Saturn conjunct moon

I have been tired, like I can hardly put two feet in front of the other…kind of tired. I am not a nice tired person to be honest, I can be very cranky and when I need to sleep I must go to bed immediately. My mother would say I always slept through the night even as a baby and she would often check on me to see if I was still breathing.

And when I am up I am up full steam ahead awake. I like to juggle 100 tasks, I walk very quickly, my mind is fast, I am alert, quick to react and I love being this way. I can’t stand feeling sluggish. It makes me want to cry. Seriously.

Unfortunately I can’t rest I have to go to work, I don’t have a vacation planned until spring and I am currently out of sick days. So I am sluggishly moving along without the energy to go to the gym which quite frankly makes me mad and I have some independent projects I want to work on but lack the gusto to do so.

In my natal chart I have Mars sextile Mercury, a Grand Fire Trine and Cardinal T-Square these are the configurations of someone that goes out and gets things done, takes chances and is enthusiastic. Ugh not today, not yesterday and probably not tomorrow. The other night I called my mother to pick me up from work because I thought I would fall on my face.

I want to be clear I am not depressed I’m simply lacking energy.

Naturally as an astrologer I pulled up my chart to see what was going on; aside from my Sun and Moon being hit by Uranus via transit what do you know on the exact day I called my mother to pick me up my progressed moon was conjunct my natal Saturn.

I have written a bit about progressions here:

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2012/03/04/a-breif-introduction-into-progressions/

They are essential to learn just as transits are essential to anyone studying astrology and the art of prediction. (I find a number of astro newbies do not read them correctly If you have a question please hit me up here, on Google+ StarsMoonandSun or on twitter)

I am at the end of a progressed balsamic Moon Phase I believe in April I will experience a progressed New Moon in my 7^th house and I honestly cannot wait this is an event that happens once every 28 or 29 years or so. But until then I am dragging along, tired and on some days uninspired and I hate it.

Most astrologers use the progressed moon as timing indicators, seeing the aspect it makes to natal planets. With the progressed moon conjunct natal Saturn in my 6^th house of work and routine it would make sense that I am drudging along, perhaps a little bored, lacking the desire or energy to forge ahead. After all Saturn rules restriction, boundaries, delays and the moon rules feelings, women (I have had several issues with women at work), comfort levels and nurturing.

I will say the plus is the progressed moon moves fast and by January it will be 3 degrees away from Saturn and on April 8^th god willing the universe will catapult me into a fresh start under this progressed New Moon Phase.

I also want to say that a lot of literature is written and is floating around about the progressed moon phase A. transiting the 6^th house and B. conjunct Saturn that sounds rather scary. I have read a lot about people losing their jobs or having some sort of health crisis so you should find it refreshing that while I have been undergoing some structural changes at work that I do not enjoy I am still employed and regarding my health I had a breast cancer scare (An Arise eclipse hit my moon this year) but after a head to toe check up I am in top shape! So yes I know there are worse things in the world then being tired

Love and Light

Xo Danielle

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I looked at my solar return chart months prior to my birthday and saw that I had my solar return Venus on my natal Saturn. Venus the planet of love on Saturn the planet of restriction, duty, commitment, and time. Timing is everything, how very cliché. Venus doesn’t go well with Saturn, they don’t hold hands. One is light and love and well the other is work. I thought this can’t be good. No you should not look at one aspect you have to take the entire chart into consideration blah blah blah but being single I want to know where my moon (feelings) and Venus (heart) are going to be for the year. 2012 was good year I had Saturn in the 3rd house of communication and thought so I spent a lot of time writing and it was nowhere near my moon or Venus. I’m going to tread lightly here, but this year Venus is in the 10th house of career and Saturn is in my 6th house of daily work; draw your own conclusions on how we met. Looking at this year’s solar return the energy was vaguely familiar so I looked back on my Solar return charts since 2009 when I first met my “plutonic love” and this only enhanced my state of awareness. Damn astrology. I had Scorpio Rising then as well, Saturn in the 7th restricting my relationships, moon in the 12th; feelings that lay secret. 2010 Saturn yet again in the 7th restricting relationships, my moon was in the 4th house; the 4th house is the darkest part of the soul it rules the cradle to the grave and lastly in 2011 when my “plutonic love” married someone else I had Saturn Conjunct moon in the 5th house of love affairs falling into the 8th house of transformation. A recipe for heartache. From 2009 – 2011 were very difficult times for me. I had a lot of sorrow. I mean those years were the catalyst for all I do today, the reason I moved, the inspiration for this blog, those years defined who I’m today, sadly sometimes joyfully but always definitely. So here we are 2013 and I meet someone, I like I never like anyone, sadly. I called my friend when I met him and explained the charts and said I can’t go through this again. Then went to see my own astrologer, I didn’t mention anything and he said this year is a good time to have an affair, (Gay men gotta love them they are so liberal). I myself clearly can see this Venus conjunct Saturn in my Solar Return indicating this is a man I like that has prior commitments. Just like the Saturn in the 7th house for my other 2 solar return charts. 7th house equals relationships Saturn literally can indicate a man with commitments, where Saturn lies there is restriction and hardship. I thought to myself; you cannot go down this road again this road that leads nowhere this path that is nothing more than a cul-de-sac where you end up where you started. I’m not in the mood for a transformative journey because I have been transforming since 2009 and I’m tired. Oprah once said; lord don’t teach me nothing new today”. That’s how I feel. I decided to choose differently, because I didn’t want to be in that place because I know that I’m not a light sort of person, I know if I like you I have the great capacity to love you and I’m unable to have just a good time. So I chose differently, I choose to acknowledge that this person is fascinating, but I will do nothing about it. When you know better you are suppose to do better. Isn’t that the idea to learn from the past and not repeat it? Someone tweeted the other day: We must all suffer one of two things the pain of discipline or the pain of regret and disappointment. That’s where I’m at emotionally I wondered if I could avoid my destiny, avoid what is in the chart? And I can say yes and no. I decided to not jump in head and heart first like I always do, but Venus is still on that Saturn and I still do like a man that has prior commitments. What up with you and your solar return? xo

PS a fabulous Gemini recommended I watch the movie TIMER I think considering Saturn in Astrology is considered Father of Time and timing is indeed everything, it is worth a mention.

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