamic moon state and will remain this way for an entire year. The progressed Balsamic moon is the end of a cycle, the last stage, the emotional retreat and the preparation for the new. My natal moon is in Aries, the 1st in the zodiac, the sign of impulse, immediate gratification and passion; no wonder this is weird. My moon is a warrior, the astrologer said he finds it odd that I’m supposed to be in a state of rest yet he could see in my chart I hardly sleep and have a 100 hobbies (writing, acting, NYU classes, blogging, etc) he said if it weren’t for all these creative outlets he would suggest I see a therapist because people often have difficulty with this progressed phase. The letting go of who you were, the releasing of the past, the stillness, the rest before the progressed new moon hence new beginnings. Today I woke up feeling out of sorts like I hardly recognize myself. Someone asked me what I want to do for my birthday; I said I want to attend a new moon meditation group. That is really what I want to do. After 35 years of insanity I think I deserve that, I think I deserve a little rest, to check out mentally and emotionally a bit. I checked my progressed chart after being a bit weirded out by my own emotional process, what do you know? My moon is in the final degree Cancer. The 29th degree, whats known as the critical degree, when a planet is in the 29th degree of a sign it’s on its way to another sign. My progressed moon will enter Leo on August 7th. When a planet leaves a sign there is a crisis, an ending and a new beginning; this is the moon we are talking about so an emotional crisis indeed. Who knew being calm could be so questionable? I’ll make sure to put on my patient cap author Nancy Anne Hastings writes in her book Time To Remember :when the progressed moon moves from Aries to Leo being they are both fire signs; “you will get through difficult situations with a minimum of emotional upheaval”. Looks like things are going to be calm for awhile, Im just not sure who is having the harder time adjusting; myself or others Here is how to find your progressed moon phase

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And here is my other post on progressions:

A Breif Introduction Into Progressions,