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Venus in Solar Return 12th House 

Today I tweeted I feel like I’m having a Neptune/Venus transit but I’m not. When Neptune transits Venus in hard aspect (conjunction, square and opposition) we can lose touch with reality, we lose ourselves in love, we blindly believe in things; in people. We seek transcendental connections and we very well may believe we have met our soulmate.

As I was driving to work, I realized I have Venus in my Solar Return 12th house this is similar to a Venus/Neptune transit.

When I first saw this, I thought WOW am I going to have an affair this year? What secret relationship am I going to engage in? When people come to me for readings and they have this aspect (the majority of my clients are married) it is with 90% certainty they are having an affair. I’m halfway through my Solar Return and let me just say this is the year of not seeing men clearly. It would take a lot for me to fall head over heels in love. Romanticism is my thing but delusion isn’t. The solar Return 12th house (home to secrets and self-undoing) has Venus (planet of love) on my natal 6th house (work) perhaps I met a man at work that is the cause of my own self undoing. Perhaps I met a man at work I didn’t see clearly. Sometimes astrology is that literal. I love it when it is.

I see the soul of you

I know the whole of you

That’s the kind of day dreamy feelings that enveloped me. He is a player I was told and I laughed no he isn’t. It’s still hard to believe that he is. I take full ownership of this situation after all I never asked. I never asked if he had a harem of women. I never asked anything. That’s Neptune you don’t ask you just believe that you already know. He is Neptunian in every sense of the word. Disappointment: That’s the hallmark of Neptune in relationships; the dream never meets reality. Just wanted to caution those of you with Neptune in the 12th of your Solar Return it’s the secret lover, the love that causes your own self-undoing, the lover you see through rose colored glasses, the Pisces lover, the alcoholic lover, the married lover, the fantasy lover that can’t breathe a breath in the reality of your life lover

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Saturn Opposite Jupiter Transit; A Crisis of Faith 

Perhaps I should have called my first post on Saturn opposite Jupiter transit “a crisis of faith” that’s what it is really and the closer the orb gets the greater the crisis will be I imagine. Make it till January Danielle that’s all you have to do; that is what I tell myself.

I can be a runner in some ways but I have decided to face my shit so I’m no longer carrying it with me. When sad in typical Cancer fashion I call out sick and stay home for a week to nurse my wounds. This time I have decided to confront my them head on. After all we can’t heal what we refuse to face.

Jupiter governs the 9th house in astrology home to religion, beliefs, and politics when Saturn is in hard aspect to Jupiter via transit your beliefs come into question. I have found people have been talking to me about “God” more so than ever before.  I was checking in a guest and he asked me if God exists, a colleague wanted to know why people post Pray for Syria and if God existed would this be happening? I don’t believe in God- not in the sense- one man is in the clouds dictating our lives. I have never believed in God like that. My guest called me a Humanist when I explained this to him. I shy away from labels generally speaking. How very Aquarius rising of me

I encountered an issue recently that set me back financially and a disappointment in my love life that was harsh. Disappointment can be debilitating to me I am naturally so hopeful. Disappointments in love are not an anomaly I have Saturn in the 7th house it sorts of comes with the territory. This year numerologicaly (universally) has been a nine year this signifies the end of a cycle.  I can see a montage of bad relationships choices laid out in front of me. The culmination of bad choices I refuse to carry with me into 2017! I refuse.

Stop putting hope in false prophets may be another Saturn opposite Jupiter catch phrase. “I release the pattern within my consciousness that created this condition” is one of my daily Louise Hay Affirmations I’m forever drawn to melancholic men that wear sadness like a cloak. The next one has to be happy I tell myself that should be the #1 criteria You can’t save anyone shit sometimes you can’t even love them; they won’t let you.

“When you have lived in a Dungeon for a very long time the light when you see it can actually hurt your eyes” – Marianne Williamson

So, here is Saturn calling me on my Jupiterian beliefs. I believe in Law of Attraction I believe in working with the cycles of your life I love Eckhart Tolle and Abraham Hicks I believe (such a Jupiter word) in those teachings so now it’s time to find practical application for them (Saturn) I have a social media account that’s comprised of astrology but also of spiritual texts I can tweet Louise Hay all day but if I’m not living it well that’s just bullshit. You aren’t what you say you will do…. you are what you do. (Ah a major 2016 lesson) so it’s time to get real (Saturn) about my spirituality (Jupiter) it’s time to go to work on it. It’s time to wake up and go balls to the wall with my faith. Transcend my own man-made prisons, change my subconscious limiting beliefs, not crumble in the face of disappointment and truly believe that “everything is working out for me”.  I will drag my ass out of bed and one day at a time, one affirmation at a time, one mediation at a time align with the belief (Jupiter) that within the next 4 weeks when this transit is over, I will be shiny and new.

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Saturn the Buzz Kill to Jupiter

I am tired, drained really, I do not have much energy and I feel the energy I do have is spent doing what I have to do, I don’t really have any excess to do the things I want to do. I have the Sun in the 5th house my identity, my journey if you will is centered around love and creativity. The 5th house is the house of joy; being weighed down with extra responsibilities is exhausting.

It is very important that you tend to your natal Sun, that you nourish it with the activities suggested by the house that it is placed in. 6th house Sun, fitness time and order will really help you flourish. If you have a 9th house Sun schedule a vacation or attend a lecture. Wherever our Sun is placed we need to remember to feed it.

Energetically I always run very high I have Sun square Moon, a Cardinal T square in my chart along with a Grand Fire Trine. Cardinal signs are doers. My Mom said she was going to buy me a makeup bag that read “I am busy” because I always am. I laugh at people that have the time to correct my grammatical errors on twitter, I am pretty sure they aren’t doing all that I do in a day. Running, going, writing, working, giving readings, taken a class, on and on and on until this week I hit a wall.

The culprit; Saturn is opposite my Jupiter via transit

Saturn Rules

  • Responsibility
  • Time
  • Work
  • Boundaries
  • Lessons
  • Practicality Zzzzzzz

According to Jeanne Avery in Astrological Aspects Your Inner Dialogs

Saturn “describes shoulds, musts, and ought’s”

“Saturn is the testing ground of life and indicates the greatest karmic lesson to be learned”

I don’t do Saturn very well.

I believe if you look to the natal chart you will see how hard a transit for you will be. Not all astrologers believe this; I think if you are heavy say Plutonian Pluto transits will be easier for you because you are familiar with that energy. I have Pluto square my Sun, opposite my Moon exact, trine Jupiter, sextile Saturn, Neptune & Midheaven and trine my Ascendant. Pluto is woven into me, death and rebirth it all comes naturally. I just finished a Pluto opposite Sun square Moon transit and it was pretty much all gravy.

But Saturn transits god you can find me lying in bed weeping.

I am just not very good with rules and structure I prefer to be free floating.

Saturn is now opposing my natal Jupiter in the 4th house it will be exact on New Year’s Eve Oh the joy

Jupiter Represents

  • Expansion
  • Optimism
  • Good Luck
  • Joy

“The Jupitarian quality is a marvelous combination of practicality and enthusiasm. The reverse quality is disappointment. If the aim is too high and the goals are missed the individual can be paralyzed by the letdown” –Jeanne Avery

You want to look where Jupiter and Sagittarius are placed in your natal chart to see where you feel lucky or optimistic. I have Sagittarius on my Midheaven, I think this gives me a hope that things will work out and when they don’t, I would say I am greatly disappointed. I usually work from an inner knowing which stems from my natal Jupiter in the 4th house. The 4th house is the root of the chart and reflects what we carry deep within us among other things. So, I have never been a 5-year planner I am a go with the flow listen to my own guidance sort of person.

I intuit mostly everything I do. I announced the other day at work I was booking a trip to Machu Piccchu and my colleague said Oh Peru…I had no idea where it even was! I sort of get called to do things

I have written before that I do not feel Jupiter brings us lotto wins or grand romances, I think it infuses the planet or house with an optimism and belief that everything will be ok and usually it is until it isn’t.

And that brings me to Saturn opposite Jupiter

Saturn squashes the belief, the optimism, the joy that Jupiter holds. It tests (Saturn always tests) your beliefs, your truths, your inner workings (if Jupiter is in the 4th house).

Robert Hand writes in his book Planets in Aspect about Saturn opposite Jupiter transit

“During this time your opportunities for growth and expansion are limited”.

PROBABLY BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO F&%ING TIRED TO DO ANYTHING

“You often feel as if your personal freedom is unduly limited by others”.

“This transit is a useful if not always pleasant encounter with reality”

Saturn squelches the joy and optimism of Jupiter don’t let anyone ever tell you any different.

For those of you that have this natal oppositions can work like a swinging door so you can be optimistic, joyful, overly eager and then fall victim to Saturn the disappointment, melancholy, and depression can kick in. Robert Plletier writes in “Planets in Aspect” those that have this natal

“You fluctuate between knowing what you are worth to having doubts about your value”

I know this isn’t the worst transit, (those will happen for me in 2018 when Saturn enters Capricorn, I seriously just finished recovering from Saturn in Libra) that’s the beauty that comes with age when you are young you think this will never end, when you are older and know astrology you can simply open your ephemeris and say I may have to drag my uninspired tired ass all the way through December but as of January 1st this transit is over and I can go back to being my high energy manic self perhaps with a few lessons in the bag.

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The Astrology of Brad and Angelina’s Divorce

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I don’t have a personal opinion on Brad or Angelina as I am not really a fan of either. I do however have an affinity for anyone that adopts children I think it is one of the most selfless acts a person can do.

The Divorce is quite obvious

Uranus is squaring Angelina’s Venus in Cancer though it never reached an exact square one would presume a divorce or separation would be eminent. Venus in your natal chart along with your 7th house and the ruler of the 7th house all relate to relationships and partnerships. Uranus is the planet of the unexpected and yes separation. Hard Uranus/Venus aspects are often prominent in the charts of people that file for divorce (though not always). Angelina Jolie has Venus square Uranus in her natal chart which reflects her several marriages. This is often found in the natal charts of people that marry more than one time. Elizabeth Taylor famous for her multiple marriages has Uranus conjunct Venus. Via progression Angelina’s natal Venus square Uranus is almost exact indicating a break up or separation is likely

Uranus rearranges whatever it touches, it shakes things up, breaks things up, awakens us and brings sudden abrupt changes.

It isn’t always mentioned but when Uranus transits the 10th house -as is the case with Angelina you see a change in marital status. the 10th house rules your reputation and how you are publicly seen so clearly marriage and divorce change this.

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Brad Pitt has Venus in Capricorn and today the exact day they have filed for divorce Uranus is squaring his natal Venus so here we have the theme of separation, a break up etc.

When a couple have Venus signs in the same mode (Cardinal, Fixed, Mutable) they will be challenged at the same time. It can be very difficult because one person cannot be the voice of reason when 2 people are both itching to sever ties.

I have discussed this before with Ben Affleck’s divorce You can read more about this here:

PREDICTING DIVORCE AND A LITTLE BEN AND JEN

(Though clearly, they seem to be attempting to make it work, Ben Affleck has Moon in Scorpio however destructive he may be this can be a sign committed to family in its own right)

Brad Pitt also has Saturn sitting on the Ascendant, the 1st house cusp. When Saturn leaves the 12th house and crosses into the 1st it is a time to get serious about what we want. The 1st house is YOU; it rules our first breath. When a planet transits the 1st house we are asked to consider; what do I want? You also have to think in terms of polarities what happens in the 1st also influences the 7th-which is the house of marriage and will also square the 4th house of home and 10th house of career and reputation. The 4 angular houses in astrology are known as “the cross of life” when an outer planet transits one angular house it will at some point influence all of the angular houses.

It is reported that Brad had an “affair” let it be noted that my astrology instructor said  you can cheat when a planet is in the 12th house after all the 12th house is the closet, it holds our secrets but once a planet crosses into the 1st your secrets will be revealed. The 12th house -no one sees not even you-it holds our self-undoing but the 1st house everyone sees.

Brad Pitt also has Uranus squaring his Moon- the moon rules the women in your life, it also rules your home where you live.  Most recently Johnny Depp had this transit we all see how that turned out.

Lastly, we take a look at the Composite chart this is the energy of two people coming together; what do they create. Everyone is different with different people and the composite chart shows how you function together as unit.

Uranus here is prominent it is opposite the composite Venus so we continue to see those themes of divorce and separation. Also, Jupiter is about to enter the 1st house this transit is one known to seek freedom (interestingly enough they first got together when Jupiter entered the composite 1st house indicating the relationship lasted one full Jupiter cycle) and this last eclipse hit the Composite Sun head on. The Composite Sun is the life force of the couple, the identity a Full Moon eclipse often signify endings, completion and the end of an era.

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Jupiter enters Libra September 10th 2016

Jupiter will enter Libra on September 10th 2016 and will stay in the cardinal air sign until October 10, 2017. Jupiter stays in a sign for approximately a year and will transit the entire birth chart in 12 years. Jupiter transits are quick and not life changing. I have received some flak for saying that I am not fond of Jupiter transits. I feel more than anything they infuse the house they are in over a 12-month period with optimism but if anyone is looking for quick lotto gains and Princesses Diana weddings, I don’t believe Jupiter brings us this despite what we are sometimes led to believe.

 

In my opinion the most significant Jupiter transits are when Jupiter crosses the ascendant and into the first house, I have seen some people abandon their old life in search of new. Just recently someone I know moved after 20+ years at the same residence and another that changed jobs after 15 years in the same establishment. Jupiter transits to the 1st house encourages people to take chances and leaps of faith. I love that!

 

I’m also fond of your Jupiter return I believe this brings blessings or gifts to the house that holds the natal placement of Jupiter. This occurs approximately every 12 years so ages 23, 36, 48 etc. A planetary return is when a planet returns to the place it was at the time of your birth. For example the Solar Return happens once a year on your birthday when the sun returns to the place it was at the time of your birth, a Saturn Return happens twice at the age of 28-31 approx. and 56-60, Uranus makes one return if you are lucky enough to live to 84 but Jupiter due to the quick rate at which it moves will return to your natal Jupiter every 12 years. I find those years to be particularly significant

 

Jupiter Rules:

 

  • Optimism
  • Prosperity
  • Freedom
  • Expansion
  • Morals
  • Wisdom
  • Trust
  • Goodwill

 

When Jupiter transits a house more than anything we believe in the possibilities, our approach is an inclination that things will work out. We believe and while IMO that isn’t the transformative energy I much prefer, it can certainly lighten the load.

 

Libra is the sign that corresponds to

 

  • Beauty
  • Partnership
  • Equality
  • Balance
  • Fairness
  • Harmony
  • Diplomacy

 

Libra Rules the 7th house in astrology home to

 

  • Law Suits
  • Open Enemies
  • Marriages and Divorces
  • Negotiations
  • Contracts
  • Business Partnerships

 

(Of course, Libra also has the shadowy side as well –indecisive, superficial, in need of partnership to the point they often cannot function alone)

 

I find the nature of Jupiter corresponds well with the philosophies of Libra. In Author Molly Halls book (cover featured below) she describes Libra as a sign “that’s passion for justice makes Libra a sign that excels in diplomacy, law, politics, mediation and social advocacy”. She goes on to describe the planet Jupiter as “Jupiter rules all areas in which an over reaching meaning is sought; these include religion, publishing, philosophy and the legal profession”. I would go so far as to say that I expect to see Jupiter’s visit to Libra to either enhance our current partnerships both personal and professional or free us from them. Remember Jupiter rules expansion and freedom and often you will find during a Jupiter transit you are let go of or fired from a job you really didn’t like or you find the courage to leave an unfulfilling relationship (Libra being the sign of partnership). Sometimes things happen that seem awful at the time but really serve to expand (Jupiter) our consciousness and quality of life really.

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I am still hopeful to see some law enforcement reform with Saturn Lord of Karma visiting Sagittarius and now perhaps getting a boost from Jupiter in Libra. Both Sag and Libra correspond to legalities both being somewhat idealist signs I think perhaps they can bring some much-needed change in Police Departments across the country (fingers crossed). More than anything I expect Jupiter in Libra to alter the way we as a whole relate to one another. I would expect to see a boost in our partnerships. If you are a Libra rising, Sun or Moon do watch your diet this is the transit of gaining weight. After all Jupiter expands whatever it touches and sometimes that is our waistline; on the Ascendant that is how you appear and the Moon rules our eating habits. I know we tend to think of Jupiter as a beneficial transit but you do want to watch your debts (8th house) and expenditures (2nd house) when Jupiter transits the money houses as already mentioned Jupiter expands whatever it touches and that isn’t necessarily always a good thing.

The Tarot Card associated with Jupiter in Libra is 4 of swords sometimes knows as Truce. If you think about the number 4 it is all about balance and that is what Libra seeks most, equality. Four is a stable number 4 legs to a table, a square has 4 sides, we have 4 cardinal points, east, west, north and south, 4 seasons, 4 phases of the moon etc. Swords are related to air and intellect Libra is an air sign, concerned with peace, diplomacy and like all air signs: ideas. The 4 of swords is about taking a time out before the fight which is indicated in the 5 of swords, it seeks to find a peaceful resolution. I recall someone once describing Libra as an “Iron fist in a velvet glove”. So perhaps this tarot card is the gathering of strength, the rest before the action, as you can see 3 swords are above the sleeping man and one is just below him, easy to grasp in a moment’s notice. While Libra may seem passive one must not forget they are a cardinal sign like Aries, Cancer and Capricorn so they do direct their energy outward. I also believe this card relates to Jupiter in the sense that Jupiter is sometimes the bragger yes someone that talks excessively (Jupiter in the 3rd house or Jupiter on Mercury) but sometimes Jupiter is an inner knowing an inner expansion and inner peace and that is reflected in this card.

I hope Jupiter’s visit to Libra brings you the improved relationships you seek. If nothing else maybe we will be inclined to see the very best in others xoxo

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A Brief Post On: Saint Denise Richards

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A Brief Post On: Saint Denise Richards

This will be a brief post on actress Denise Richards

I have heard several people most famously Wendy Williams refer to Denise Richards as a Saint

I knew in that instant Denise must have a prominent Neptune.

A planet is considered prominent if it conjunct an angle or placed in an angular house 1,4,7 and 10 or on personal planets Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars in hard aspect (square, conjunction and opposition)

Denise Richards Sun in Aquarius is squared by Neptune

When someone has a prominent Neptune, they are often confused about their own identity, this is very common when placed in the 1st house.

With Neptune on the Sun people will see the person through a Neptunian Veil so they can be the sinner the saint, the Madonna the whore, the victim or the martyr.

So, this is what happens to Denise this is why people refer to her as a Saint but if you ask someone like Say Heather Locklear, she might have a different opinion. After all Heather and Denise were good friends (allegedly) and Denise slept with her husband…ex-husband? Richie Sambora. So, ah-ha maybe she is a sinner

With a prominent Neptune the swing is wide, people will whip up fabrications about you and project traits onto you that you do not even possess.

This Neptune square Sun can also attribute to Denise Richards being a Bond Girl, she embodies sex appeal. Neptune rules fantasies. She has posed for Playboy as well. Denise also has worked with animal charities that is another side to Neptune giving to less fortunate, she also has adopted a child which to me is the embodiment of selflessness.

The Sun in a woman’s life rules the Men in the woman’s life. Denise has a very close relationship with her Father or that’s how it appears. Sun/Neptune can result in a variety of ways

  • You don’t know your father, something about him is vague
  • Your father was an addict
  • Your father was something Neptunian, actor artist etc.
  • Your father can be like God you experienced him through that Neptunian Veil 

I looked but can’t find any quotes Denise has said about her father but given how close they seem I can only suppose she sees him as –everything

Women with Sun/Neptune in hard aspect to one another should to be careful when selecting a marriage partner because you will likely attract men you want to save, men with addiction issues, men that are unclear to you, vague in some manner on the more positive end artistic men. You can see how Charlie Sheen embodies these attributes

Just want to add with all the news regarding Charlie Sheen not paying child support to Denise Richards and Brooke Mueller (or trying to reduce his payments)

Charlie Sheen has Venus in 18 degrees of Libra

Denise Richards has Venus in 13 degrees of Capricorn

Brooke Mueller has Venus in 17 Degrees of Cancer

Venus is the planet of money (amongst other things) and all 3 of their Venus’ are in Cardinal signs caught up with Uranus in Aries and Pluto in Capricorn. I already wrote extensively about Charlie Sheens financial decline here

https://starsmoonandsun.com/2015/11/19/a-charlie-sheen-update/

I hoped those 2 ladies put some money away for a rainy day. Umbrellas up.

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Saturn Transiting 8th House, Show Me The Money

Saturn entered my 8th house over a year ago and I cannot wait for him to make his way out! Having Pluto and Uranus in my natal 8th house I’m accustomed to sudden change, introspection, seeking the truth and depths of situations. But Saturn in 8th house squaring my sun and opposing my moon has been dreadful. Life has been difficult to say the very least. The 8th house rules death, other people’s money, sex not in a love affair fun sort of way like the 5th house, but more of a plutonian type. It’s hidden, scandalous, and obsessive. They say where there is Saturn there is karma to be worked off, needless to say I have been working my ass off. I’m not the same as I was before. I feel like an orange, peeling a layer and another layer and as I shed my skin I just long to get to the juicy part. The good part, a better part of me.

Some Lessons of Saturn in 8th house

The House of Other Peoples Money

Saturn Transiting the 8th house often indicates a lack of help in finances. It rules the money of other people. The 2nd house is the money you earn. Saturn transiting the 8th house gives you a feeling of having to do everything on your own. Feeling utterly overwhelmed . You can have enough money, but some how it isn’t enough and you will find people seldom want to help you while Saturn is in your 8th house. I must admit money has never played a bigger part in my life than in this year. I have worked since I was 14; I have traveled to Europe throughout the Caribbean and across the US on my own merit, putting myself through college and saving up to purchase my own home. Natal Saturn in the 6th house indicates everything I acquire is via my own effort. To be frank I have little regard or respect for people who simply have things handed to them. That being said this year has been one obstacle after another, financial road blocks and major setbacks. I was approved for a mortgage, but denied by a condo board, I’ve been through lost applications, hidden fees, flip taxes oh my! It has taken a toll on my being and there have been many nights I have thrown myself a pity party. Why me? Why is this happening? Recently I met a depressed former love for drinks (he has Saturn transiting his 7th YIKES); I said you have the house, the cars, the children and I feel like I have nothing. He was quick to assure me that money doesn’t equate happiness and sometimes a “pretty picture” Is simply that. A picture not a reality. Saturn lesson number 1; all that glitters isn’t gold. This one is going to take a while.

Lessons of Saturn

The House of Sharing & Intimacy

Natally most of my planets fall below the horizon, the focus on my stuff (Moon in 2nd house), My way of thinking (Mars in the 3rd house) my neighbors (Venus in 3rd house), my house & my roots (Jupiter in 4th house), My love affairs & my creative abilities (Sun in 5th house) my job (Mercury in the 6th house) and my health habits (Saturn in 6th house). Me Me Me! Saturn transiting my 8th house has changed the way in which I see relationships. Making me realize in order for any relationship to work there has to be a 50/50 give and take.Thinking in terms of “us” not how will this effect me. With an Aries moon it is always “me first”. It has completely gutted the way in which I relate to the people around me. Coming face to face with my own inadequacies, learning that people are not perfect. No one is perfect. After a series of events that occurred leaving me devastated I was forced to go to others for help, lean on others for support and assistance. I’m the type of person that prefers to handle things alone, I rarely ask for favors but that has simply not been the case the last year or so. As I have had to depend on others to pick me up and dust me off when the purchase of my home fell through and a 100 other things went wrong. I feel as though I’m stretching and growing inside, but as painful as it has been I believe at the end of this transit, I will view it as a cathartic process.

Lessons of Saturn

Obsessions, Dark Love, Sex

Saturn in the 8th house will bring you face to face with your inner fears, the things you deny, perhaps haven’t even admitted to yourself. If you’re generally possessive in love it will bring you face to face with a love you cannot possess. Controlling tendencies, Saturn in the 8th house will bring relationships beyond control. It will drag to the surface all that lies beneath, pulling out your heart and stomping on the very fragment of your being while doing so. One quote that comes to mind:

You will encounter people who will serve as mirrors, mirroring back to you all that you lack. Circumstances that bring out your worst tendencies. Its painful. But you can use these times to grow and build on them. Release old behaviors that no longer serve you.

Lessons of Saturn

Death

Thankfully no one I know has died, growing up with Pluto in the 8th house I’m accustomed to those I love dying…. Prematurely. I still have a year left. At this rate; fingers crossed. Perhaps more so I feel as though a part of me is passing away. There is the me before the Saturn transit blissfully unaware of so many things. I have come to know the darkest parts of me, what motivates me, what renders me helpless, what I yearn for….I feel the past far beneath me as I attempt to climb up from nothingness. It is the end of an era. That is the only way in which I can describe it. Funny enough unbeknownst to me my numerological year is Year number 9. Entitled the end of an era. It’s a year of completion. Paying Karmic debts.

Saturn Lessons

Where you find Saturn, you will find Karmic Debts

They say Saturn Transiting your 8th house is a time to settle the Karmic Debt for the emotional choices you have made earlier in life. Am I paid up yet?? There is me BS and AS Before Saturn and After Saturn transiting my 8th house. It has been painful and dark. I feel as though all I hoped for did not manifest. My dreams remain just that dreams. I have been hurt and I have been angry and above all I have experienced disappointment in love and in life. However I can see with 20/20 vision mistakes I have made. I’m learning the lessons of Saturn, to depend on people….but ah-ha be careful which people you depend on. No one is perfect. Love sometimes hurts and sometimes its beautiful. God willing you will be denied something or someone because someone or something GREATER is waiting. And most importantly I think I have learned that you have to live life in your own time, do things at your own pace and although I believe in fate something bigger than all of us is in charge. I have to give up my need to control everything. Breathe. Exhale. Look for the lessons because if you don’t get it the first time, it will come around a 2nd time. Forgive those that disappoint you because to wake up angry every day defeats YOU! Let go let life take you where ever it decides. Saturn transiting your 8th house demands you let go….

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Composite Chart

If synastry shows the relationship potential, if you will be attracted to one another, how you relate to each other than the Composite Chart shows how the relationship will play out. People may have excellent synastry but a more challenging composite and vice versa. A composite chart can be read much like a natal chart. Robert Hand outlined in his book Planets in Composite what takes precedence when analyzing these charts:

·Strong house emphasis

·Look at the placement of the sun and moon as they represent masculine and feminine energy

·Also look how the sun and moon connect, are they squaring one another, opposing one another or not connecting at all

·Look for Venus and Mars as these planets indicate sex and romance

·Always look at the Angels 1,4,7,10 as the planets there are strongest

·Look at Saturn, it will show where there is weakness and strength

The Ex-Files

I have an ex that often calls me, I broke up with him for practical reasons, shortly after he married a “practical” older woman, and shortly after I regretted ever breaking up with him. He regrets getting married stating he wishes she were me and I confess I have never found anyone like him and here we are 3 years, one plutonic love and him one child later. We both concede if we could do it again we would have stayed together. But you can only know what you know at the time.…Ive decided to take a look at our Composite Chart to see what exactly are these ties that bind

The Composite First House:

The Composite First House is much like the Natal 1st House; it is the face by which the world sees you only this time as a couple. According to Robert Hand a strong 1st house can indicate all show and no substance. However Robert Hand also suggests regardless a strong 1st house indicates the relationship will have a great effect on both partners.

Our Composite Ascendent is in Pisces, this makes for a compassionate, sympathetic relationship where the 2 people can tend to idealize one another and gloss over real issues. Venus in Pisces is dreamy and intuitive in the first house conjuncting the Ascendent it indicates we are a natural complement. True Love. Being strongly attracted to one another at first sight without knowing why. The longer you know one another the more you like each other. Hand states this relationship is friendly, offers forgiveness and have come together for a creative purpose.

In my own experience I have to say attraction was instant, I only saw him from behind and found him irresistible. Only to have him turn around and realize we had been friends when we were small children. Our adjustments toward one another were minimal as we liked each other exactly for who we were. I think our relationship with all of its ups and downs was often viewed with a certain Venusian charm, as people always wanted to talk with and be around us. We had an energy when combined was greater than either of us have being alone. People often told us “we looked perfect together” We became exclusive after 2 dates and 3 weeks in he confessed his love and I was singing to him You Light up My Life before bed. That is Venus in the first house

Composite Mercury in the First house

Composite Mercury indicates the mental activity between the couple, do they have a mental understanding.Composite Mercury in the first house means you like speaking with one another. The way of thinking is similar in the first house. I wouldn’t necessarily say there was a depth to conversations, that is more of a Mercury in the fourth house, but communication always flowed easily

The Composite Second House

The Composite 2nd house is all about what you value. These can be tangible items such as property, finances or values in terms of ideas and philosophy.

Composite Sun in Taurus in the 2nd house is far from my favorite. It’s like a double whammy, the 2nd house is already naturally governed by Taurus . Venus in the 1st house is no doubt what brought us together, and here in the 2nd house lies the reason for my “practical departure” The bright Taurus Sun shining on values and finances. Taurus’ keyword is: I have. To a Taurus Sun “stuff” It is important. Taurus can be overindulging. This position of the sun is best for business partnerships where you acquire material assets. As per Robert Hand in a personal relationship, you will want to acquire real estate together. This location of the composite Sun can manifest in 2 ways making your personal and philosophical values a priority or material items. Ours turned out to be the latter. Our emotional values were the same, so there wasn’t any conflict there. He was especially family oriented, kind and giving. It was the financial aspect. We both wanted more “stuff” He complained I was making him broke and I complained he wasnt working hard enough .Ordinarily I’m quite disinterested in finances, I certainly do not want them to be the focal point of my life, but when the 2 of us came together, they were an issue. Overall what we wanted to spend money on was different. Who was going to handle the finances was a concern. We were at odds over work ethic. How ironic that he has now married WAY up and he told me he has never been so unhappy or emotionally unfulfilled. I have been single for a while, I have dated men with that check list of stuff, but I miss the non tangible items, the way he flew to get a first aid kit if I so much as had a paper cut, the holding the door open, ordering my dinner, making me soup when I’m sick. Never mind the passion!

Composite Jupiter is in the 2nd house, Jupiter’s placement tells you where you go overboard and where you are naturally lucky. According to Hand a couple with Composite Jupiter in the 2nd house will have enough of what they want. However it can indicate a couple that is overly materialistic, that you sacrifice other important matters for wealth…hence here we are.

The Composite Third House

The Composite 3rd House is like the natal 3rd house communication, siblings, relatives, and short trips.

Mars the planet of war in the house of communication means lots of passionate disagreements. Being that composite mars is in Gemini it is my belief these arguments are not long-lasting as Gemini wants to move on to the next agenda. Hand did point out that with Mars being here and the 3rd house also ruling relatives, the couples fighting will affect their relationship with their family and immediate surroundings.

The Composite 4th House

The Composite 4th house signifies the depths of the relationship and yes real estate, home and roots. And here in the 4th house naturally ruled by the moon is our Cancer Moon Keywords I feel. I like to say home is where the heart is or in this case Home is where the moon is. There is a dependency with a 4th house moon, instinctive desire to nurture one another. similar background can be helpful to this placement so you can naturally understand where each of you are coming from. Robert Hand states this is an excellent placement for marriage by “the strong sense of sharing it induces”. Emotional security is offered here. 4th house placements remind me of a quote by Jennifer Lopez while discussing Marc Anthony, she stated how they had similar backgrounds and “they had that short hand”. That is 4th house moon or venus in my opinion.

The Composite 5th House

The Composite 5th house is similar to the natal 5th house, it oversees children, gambling, and creative expression.

And here in the house of fun we have dreadful Saturn. Ordinarily I would run like hell from a 5th house Saturn, I m loud and openly expressive and the normal obvious assumption would be this relationship would stifle me. There is so much literature out there stating Saturn in the 5th implies heavy obligations, a relationship that lack spontaneity blah blah, That is not the case here as our relationship was always interesting and exciting, we traveled, hosted Margarita nights went out to dinner often. We had a lot of fun. I will say that Saturn in the 5th house often means the couple is unlikely to have children. In my case, I did not wish to have children with this particular man. He was the type of man you rode through life with and children were simply not apart of that equation . And there is my explanation for Saturn in the 5th house. If however you do want children I would avoid this placement.

Composite 6th house is the house of responsibility. How dreadful. Look to see what planets falls there to see where your obligations lie.

Composite 7th house is your relationship to one another. And there is Pluto. Packing Punch Pluto who revolutionizes everything he touches. This is a powerful relationship that has a great impact on both parties. It is important to work together as a unit as per Hand.You can work together to achieve great things or work against one another attempting to dominate one another.

The Composite 8th House

The Composite 8th house is different from the natal house, in the natal chart the 8th house represents your spouses finances. In Composite it is still the house of “other people’s money” Money outside of the relationship as well as transformation. Uranus the planet of sudden change in the house of transformation and finances. As per Robert Hand, sudden change can happen, unpredictable events and it is best to roll with them rather than develop a rigid point of view. Also he states this aspect shows concern over handling money or that neither of the couple has a desire to handle finances which can thus lead to arguments. Hmm a recurring theme here! I have 8th house nataly so I enjoy a bit of a bumpy ride and sudden changes. His sun conjuncts my ascendant in Aquarius so I would say we are naturally inclined to sudden change. Sometimes you have to look at the entire picture, synastry, natal and composite.

The Composite 9th

The Composite 9th house is similar to the natal 9th as it represents the “higher mind” beyond the day-to-day, your broader more philosphical mind. Neptune rules psychic abilities, confusion, escapism and spirituality. Neptune in the 9th according to Hand shows an interest in the mystical and psychic matters. We share the same views; both believe in fate, one time I was burning sage and doing a moon ritual only for him to come home with sage and a crystal in his pocket. How random, but definitely like-minded. Neptune in the 9th is also an indication that as a unit you do not view the world as it is. There is a certain seeing through rose-colored glasses.

The Composite 10th house represents the couples life direction. On a personal level I’m not to interested in the 10th house. It bores me. It is the highest point in the chart and often indicates your direction, your goals, it rules status and reputation.

The Composite 11th house is the house of hopes, friends and wishes. Planets placed here will show if you share the same ideals, obviously no planets are placed here I have however analyzed a chart where Saturn was in the 11th. Oh no Saturn restricts whatever it touches, this very well may symbolize a lack of friendship and hopes and wishes that never will materialize.

The Composite 12th House symbolizes all that is hidden and repressed with in one another. I knew someone with Uranus in the 12th house, I always felt like trapped inside this very conservative man was a rebel just dying to be released. Strong 12th house not recommended for marriage

In Conclusion Composite Charts can point out some issues a couple is having that they are really perhaps unaware of. You can take a step back for a moment and ask yourself, is it worth it. Or maybe you will have one of those Ah-ha moments. I surely did…a little late perhaps. But in the words of Drake: Better late than never though never late is better;) We are all learning our lessons in our own time.

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A collection of quotes on Fate and Destiny

I’m unsure as to why that poem by EE Cummings comes to mind when I think of fate, perhaps it’s the line: “here is the deepest secret nobody knows”, after all none of know why events unfold in a certain fashion. And often we can only understand events years after they have passed, life must be lived forward but is understood backwards. In retrospect. I have decided that there is no such thing as coincidence and that fate presents you with many roads and various open doors, and I will keep an open heart toward fated encounters that are like flashing signals telling you which way to go while baring in mind that it is our own free will that enables us to  chose our own destiny, it is up to us to decide which door to walk through and which to close. With that being said, in love it takes two believers in fate to share the same road, known as life; only when two souls believe will they unite and share destiny. Here I have compiled a list of quotes on fate and destiny.

Fate never knocks on the wrong door dear, You just may not be ready to answer~Sarakee Rosenberg

 

 

 

Never believe fate is more than the condensation of childhood~ Rainer Marie Rilke

 

 

Coincidence is the word we use when we can’t see the levers and pulleys~Emma Bull

 

 

Destiny is what you are suppose to do in life. Fate is what kicks you in the ass to do it~Henry Miller

 

A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it~Jean de la Fontaine

 

 

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is delt represents your determinisim, the way you play it is free will~Jawaharal Nehru

 

It is the soul’s duty yo be loyal to its own desires. It must abandon itself to master its passion~ Rebecca West

 

There is no such thing as chance, and what seems to us merest accident springs from the deepest source of destiny

Every man has his own destiny, the only imperative is to follow it, to accept it no matter where it leads him

 

 

If you do something once, people will call it an accident. If you do it twice they will call it a coincidence, But do it a third time and you have just proven it is natural law~ Grace Murray Hopper

 

Once is happenstance, Twice is a coincidence Three Times is enemy action~ Auric Goldfinger

 

The More Frequently one uses the word coincidence to explain bizarre hapenings the more obvious it becomes that one is not seeking but evading the real explanation~ Robert Shea

 

When you live your  life with an apprectiation of coincidences & their meanings you connect with the underlying field of infinate possibilities~ Deepak Chopra

 

I am a firm believer in fate. That no matter what we feel or what we may think we want or even what’s best for us, that it is all predetermined. And most importantly, fate is completely out of our hands. Therefore, I decided long ago to let life happen as it happens. I also strongly believe that we are all here for a reason, something to be learned, and by simply letting life take its course than we shall learn what that is. WANDA F. ROSS

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Karmic Ties

I have written about Free Will Astrology, Plutonic love and the fact that I am on astrological Journey. Truth be told I’m always looking, searching and as someone once told me, over thinking. I do not believe in coincidence and have wrestled with the concept of why certain things happen. Why? The Why always haunts me. It always has, since my father died when I was 5; for as long as I can remember I have always questioned life. Questioned God? Questioned what is meant to be? If we take Route A or Route B do we end up in the same place when our lives are complete.

Lately I have been overrun with why, why is it I keep seeing someone I do not wish to see. If you read my entry on Plutonic Love, I use to believe we were destined. That we belonged together, seriously what else was I too think….I realized I was wrong the day he got married to someone else. The day out of the 841 Hotels in New York City he booked his wedding block at my hotel. I found out 3 days prior to their arrival when I attempted to check in another guest but typed in the wrong name. And there they were; his name 13 times, I could not breathe. I gasped for air, felt as though I had been punched in the stomach and had to leave immediately and console myself in a bottle of Ciroc Vodka. Why was this happening?

I will never have the answer as to why he chose my place of employment, the way I see it if he did it intentionally he is nothing short of cruel and if he didn’t think of me at all…well quite frankly that is WORSE. I would rather be loved or hated, indifference is nothing I aspire to & rarely do I inspire indifference in people, I blame that on my Sun square Pluto. Love me or hate me but never in between. Needless to say I called him in a panic, he informed me in fact that he was not the one to pick the hotel and it was all a coincidence. There goes that word again, thrown around so lightly. How could I ever have believed he was “the one”. 10 days later after having dusted myself off, seeking no solace that a natural disaster ruined his wedding( no shock here it was the worst day in the entire year to get hitched astroligically speaking) I owned up to my own bouts of delusion and accepted that we were not meant to be, only to pull up to the front of my house to see him with wife in tow. His dogs’ sad face at my window. My friends would joke the next day and label me “the dog whisperer”. Ah but had I been stuck at a traffic light a little longer, had someone stopped to ask me 1 simple question before leaving work I may have never seen them, but I did. I laughed at the absurdity of it all and thought had we still remained friendly he would indeed tell me, “what a coincidence”.

Karmic Ties in astrology appear to be unbreakable, for better or worse. Why am I the only recipient of this I have yet to figure out. I do know that I have changed my route on the way to work, have altered where I go in attempt to avoid him….but there are still times I see him. We are strangers now, Imagine. Just strangers. As I yearn to cut all ties a quote comes to mind: You often meet your destiny on the road you took to avoid it. Karmic ties are unavoidable and I have little to no hope of avoiding him.

In synastry the moons nodes coming in contact with another person’s moon often indicate “star crossed lovers” or “Romeo and Juliet” type of contacts. When an outer planet Saturn, Neptune or Pluto makes contact with another person’s Personal Planet (Moon, Mars Venus, Mercury) this is also Karmic. There are various degrees and each Karmic tie is different. According to www.caféastrology.com Pluto ties which we had many of “suggest a theme of domination, issues of power, betrayal, and dependence”. Presently I feel very much betrayed, though I’m not sure by whom either him or the universe.

I recently treated myself to a Reiki healing session, a pretty young woman lay her hands over me as visions danced around my head, wild horses, this small pretend horse my father bought me as a child, I was flying above this man’s house, twirling and dancing….The Reiki healer advised me “my chakras to the past were now closed” and yet I saw him the very next day, just driving by a smile plastered on his face. It didn’t hurt like it use to, I simply thought What the f***! I sought council through Tarot Card Readers, an intuitive, a psychic, an astrologer and I-ching reading…you name it and I have done it. I feel like the little boy in the Movie Hereafter with Matt Damon, I just wanted the answer, I wanted “the why”? And every single one advised me: the both of you share energy, you have lived many lifetimes together. The last woman said, “isn’t it nice to know that some connections are everlasting”, a sweet grin plastered on her face. Uh-nope.

I was advised to not speak about him, thoughts become words, words become actions and actions become things. And this energy is a living thing. This will be my last entry about him, I have done all I can to cut the ties, meditation, yoga, reiki and for once in my life I have decided I may never get what the lesson is here and I may never know why this happened but I will just accept it. I must accept it, that I may never have the “why” And as my dear friend said, when you stop caring you will not be in tuned to it, you wont ask WHY when he drives by……. because you won’t see him at all.

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