When Venus first went retrograde I was flying high, I thought this has nothing to do with me. Hahahah I am single I am happy I’m mediating burning essential oils and at one with the world. I knew on a conscious level Venus retrograding from Virgo (the sign of service) to Leo (sign of self) that issues or lessons would arise surrounding loving yourself (Leo) before you can take care of and love others (Virgo). I was all knowing and Zen but then a full moon hit my 12^th house of subconscious and the things we don’t want to look at and Venus is after all retrograde in my 7^th house of partners, enemies and those we face and all this madness came bubbling to the surface. I imploded and exploded.

Retrograde periods are for reviewing, reworking, reconsidering, reconnecting with Venus being retrograde we reconsider our values, the way we give and receive love, and with it being placed in Leo we shouldn’t underestimate the power of self care. Retrogrades are a more internalized manifestation of the planet. They ask us to go within. Venus the planet of relationships has us reconsidering the way we relate to others. But before we can change our outer experiences we must go within and reconsider our own contributions both positive and negative to our partnerships.

I reconnected with someone who natal has Venus conjunct Saturn and I personally have Saturn in the 7^th house, this is the same concept different aspect. We keep people out, we don’t let anyone in, and we are terrified of being hurt and abandoned. The both of us also have Saturn transiting opposite our Venus and his Saturn is conjunct my Venus in Synastry this indicates karmic lovers, hard lessons in love, seeing what you have to work on, being forced to acknowledge and own your shit. We went out on the full moon (I should have known better) and without getting into the details I will say I came to see all the ways I work against myself in partnerships, that I am the one that keeps people at arm’s length. They say that people will mirror you, that karmic ties particularly show you all you are and make you face yourself. This is really painful.  Him and I have many of the same issues. Our houses line up, we both have Sun in the 5^th house, and we are both the life of the party masking our insecurities. I like to think that sometimes you lose yourself in others, but sometimes you meet yourself in them too.

I came face to face with myself that night, the relationships and disappointments that no longer serve (Virgo) me (Leo) Things and people I have held onto that haven’t completely been released. The way I hold others at a distance and how I shove them away if they get too close. I’m also going through a Pluto-moon-sun-transit and Pluto is always screaming you can’t take this shit with you when you go.

I am undergoing a release of old outworn patterns, releasing old lovers (retrograde) going forward I plan on exercising more self-care (Leo) why do we only treat ourselves to reiki and massages when we are in the gutter. We should pamper and celebrate ourselves not just at times of crisis.  So many lessons here to learn, so much to release so this is my Venus in retrograde obituary I release all outworn patterns, hurts and relationships. I am open and ready to welcome in new energies, relationships and love.

What has Venus Retrograde been teaching you?