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Aquarius; born to stand out

Published February 2, 2014 by starsmoonandsun

I’m on this kick of embracing your natal placements for better or worse. Saturn in the 7th you will not defeat me, you bastard! Reading tweets from someone on twitter that is an Aquarius inspired me to write this post. Aquarius are different, they are eccentric, they are born free and in a way I don’t believe they can be tied to anyone and anything completely. This could be said for Aquarius Sun, Aquarius Rising and Aquarius Moon. We are detached, air signs we are independent thinkers (I have Aquarius Rising). My Astrology Instructor said we are either excluded from the group or we lead a group but we are never fully amerced in the group. We are not a part of the group. We have to own that. Often Aquarian types take on causes that involve issues surrounding equality due to the fact we never felt equal.

I will share with you a story, as a child I was the only kid in my private school with one parent. I hated private school and all the cookie cutter kids that resembled paper doll cut outs.
paperdoll
Each one a carbon copy of the next. Father’s day was a bitch, all those cards we had to make and I was the only one with no father. Never mind the fact that my birthday fell in July and wasn’t privy to any class parties. I didn’t really give a shit, and often the teachers would call my mother and report their concern that I wasn’t playing jump rope with other children. How very Aquarian of me

I don’t give a crap about identifying with groups. I never follow the majority, when I’m in work meetings and no one stands up and speaks the truth; I do. I say this company sucks! You aren’t delivering the goods. I’m a Union Member yes but I’m actually an elected Union Representative fighting for the rights of my colleagues, insuring union rules are followed, insuring they are treated fairly. I have tried to donate time to the Innocence Project, but unfortunately I don’t have much to offer in terms of a legal background. I believe strongly in people’s right to a fair trial. As unpopular of an opinion as it may be; I feel people like Scott Peterson should have been acquitted…not because I think he didn’t do it but because convicting someone without evidence puts our entire judicial process up for review.

My opinions are endless and not necessarily popular, but I didn’t give a shit as a kid and I certainly do not now. I will keep speaking my truth, I will keep being true to myself and I encourage everyone to do the same.

Aquarius are represented by 1 or 2 glyphs the first is lightening through water due to Aquarius sudden insights
aquarius glyph 1

or a man or woman pouring water that is representation of the knowledge they pour into the world

aquarius glyph 2

Aquarius mode is fixed
Aquarius element is air
Keywords: “I know”
Ruler of the 11th house home to groups, organizations, networking, astrology, hopes, and wishes

You will have a strong Aquarian signature in your chart if you have Uranus (Aquarius ruling planet) on an angle (1st, 4th, 7th & 10th house)

You are more likely to own your individuality if Uranus is in pleasing aspect to your Sun and Moon via trine aspect or sextile. This is often indicative of parents whom encouraged your individuality or you possess a certain ease with your own quirky aspects.
I have noticed those with Uranus in the 12th house (not on the Ascendant) tend to mask their individuality, they hide it, they have a desire to appear “normal” to blend in where as those with Uranus Conjunct the Sun or Moon are in your face different, in your face rebellious. Think Charlie Sheen Tiger blood. People with Uranus in Square moon or sun wrestle and struggle with incorporating the eccentric parts of their selves whereas the opposition will take turns acting out the sun or moon and then suddenly breaking off and doing something Uranian and wildly independent.

Just taking a moment to offer words of encouragement to everyone, explore your individuality, own that parts of yourself that make you unique. Don’t be another paper doll cut out; after all you are in good company

Aquarius Sun celebrities
• Rosa Parks
• Abraham Lincoln
• Ellen DeGeneres
• Jennifer Aniston
• Oprah
• James Dean
• Bob Marley
• Eckhart Tolle
• Darwin
• Virginia Woolf
• Jackie Robinson

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Saturn opposite Mars Transit disengage your rage

Published January 12, 2014 by starsmoonandsun

I want to cry, I want to scream I want to sleep for days & most of all I want to be left alone. I’am writing this while waiting for the train, I’m waiting because the doors just closed in my face. Last night I left work 1 hour early so I could get home early instead it took 2 hours. The subway announced something like this: attention all passengers due to track work expect delays in the early morning, in the late night & on the weekends. They should’ve just announced when there wouldn’t be track work. I’m having a Saturn opposite Mars transit. It’s getting tighter by the day. I’m unraveling more each day. Saturn Father Time, Lord of Karma, responsibility.. the authority is in the 9th house opposing my Mars in the 3rd house Mars rules action, aggression, the 3rd house rules community, transportation, communication, cars, transit, siblings, neighbors. Yesterday I was taking a nap only to be awaken by security in my building telling me to re park my car as it wasn’t inside the lines. Really? That’s Saturn for you, holding you accountable, he is the task master; making sure you do shit right. I don’t care about doing shit the “right” way. I want to do it my way. Mars square Saturn natal I say fuck the man, screw the system,rules are made to be broken. The night before I went out & when I wanted to take the train home I was informed I had to go six stops back to get on a different train to get to my stop. That seems to be the Saturn opposite Mars transit theme; six steps forward to go six steps back. I’ve read this is one of the more frustrating transits as you are filled with rage & you have to be careful to not go off on anyone or internalize it. Where is the release? The other day a car almost ran me over & I hit his mirror when he missed I was going to hit the car again but I slipped on ice & lost my footing …the universe was like no no be careful tread lightly. I feel like people are coming at me so I’ve made it a point to disengage my rage, I work with a woman that is quite erratic she once called the police on me after a work meeting & attempted to have me arrested when she didn’t like what I had to say. She became angry with me this week over some nonsense & I quietly said if you have an issue with me please don’t talk to me. I work with people all day & yesterday it appeared one after another were looking for an argument. I just kept telling myself don’t respond. This is going to be along transit & a difficult one. I hate saturn I hate him in synastry, natal & via transit. His energy is hard for me to adhere to. My chart is all cardinal I lead, I go, I’m on the move. My mars sextiles my mercury I’m fast mentally I grasp ideas & am quick verbally but the lesson of this transit is slow down ..really I wish someone could wake me when it’s over.

Some random Saturn lessons:
When Saturn squared my venus I learned love takes work more work than I was prepared to give

Saturn opposite my moon I was sad and spent time with a man that was melancholy. The theme misery loves company

Saturn square Sun: control is an illusion you can’t force anything in this life what is meant to be will be

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2011/11/26/saturn-transiting-8th-house-show-me-the-money/

Saturn conjunct my chart ruler: sometimes life doesn’t provide an escape hatch & you have to grin & bear it
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/06/24/lessons-of-a-saturn-transit/

http://starsmoonandsun.com/my-journey/uranus-conjunct-saturn-the-battle-continues/

Next year I’ll have saturn opposite Venus…oh goody I really can’t wait
this is the app time passages everyone should have it:

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Composite Sun Oh so Random Post

Published January 2, 2014 by starsmoonandsun

I started to think about the composite sun while having a conversation with someone today. The Sun in the composite chart is the soul of a union, partnership, friendship etc. This person mentioned I know more about them than anyone else at our job. He mentioned he is very private. I already knew this, his sun is conjunct his Nadir more commonly known as the IC or 4th house cusp.

The Nadir is one of the four angles, each angle ruling a different facet of life. It is also one of the karmic houses along with 8th and 12th. The 4th house rules our family, our ancestry, our roots, our home base, it rules the mother, real estate, the unconscious, the hidden, and it’s the lowest part of the chart and represents the beginning of life and the end of life. From the womb the start of life to the tomb the end of life where we are buried under ground. The Nadir or 4th house cusp is the lowest part of the natal chart.

Together this person and I have a composite 4th house Sun. When he said that I know more about him I immediately remembered our composite 4th house Sun and admired the fact that astrology can often be obvious. No need to go looking at asteroids and searching for fixed stars. If it is written it should be right there in plain view. None of this his Karma conjuncts my Psyche and trines the 5th house cusp. No. The 4th house rules midnight. We met late at night, we met while working overnight.  I find that to be perfect if not even funny.

(You can read more about composite charts here)

http://starsmoonandsun.wordpress.com/2011/11/21/composite-chart/?preview=true&preview_id=166&preview_nonce=907735eb5f

And here                                                            

http://www.astro.com/astrology/in_composit_e.htm

and here

http://astrologystudy.blogspot.com/2012/08/composite-houses-and-4-clusters.html

 

The Composite sun and moon give indicators as to the purpose of the relationship   (A relationship can be a spouse, a friend, an employer, a lover, a parent). The sun often being the focal point of the relationship of the 2 parties involved you can follow the aspects to see how it plays out.

 

The composite 4th house Sun often builds a home together, this is not my particular experience but I have found myself saying “you feel like home to me” there is an ease when communicating with this person and I feel like I have known them always in a way. Familiarity and a certain level of comfort exist, I suppose. The literal manifestation as us having met late at night and I can attest to the fact that something is private about the connection with him. I do not speak about him to others. Or I guess I should say I rarely do, but not my inner workings, not my thoughts or feelings. Under different circumstances I think I could have cared deeply for him as a composite 4th house suggests…but that’s a whole other post. You get the gist comfort; home, familiarity, and privacy are themes. Our composite sun conjuncts Mercury (communication) makes a trine to Uranus and squares Pluto. Text book would say we have a mental connection, accept one another’s eccentricities, but the square from Pluto says nothing here is light. Pluto transforms whatever it touches

 

 

I had a dreaded composite 6th house sun with my plutonic love. The 6th house is the house of health, work and servitude! This is not where you want your relationship sun. We also had an exact Sun conjunct Jupiter the planet of excess. Jupiter multiplies whatever it touches your joys and your sorrows. Someone once said we could have never lived a real life together because we would have never gotten anything done. We existed in a bubble (Sun opposite Neptune). There was drinking, slow dancing and music, bubble baths and fire place flickers. On the plus I felt we communicated dare I say telepathically. (You will never understand until you have lived it) But at the end of the day the 6th house is not a happy house, unless you work together. I have a composite 6th house with a coworker, I love her but I don’t want to marry her! Plutonic Love and I knew each other as children. His words: he always liked me. I didn’t like him, we had childhood issues I don’t care to write about it here. But in short I didn’t like him and he would write me letters and god I don’t even know if I read them. Years later we reconnected I was crazy about him, he married someone else. The balance is always off. He still had pictures of us as children handy. (Oh the things we carry with us always). I was not in a good place when showing up on his doorstep 15+ years later. Emotionally I was vulnerable and here in itself lies several Sun in 6th house issues. This is the house of servitude, servant to master, the employee to the boss; one party in the relationship has the upper hand.  Obviously it changes from time to time, who has the power that does not. Often this shows up in extramarital affairs. There is a sense of inequality with the composite 6th house sun. Someone is sacrificing something, I didn’t see it at the time but even in the most perfect circumstances we would have had to sacrifice ourselves to be together. I wouldn’t have believed it at the time I was too busy making deals with god to bring us together, but we would not have made each other happy.  I will also say this position doesn’t particularly cultivate healthy relationships patterns. My personal quote regarding my composite 6th house sun is “you had to accept me at my worst because you could have never had me at my best”.

 

Composite 12th house Sun

I have a friend we share a composite 12th house sun the 12th house rules self-undoing, secrets; it is also a karmic house like the 4th and the 8th indicating knowing one another in a past life or us sharing past life karma. This house also rules prisons, seclusion, dreams and things we do not see clearly. We are friends only and I can say that we often give one another free passes on bad behavior. When we go out it is always “oh have another drink” “oh you want to hook up with so and so go ahead even if he is bad for you” “you only live once” I try to be conscious of the ways we encourage bad behavior in one another but the 12th house is the house of the unconsciousness so that information is hard to grasp. If either one of us has done something we know no one else would approve of, we call one another. We give the green light to indiscretions. We have Sun trine Jupiter unlike the conjunction it lends to caring and forgiveness without excess, we also have Sun trine Neptune, we drink together listen to music and go to the movies; all Neptunian fields. But I’m not hoping he will save me from myself 😉 we have Sun opposite Pluto similar to the square this isn’t a light friendship. There are power struggles, but this is the 12th house ruled naturally by Pisces and Neptune, forgiveness is offered as is turning a blind eye to anything we do wrong out in the world or to each other.

I would love to hear your composite sun story!
It is also worth a mention I have heard the best synastry in the world will not negate the composite chart. The Composite chart is how your relationship functions as a unit, synastry in basically just chemistry and we all know sometimes the best chemistry isn’t enough to build a life.

Happy New Year Love and Light! xo

Let sleeping babies lie; Saturn in synastry

Published November 19, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

Saturn on the Sun, Moon, and Venus is deemed one of the worst aspects in synastry. You need more than one aspect to declare this. Everything is good in moderation, even Pluto but put it on several of another person’s personal planets and you may feel as though you are living inside an episode of Revenge.

Revenge

I have several blog entries about Saturn due to meeting someone over the summer. Not a lover but not quite just a friend, all I know is I found his mind to be electric, I found him to be fascinating and different then what I had been experiencing over the last few years. If anything I was worried about all our Venus connections and superficial ties. I don’t do superficiality
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/07/02/venus-is-synastry-light-and-fluffy-coming-right-up/
I saw that his Saturn was on my Sun, Moon, and Mercury and we had a dreadful Saturn square Venus Composite (this one never survives) but quite honestly even as an astrologer I did not want to believe what was said about Saturn:

saturn in synastry

When older more seasoned astrologers looked at our synastry, it was “Oh”. “Or oh no this is bad”. I could not believe it; after all the two of us on a number of occasions would say to one another. “you are fascinating “and the other would say “oh no you are fascinating” Until fascinatingly enough those Saturn ties kicked in. Saturn rules time, so it takes some time but ultimately those Saturn connections will prevail
At first I believed he simply didn’t like heavy conversations. I’m a get to the root and soul of the matter sort of person, but I was happy to bask in his light.
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/06/20/love-is-hard-saturn-aspects/
Than I thought maybe I just need to try to break through those walls; I have a way about me I believe in the impossible. Than I thought maybe he is guarded and perhaps accept that there will always be that slight distance
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/08/19/saturn-in-synastry-round-2/
but ultimately wah-lah we are at a point where we will not be friends, obviously we cant be lovers. And like a sleeping baby in a movie I felt he was a parent (Saturn rules authority and fathers) tip toeing out of my room as I dream careful not to wake me, tip toe, tip toe and just like that now all that light and fluffy, all those fascinating conversations have diminished and all I see are Saturn ties

The Astrology of Reclusive Celebrities

Published November 8, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

I happen to be thinking of Eminem the other day I’m not sure why maybe because his new song Monster was on the radio. I like him, my go to Karaoke song is “I’m whatever you say I’m”. I get him; that feeling of living under a microscope people wanting to define you, wanting to shove you in a box and label you. Some woman at work once yelled at me. “I know who you are. I know all about you”. I had to laugh wow, really, you do I assure you know nothing about me. I’m accustomed to people watching me, concerned with me & what I do when I quite frankly don’t care what anyone does. I have Neptune conjunct my Midheaven there is that twinge of glamour but the price to pay is high. The 10th house is the highest point in the chart it can be the filter through which the world sees you, it represents your ambition, your contribution to the world if you will. I’ve suffered false accusations on things I wouldn’t dare write about, people have always judged me attempt to label me, don’t see me clearly I feel that I live my tiny life through a magnifying glass I can’t imagine how that feels on a grand scale being a celebrity. The Kim Kardashians of the world, don’t interest me. I don’t watch gossip shows E or whatever. I will read a gossip magazine if someone gave it to me, but I certainly wouldn’t purchase one. I don’t understand people that approach celebrities or want autographs. I think this stems from my Pluto in the 8th house squaring my Sun in the 5th. I get the need for privacy. The sun is the ego the 5th is the house of creativity so sure I write here, I tweet, I act in my free time, I’m outgoing by all appearances but once you get to know me you will find I like to spend a crazy amounts of time alone I act not for fame but to be surrounded by interesting eccentric types. That is how I give of myself, here on this blog but I’m not the type of person whose house you will drop by uninvited, I live in an apartment with 24 hour security. I chose how I want to share; whom I share with. I can’t imagine how it is celebrities that are like me… exist. I mean I just have to fend off nosy neighbors not the entire world, not fans, paparazzi and the media. I Googled Eminem after he popped into mind and was unable to find much about his present day life. He may be engaged he may not be and there is the speculation of his affiliation with the illuminati…but then again the nosy lady down the hall from me thinks I’m a prostitute because I work nights ha ha. Eminem has a stellium in the 9th house. See here courtesy of astrotheme.com

eminem

And while the sun and Pluto do not directly connect all of those planets come from the same house, so they are all filtered through one another, they act as one. The Sun in the 10th house is a very public position, it declares “here I’m” put that with Pluto planet of control and secrecy along with the Sun whether it is opposition, conjunction, square or coming out of the same house acting in unison; you will want to have some if not complete control over the way you share yourself generally speaking. Perhaps not always-Pluto also rules prostitution, Guess that explains Kim Kardashians Sun conjunct Pluto in the 10th house. Selling sex as a career. I think she is the anomaly for this however. I tried to think of other extremely private celebrities but I couldn’t think of any other than Johnny Carson (Moon opposite Pluto) so I googled it and found Time Magazine had released a list
J.D. Salinger
Howard Hughes
Greta Garbo
Harper Lee
Emily Dickinson
Syd Barrett
Bill Watterson
Thomas Pynchon
Dave Chappelle
Marcel Prous
You can read the full article here
http://content.time.com/time/specials/packages/article/0,28804,1902376_1902378_1902428,00.html
Over half the people on the list had Pluto opposite moon or Pluto on the Sun via Square or opposition
Pluto represents
Darkness, secrecy, control, privacy, death, rebirth, probing, destruction, annihilation, the underworld, things that are buried, hidden, taboo, power, survival, security, paranoia, excess
Sun Represents
Some what the opposite of Pluto, life, light, ego, energy, identity, creative expression
When Pluto is on the Sun a person oscillates between being all out shining brightly and then hiding. The need to express itself via whatever outlet the house the sun is in and hiding away from the world.
Moon Represents
Our emotional responses, the past, safety, our needs, fluctuation, instinct
When Pluto is on the moon it is said that people want to control what people know about them. I do see that as being entirely true. As a person with Pluto on my Sun and Moon I think it is more of a case of not wanting others to stir up our emotions, our joys and our anger, we feel everything deep. And our perception is spot on. I often say we know the end before it begins. So it isn’t that we want to control what people know we often just want to protect ourselves from the intensity of our feelings. Being well aware that allowing people into our inner worlds also gives them access and opportunity to stir up emotions in us we would rather keep buried.

The 9th house YES the higher mind

Published September 21, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

I’m very 9th house esque this year; I get some shit from people when I write about the 9th house people often get offended when I explain that the 9th house is the house of the higher mind. This does not imply that if you do not have planets here you aren’t intelligent and further more I did not invent astrology this is one of those cases where; it is what it is. If you embrace astrology you have to embrace all of the parts of yourself. In any event people are often offended when I say the 9th house is opposite of the 3rd house in astrology (which it is) naturally the 3rd house is ruled by Gemini, Gemini oversees communication; fax, letters, emails, electronics, our siblings, grammar school education, short trips, gossip, it is considered the “lower mind” across from the 3rd house is the 9th house ruled by Gemini’s opposing sign of Sagittarius which overseas long distance journeys (out of the country), higher education like university, law, religion the BIG stuff. I had a nasty email from someone that is offended by this. But it is fact. I have Venus and Mars in the 3rd house, I certainly consider myself intelligent, and learning is a continuous process, while I do not have a masters degree I have an Associate’s Degree, am a certified astrologer, notary and chef and am presently enrolled at NYU for a certificate in Journalism, I’ve been many places Europe included but you will not find me backpacking anywhere. I like short trips France in 4 days, I short trips they restore me however if my Venus and mars were in the 9th house I would probably marry someone from a different country, have a degree nothing short of a bachelors, perhaps a PhD or a Law Degree I would travel the globe extensively and maybe even speak several languages. One is not better than the other, they are just different.
This year I feel very 9th house oriented, I have the Sun, Moon and Mercury in my 9th house in my solar return, Praise the Lord Saturn is finally leaving my 8th house by October and will enter my 9th house and Jupiter (ruler of the 9th house and Sagittarius) is transiting my Sun. My mind feels alive, I can’t quite explain it, but there is an explosion going on inside my head. I have discovered Eckhart Tolle recently and feel like that man is speaking to my soul. I’m actively trying to live his book “the power of now” to be present is essential, I’m meditating daily sometimes up to 3x a day and there are affirmations and yoga classes several times a week. This whole feeling of wanting to align my mind, body and soul. And of course I’m taking classes at NYU for journalism, forever studying something astrology related, just booked a night at a Positive Thinking workshop. It’s all very strange. I have books in my house that I have read in the past but didn’t find them to be useful. I’m not a read for enjoyment person, so I had some books about meditation and healing your life that I had stored away in boxes when someone on twitter suggested I read a particular book that I actually already had. Two things dawned on me
1. Everything we need we already have
2. When the student is ready the teacher appears ( I wasn’t ready before)
My view of the world is changing, I’m finding an inner surrender, and I’m aware that that is today and tomorrow it may all change. I have this urge to travel particularly to Costa Rica on a yoga retreat. I will get there, by the looks of it astrologically not until next summer, but I know I will be there. I feel it in my soul that zip line is calling me! Saturn is legendary for nixing travel when in the 9th house, it’s not the best idea to travel when it is there except for work, I cant help but think to myself this is work, my inner work.
I wonder how 9th house people feel all of the time, not just when the 9th house is activated by transits. Do they just walk around 24/7 knowledgeable? I find the entire experience fascinating. I remember looking at my solar return 2 years ago thinking please don’t let me become a born again Christian. No offense, I’m just not one for organized religion or the idea of going to hell because you ate meat on a Friday or because you are a man in love with a man. When I’m doing my downward dog I breathe out a sigh of relief, you can never quite pinpoint how the change will occur but I’m happy the way my higher mind, yes my higher mind is taking shape. Namaste

Saturn in Synastry Round 2

Published August 19, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

I keep going back and forth on Saturn in synastry. This was my 1st post

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/06/20/love-is-hard-saturn-aspects/

I think the song “Beneath Your Beautiful” by Labrinth (feat. Emeli Sandé)
is a great representation of Saturn in synastry

You’ve carried on so long
You couldn’t stop if you tried it.
You’ve built your wall so high
That no one could climb it.
But I’m gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, boy, take it off now, boy
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, tonight?

I’m gonna climb on top your ivory tower
I’ll hold your hand and then we’ll jump right out
We’ll be falling, falling but that’s OK
‘Cause I’ll be right here

When Saturn is on your personal planet ultimately the personal planet will feel like they have run up against a wall; maybe you feel like you are banging your head against the wall…repeatedly. There is much to admire about Saturn he is responsible, dutiful, calm & collected. He is together; he is strength on the upswing. I think I must be destined to be with a Saturnian person my Saturn in Leo is on the 7th house descendent. I always find men in control to be sexy, admirable on the positive but on the negative it’s challenging to get an emotional reaction from them, they can live in there head during times they need to live in there heart. I’m not sure I’ve arrived at an accurate conclusion as to how I feel about Saturn in synastry text book analysis Saturn is paternal to you, he lives in a world of realism, he is too harsh on the moon & the sun. At the astrology conference I attended a great astrologer said Saturn puts up walls; Saturn puts distance between whatever planet it touches, it puts space. That can be challenging when you are trying to get close to someone. I wonder how can you break Saturn’s barriers. Or perhaps you need to work with in them. I’m unsure. A brilliant woman on twitter told me: you know Saturn is in your 7th house learn how to cook with it instead of getting burnt by it. That’s some food for thought. Surrender to it instead of opposing it. What do you think? I’m beginning to think I dont really have to choice

Please read the follow up post regarding Saturn in Synastry; essentially the end result

http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/11/19/let-sleeping-babies-lie-saturn-in-synastry/

Venus is Synastry Light and Fluffy coming right up

Published July 2, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

Venus is astrology is light, it is love, enjoyment, recreation, beauty by aspect in synastry (comparison of 2 charts) it can indicate similar values; for instance Venus in pleasing aspect such as the sextile, trine or conjunct someone else’s Venus; you will appreciate the same leisurely activities, you will probably be on the same page regarding finances and there will be a natural affinity toward one another. I met someone recently, I like them and there is a general feeling of friendship that exists between the two of us. I find it to be an easy connection. There are other factors I’m waiting to kick in like his Saturn in exact square to my Sun and opposite my moon.Textbook indication is he is cold-ish ( I think he is just not as expressive), Saturn is cold and although we have heavy Pluto ties (so very typical of my life) I do get the feeling that I can’t plunge the depths of him emotionally. Then again that isn’t the nature of our connection. No two connections are alike I suppose. Venus can be superficial it isn’t probing like Pluto I never really considered a light kind of love before, ya know love and sex are these transformational experiences for me with Pluto opposite my moon and squaring my sun in the 5th house. There is often that part of me that goes from being extremely light in temperament to very dark; I’m either all in or all out. I recognize the potential for transformation that exists with his Pluto on all of my personal planets and tread lightly knowing my Pluto is squaring his Venus, love and friendship can take a turn for the worse with this aspect but generally I find being with him to be enjoyable. When I leave him I’m often on that rocket ship high, I can’t sleep I’m so infused with positive energy. It is so strange. It is so very different. My plutonic love was the opposite, the dichotomy between light (Venus) and dark (Pluto) fascinates me; upon leaving him I would need to sleep for days. I would often complain I felt heavy and tired. There were often tears and sad music. My moon conjunct his Venus which is a beautiful aspect but not enough to negate all that darkness after all my Pluto conjunct his moon in Libra. Our connection was not normal, I will always look back on him with great sadness and the acknowledgement that our connection changed my life, altered my existence. I respect that, I own it and I like to say for all the craziness: I forgive you but I would never want to relive you. We didn’t fully like each other as people I know that sounds crazy and I often wonder how can you love someone you don’t even like as a person, I guess you can’t so here I’m Venus ahh now that connection is different. People always ask; “I’m the Venus person who feels it more”. I can only tell you my experience I was the Pluto person that had my life turned upside down and now I’m the Venus person; my Venus aspects my male friend’s entire chart. I feel nothing but light toward him, he makes me feel light. I can’t attest to the way he experiences me. I can’t attest to the way Mr. Plutonic Love received me. But I can tell you each energy is special in its own right. Light and Fluffy or Dark and Murky Guess it just depends what you are in the mood for.
Some aspects I’m experiencing with my friend

His Venus is in Cancer, My Sun is in Cancer: General sense of being in sync, simpatico you get one another, supposedly good for shared resources.
My Venus squares his moon; affection and harmony though the moon person may have ties to another woman (he is married so…and yes we are just friends)
My Venus sextiles his Mercury: I love this aspect, we also have sun conjunct mercury and mercury conjunct mercury fabulous for mental connections: General affection, shared dreams, according to Linda Goodman book Relationship Signs the only negative is “exaggerated optimism” oh how very dreadful. Like I said I’m on a rocket ship
Venus sextile Venus
Mutual sympathy, you like the same things, similar interests generally speaking

Venus opposite Uranus;
I try to avoid this in relationships but being we are friends I suppose it doesn’t make a difference. When your Venus opposes someone’s Uranus they often take off and need alone time or need their own space. They leave, to me that is my worst fear. Like where did you go? I have read you will see this in a one night stand the coming together and falling apart. It can also mean the Uranus person brings unusual activities to the Venus person getting them to do things they normally wouldn’t do sexually and otherwise. Something unusual exists there.

Let me know; have you been Venus or Pluto?

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Pluto Song

Love is hard; Saturn aspects

Published June 20, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

Lately I have been thinking about Saturn in synastry, it gets a really bad rap. I heard a relationship (composite) chart with Venus square Saturn will not make it. Venus the planet of love in hard aspect to planet of duty, restriction, and hardship is well uh hard. Love shouldn’t be hard, not in my opinion. Love should be transformative (Pluto) wild (Uranus) transcendental (Neptune) but hard no thank you. I did a reading for someone that often complains about marriage & raising children I knew he was going to have Saturn square Venus because even taking kids to little league games sounds like a chore. No matter who he would have married I would assume he would think, wow this is hard. Secretly I think he blames his wife, but really it’s him. That’s the natal aspect but in synastry if one persons Saturn opposes or squares another persons personal planet Sun (identity), Moon (feelings), Mercury (mind), Venus (love and finance) and Mars (sex) the Saturn person brings with them into the relationship the Saturian energy, for example they can often critique the Sun person for instance my Saturn in Leo squared the Sun of a Taurus I knew and I often made reference to the manner in which he lived his life. Negative references. Why are you this way? Why do you play things so safe? After awhile that can become annoying to the Sun person, for understandable reasons.
Signs are square one another when they are in the same mode Taurus and Leo are both fixed signs but the way they operate is very different.
I also know a person that has Saturn in Libra opposing my Moon in Aries (Aries and Libra are opposite in the zodiac) and while I have tremendous regard for them there is often a sense of not being able to plunge the depths of them emotionally. His Pluto is opposite my Moon which indicates emotional transformation but the degree is much wider than the square from Saturn, the tighter the orb the greater the impact.
While I would try to avoid Saturn in harsh aspect to Moon Sun Venus & definitely Mars (sexual issues like mad) in a Composite/Relationship chart. In Synastry I’m not so sure as of yet. I think it depends on the individual A. If they have a natal Saturn Square Venus and some ones Saturn Squares their Venus they are already accustomed to love being hard etc B. This took me a very long time to learn, but not everyone is looking for emotional exploration. So if I’m closed emotionally and some ones Saturn is in hard aspect to my moon. Maybe I would be ok with that because I like keeping people at emotional distances. The problem would arise when you have someone that is extremely emotional and needs to connect on a deeper level, but they feel the Saturn person is at a distance. You can’t quite reach them.
I would love to hear from anyone that has experienced hard Saturn aspects in synastry or composite. How did this manifest for you? Were you the Saturn person? Is love indeed hard

Follow up post with end result:
http://starsmoonandsun.com/2013/11/19/let-sleeping-babies-lie-saturn-in-synastry/

Neptune Retrograde; Your not like the others futuristic lover

Published June 15, 2013 by starsmoonandsun

With Neptune in retrograde motion for the next 6 months and squaring my Venus I thought this would be an opportune time to write about Neptunian love affairs. I tweeted the other day if you have ever found yourself whispering “I need you” to a completely unavailable person then you undoubtedly have experienced Neptune on your Moon, Venus, Mars or Sun. Its alluring, hypnotic with a come hither vibe that whispers sweet nothings that sounds like somethings in your ear. Touch becomes otherworldly,

Like in the song by Katy Perry;

They say you’re not like the others, futuristic lover. Different DNA They don’t understand you

You’re from a whole other world. A different dimension. You open my eyes and I’m ready to go now lead me into the light.

Neptune will have you walking between worlds, the one based in reality with the tangible touch and another dimension that you can’t grasp with your hand but you know it is there. Or is it? In 2009 Neptune began to loosely square my Venus and became almost exact in the summer of 2011, when the veil was lifted and I was served a hard dose of reality. I have written about him so much quite frankly I could throw up, he is the reason I started this blog, he is my muse I suppose and though I could not feel further from him; he is a frame of reference for a lot of my astrological posts, he is my plutonic love. In Synastry or the comparison of 2 charts my Pluto aspected his entire chart, so that brought life changes, obsessions, upheavals, death and rebirth and while that was our combined energy I also had a Neptunian transit, the belief that everything was going to work out, that magically POOF! I would end up with him. Neptune = delusion. And the delusion came to a head and the veil fell on the day he booked his wedding at my place of employment. I don’t care to relive the past, I much prefer to sweep in under the carpet and leave it as some dust that has settled in that you can’t be bothered to clean up. But I want you to see how transits work; there is this experience occurring and then once the planets become exact there is an explosion, a truth, a change that occurs, a beginning or an ending. How that manifests is deeply personal for everyone. Surely no one on the face of the planet has had a fling with someone and then had that person come to your place of employment on their wedding day. Flash Forward present day; Neptune is working its way backward over my Venus yet again. Neptune is slow. Whereas the Sun changes sign roughly every 30 days Neptune will remain in Pisces until 2025! That’s a long time to live in lala land, a long time to walk between portals of what is real and what isn’t. But as with all retrograde periods life gives you a chance for a redo. Not with the same person, but perhaps with the same test. And maybe this time the ability to get it right. Fingers crossed. I don’t check my natal chart every day I live my life and as the saying goes I do believe life is meant to be lived forward but understood backward. The interesting thing about astrology is once you are familiar with a transit you can recognize it when you experience it again. Recently I have met someone I find extremely fascinating, like WOW similar to my 2009 plutonic love we don’t have a damn thing in common. He is unattainable but every word that he speaks is so utterly interesting. Retrograde planets: Hmm I have been here before. And when he said “I think you are amazing” and I said no no I think you are amazing. I knew I was in the midst of another Neptunian transit. Neptune is rolling over my Venus. I’ve placed 2 toothpicks in my eyes to make sure they remain open, consciously remain aware of what is not what I hope life to be. That is key in the midst of a Neptunian transit you should deal with facts and tangible realities. I’m not saying every part of a Neptune transit is heartbreaking I mean there is so much beauty to be found in unrequited love. Neptune on Venus is what poetry and sonnets are made of, and I don’t know if I have ever felt more alive or blindly hopeful as I do when Neptune is aspecting one of my personal planets.

The Facts:

Neptune travels backward through the zodiac for roughly 5 to 6 months. Neptune in Pisces will affect most profoundly those with planets from 1 – 7 degrees of mutable signs. So look to see if you have Moon, Mercury, Sun, Venus and Mars in 1-7 degrees of Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo or Pisces. That’s where you will experience the allure and hypnotic energy of Neptune. Retrograde periods are a time of do over’s, they are for reflecting, looking back, perhaps revisiting old haunts. It is often a time when a theme in your life from the past resurfaces, I like to think of retrograde periods as: a second time to get it right.

The feeling:

I have never felt this way before, I need you, I want to curl up inside of you because a breath between us is too much, your beautiful, you are perfect (that has to be the worst) I have to have you, your touch is transcendental, Can we run away together, walking on the moon, looking at the stars, I know you just told me you are _____________(fill in the blank) married? Jobless? A priest? But I love you and have to have you anyway

What to remember:

It is very easy for all of us to play the victim, oh poor me. I didn’t see it I didn’t know it etc. it sucks yes but we have to take responsibility for our own poor choices no matter how painful. In the very Neptunian; Great Gatsby Scott F Fitzgerald said: “It takes two to make an accident”

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People have the right to select a life they believe will make them happy even if they have decided that life isn’t with you:
I believe Oprah and Iylanya said it best on Oprahs Life Class when they said:

You don’t get a vote in someone else’s life

On the days I become upset I have a picture in my phone of a quote I heard on the Oprah show Super Soul Sunday It one of my all time favorites:
Super Soul Sunday

A lot of times under a Neptunian transit there is a self sacrificial theme. I would have given up anything to be with my plutonic love. We exist worlds apart, he is very suburban think Mercedes Minivan and those family stick figures on the back windshield and I m very city-ish, I like to act, write, and hang out with gay men. I keep this in my phone as a reminder that his dreams were not my own and vise versa.

What to do:

Write, sing, and learn how to play an instrument, do not commit to anything until this transit passes in a few months, and guard your heart, your soul and your hot pocket. And when all else fails pour a glass (ONE glass Neptune also rules addiction) of wine and turn up the music. I’ll leave you with a lovely Neptunian song.

strange and beautiful

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