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Bill O’Reilly harassment allegations & his afflicted Moon 

Published April 13, 2017 by starsmoonandsun

I do not know anything about Bill O’Reilly as a person or someone as an on air personality. He has very bad energy so he isn’t someone I care too watch. I personally think the entire energetic field surrounding Fox News is dark like someone needs to come in with a huge sage and wipe it clean.Having recently read about the sexual harassment claims looming over Bill O’Reilly I took a moment to look at his chart.

I do not believe in public crucifixion, I strongly believe in every ones right to a trial. I do believe in due process with all that being said Bill O’ Reilly has a severely afflicted Moon to the 10th power LOL

The moon in a persons chart indicates many things, early home life, emotional responses, eating habits, the relationship with the mother & for men it is very significant of the relationship they have with women; the type of women they attract and essentially by aspect how they relate and feel toward the women in their life.

As a woman if I met Bill O’Reilly and ran his chart after a first date I would not be available for a second. It’s challenging to be polite, dreadful if I am being completely honest.

Bill O’Reilly has his natal moon in Aries this is not a comfortable place for the moon this usually signifies turbulent home life or turbulent relations with women. This is the energy of Mars (God of War) filtered through the planet that rules emotions and women .
His Moon ( emotions) opposes his Mercury (planet of communication/ Messenger of the Gods) This makes for a person that often allows his emotions to interfere with his reasoning (Mercury) ability

Bill O’Reilly also has Moon opposite Venus (Bill Cosby has the square) This is a red flag for me in terms of dating This man often has more then one relationship going on at the same time. He is conflicted between what he seeks in a wife (Moon sign) and emotionally (Moon sign) and what he seeks in a girlfriend or how he relates to women (Venus) He doesn’t feel the woman he seeks is available in one package. This man is conflicted. And finds it hard to relate and navigate relationships with women. The moon and Venus are both feminine principals. “Emotionally both the male and female with this oppositions gave difficulty in relationships” writes the brilliant Betty Lundsted in her book Astrological Insights into Personality.

The word “Relationships’ doesn’t only imply personal intimate relationships; we have relationships of all kinds and I believe Bill O’Reilly has difficulty with all the women he encounters.

Lundstead goes on to say the male with this aspect “doesn’t really like his own emotional nature; he doesn’t really like his mother and he therefor doesn’t really feel comfortable with women” This dislike of women can manifest in the abusive treatment of women” Lundstead goes on to say.

To me that aspect is always a major red flag I can not stress that enough.

As if this wasn’t enough O’Reilly also has Mars (God of War & Planet of aggression) forming a square to his moon and Venus To me this signifies a man that is abusive toward women, pushy on women, Let’s not forget Mars also corresponds with Sex These aspects also create a man may love a woman but she isn’t the type he wants to ravish sexually . Lundstead writes “the excess of this aspect tends to make one angry” Mars aspecting the moon is almost a double influence of the Aries moon O’Reilly has been accused of domestic abuse toward his ex wife and clearly his chart is a reflection of that energy.
Lastly he has moon opposite Neptune (Bill Cosby has the conjunction) This man usually has difficult understanding what a woman should be. Remember Neptune is what we don’t see clearly; men with Neptune on the moon often categorize women as a whore or a saint they have difficulty understanding women. Lunstead writes “men get a distorted image of what a woman should be when they have this aspect”

If you want to know how a man will treat you follow the moon and if it looks like this run for your life
Xo

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I am wide awake; Uranus Mercury Transits

Published April 11, 2017 by starsmoonandsun

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I am hardly polite on a regular day with Mars in my 3rd house sextile my Mercury but this transit (Uranus square natal Mercury) is something else. My mouth is like a loaded gun held by Betty Broderick, I just say things.  I won’t say I don’t mean these things, I do still I would rather they went unsaid.

 I am not a patient person by any means with a natal Aries moon I do not wait ever but now my impatience is of epic proportions like none, zip, zero.

The worst part of this transit is possibly my inability to sleep even though I am exhausted!!!

I can be impolite but I can’t walk around f$#ing exhausted

Mercury is the messenger of the Gods it rules our mental faculties, the way we think and how we communicate.

Uranus rules electricity, it’s called the “Great Liberator”, it governs flashes of insight, lightening, it is actually considered the “higher octave” of Mercury.

When they meet by a square aspect this shows stress and I promise you I am stressed that I can’t sleep.

I can not confess I had any flashes of brilliance and if they ever do come I hope they arrive mid day while i am at the gym or with pen in hand

But for right now It isn’t like I am up all night writing novels or giving astrology readings. I am just up tossing and turning a glass of wine, a sleeping pill, it doesn’t matter I am still wide awake

Last night I slept 9 hours and 9 minutes but was restless for 43 of those minutes according to my Fitbit but I promise you I feel as though I haven’t slept at all. This transit lasts through 2018 Here is to hoping I don’t have to wait till then to sleep

I am wide awake by Katy Perry is the theme song

A little bit on Saturn, Pluto and Death

Published March 1, 2017 by starsmoonandsun

I am not one that looks for death in the natal chart or horoscope When someone passes away I do look to see what was happening at the time but I don’t linger. To be honest when I think of death I think of the planet Pluto. Pluto after all is associated with Scorpio and the 8th house of sex death and taxes. Pluto I am beginning to think more often than not  doesn’t refer to necessarily a literal death but can be a spiritual or metaphorical death. The symbolization of Pluto is the phoenix rising from the ashes if you have a heavy Pluto like I do you are continuously going through this purification process where parts of you keep dying and you keep being reborn though quite frankly I hardly feel like a phoenix.

I had made note a while ago mentally that when someone I love dies I usually am having a Saturn transit (not a Pluto transit), sometimes its people that pass away and other times it’s a part of myself that has died. They say the hardest transits of Saturn are though the water houses

The water trinity represents the beginning of life (4th house) the end of life (8th house) and the afterlife (12th house)

4th house rules mom/home/family the 4th house is also the root of the chart so when a planet transits here it digs up whatever is buried. The 4th house is associated with cancer and rules the cradle to the grave Saturn placed here often indicates hardship in childhood there can be blocks to allowing others to get close to you

The 8th house is governed by Scorpio and here we find deep sharing, this is also the house of transformation, sex and other people’s money. Most importantly it governs forces beyond our control. Saturn restricts whatever it touches so sometimes here we miss out on a inheritance, or we have trouble completely bonding with another but most importantly I think this can be a person that resists change. Saturn is the authority in astrology the Lord of Karma this is the house of the underworld ruled by Pluto. These are two heavy hitters, but Pluto IMO trumps Saturn there is only one constant in life and that is –change- to resist it is futile.

The last water house Is the 12th house ruled by Pisces this is the house of self undoing, this is the last house in the natal chart and is associated with endings.  Whereas the 4th house rules the cradle to the grave, the 8th house rules death here the 12th house is associated with life after death. A lot of things die when a planet transits this house. I had been inquiring about a man and every time I pulled a tarot card or anyone else did it was the 8 of cups. I ran his chart and he has Saturn transiting his 12th house, this card is associated with Saturn in Pisces I love when life connects like that, effortlessly. This Tarot card is associated with the dark night of the soul , it is also known as abandonment  and in the Thoth deck indolence. When Saturn transits here just as in the figure we have to leave many things behind. Saturn or any outer planet transiting here calls to our attention the things we  have stuffed in the closet, the parts of ourselves we chose to not look at. And once we have faced these things and said many goodbyes we have our new beginning when Saturn crosses the Ascendant-that will be our life after death.


I have been thinking about death lately, maybe because parts of me feel like they are dying. I had an eclipse fall in my first house but I have Solar Arc Pluto sitting exactly across from my Ascendant, there is little literature on this aspect but I have no doubt it is relevant because I am unraveling at godspeed.

I have been thinking that Pluto has a more so of a regenerative quality to it with its endings and Saturn maybe has more permanence, and perhaps when Pluto strips parts of us or removes something from our lives it had more of inevitable feeling to it. I always take Pluto over Saturn, I am comfortable in a way in darkness, in changing, and even though I am unraveling at god speed I would still take Pluto over Saturn transits any day.

I always say

With Pluto you can climb out of the fiery pits of hell but at least you will be reborn.

Saturn rules karma it is considered the great malefic with Saturn being associated with Karma and some say the results of past life actions you don’t know what you are being served. Saturn is often associated with the Grim Reaper historically, he is known as father time, Saturn the word itself is very closely associated with Satan I don’t know much about word origins but I have no doubt that something about Saturns influence can be merciless. Some say the rings around Saturn represent the idea of Karma or what goes around comes around. I have heard other people refer to Saturn’s rings as protection  or what keeps people at bay….any of us that have Saturn Angular know this well.

I happen to find my father’s death certificate the other day and was semi surprised or semi not surprised at how influential Saturn via transit was in his chart, my chart and my mother’s chart on the day he died.

My father died on his first Saturn return  ( I do not have a time of birth) A Saturn return occurs the first time around the ages of 28-30 this marks the time that Saturn returns to the same position it was at your time of birth This period is often notable for the result of past actions up until that point.  Heath Ledger is someone that comes to mind that passed away during his first Saturn return, Amy Winehouse was another.  There is a long list on the internet of people that died at 27 just prior to their Saturn Return Jimi Hendrix, Kurt Cobain, Jim Morrison.  Karmicly speaking they say you come into this incarnation having already chosen the path so maybe some people fulfill their life’s purpose in a shorter span of time.

In any event my father died during his Saturn return. Here is his chart

On the day he died you can see Saturn literally just entered my 8th house so here you have the grim reaper of astrology entering the house of death Saturn along with the Sun and the Midheaven are all related to the father. Saturn was opposite my moon and square my sun. Saturn in Libra is historically a very difficult transit for me I had it in 2010/2011 as well. Parts of me died during that time I will never get back

My mother’s chart for the day my father died


She had Uranus planet of unexpected conjunct her moon the moon rules her 8th house of death. People often overlook this in transits. So yes Uranus conjunct moon is unexpected (Uranus) emotional (moon) news but about what???? You have to look to see what house the moon rules. Here it is the 8th house.

My mom also had Saturn in Libra squaring her Capricorn sun just like I did. The sun rules the men in your life Saturn to Sun transits are always difficult. Things likely do not go your way you are low on vitality, you often feel depressed and burdened.  Perhaps you meet men (sun) you have past life (karmic ) ties with. I was once advised never marry someone during a Saturn Sun transit when It is over you will wonder what the hell was I doing?

Saturn/Sun here we have death meets men, lord of time meets us, The sun is our vitality, our ego and our identity when someone close to us dies before their time or what we deem as before their time I have no doubt perhaps that a part of us dies with them.

Which do you find more accurately depicts death Saturn or Pluto?

 

Solar Return Moon in the 1st house; a change in appearance 

Published February 17, 2017 by starsmoonandsun

My solar return moon is conjunct my solar return Ascendant this most often shows up as pregnancy in a woman’s solar return chart but it also indicates a change in appearance Where ever the moon is in the natal chart or by progression or solar return we experience a fluctuation . Just as the moon changes and goes in phases so does the placement of the moon. The 1st house or Ascendant is literally the way we look! The way people see us ..
This year combined with the solar return moon in the 1st house, the Pisces eclipse is in my first and my solar arc Pluto is exactly opposite my Ascendent . Pluto transforms what ever it touches; the first house rules the way you look or it can be the way you present yourself The Pisces eclipse new moon in the first is a new way of looking & a new way of presenting yourself
I; for starters have been very upset over aging lol my mom asked what I want for my 40th birthday I said to be 30 maybe 35 lol People tell me all the time I do not look my age (I’m sure venus in Gemini helps) but still the process has been stressful to say the least
I had to have some major cosmetic dental work done that I didn’t want to have and I am not entirely happy with the results and i have lost count over how many tears I have cried over this. People’s staring at me asking me what I did different it’s annoying I said to my mother if I surgically put a big ass in no one would say anything and she reminded me that people always talk about me, watch me, inspect me so anything I do would be discussed (natal Neptune in the 10th everything is a scandal even when it isn’t)

To combat aging I started Botox treatments every 4 months and I have 0 regrets I would recommend everyone get Botox it’s a win win! I also had some restalyne injections and am considering Genesis Lazer treatments to promote collagen! Did I mention the solar return moon is in Leo…clearly I am pulling out all the stops in typical Leo fashion. Lol
I don’t know what will be the end results it’s seems like a mixed bag to be honest it’s isn’t easy when planets are in the 1st house, an eclipse hits there or when a planet crosses the Ascendent we have to find new ways of being, new ways of presenting ourselves which can be difficult so as I find new ways of adjusting to being 40 and looking differently I suppose I should be happy I am not having a geriatric pregnancy which quite easily could have been the other manifestation of this energy
Xo

Mars in the 3rd house 

Published January 8, 2017 by starsmoonandsun

Where Mars is placed in the natal chart is where we exert a lot of energy it can also be where we experience conflict.Mars is the God of War it rules young men in the military, it is associated with sex, aggression and action. 

Today I held the door for someone in my building that was carrying a lot of stuff and she snapped at me “I don’t need you to hold the door for me” and I replied calmly “no problem next time I will let it slam right it your face” and as I got into my car I thought about all the conflicts I have had with my neighbors in a period of 2 years. I want you to understand I’m rarely home I’m always at work I do not have parties I hardly even watch tv I am not in anyone’s business I do not care what other people do. Yet I had one woman call security on me for being over my line in my parking space I wasn’t in her space I was actually on the line. Security was banging on my door while I was at home sick to repark my car -she must be a Virgo- another time I was putting my wash into the dryer when a woman clawed me she physically attacked me because she wanted my dryer- even though her wash was not done. This was on the day of an eclipse to my moon (ruler of home) she actually made me bleed. 

The 3rd house rules your mode of transportation (I drive fast) it rules communication (I’m blunt and honest) it rules mental facilities (my mind never shuts off I sort out problems in my sleep) it rules mobility (I have been told when I walk by I’m so fast people feel a breeze) The 3rd house rules writing and communication (Clearly i put a lot of energy into blogging tweeting etc) and the 3rd house also rules neighbors so it’s not uncommon to have disputes with neighbors. I wouldn’t let them run me out of town; I will sit at my pool, work out in my gym, enjoy my parking space and 24 hour security and if they don’t like me that is their issue not mine. I will refrain from holding the door, make sure I park with in my lines, do wash late at night when everyone is asleep and when I m confronted by some nasty ill mannered bitter Betty I will smile and say go fuck yourself 

Venus in Solar Return 12th House 

Published December 30, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

Today I tweeted I feel like I’m having a Neptune Venus transit but I’m not. When Neptune transits Venus in hard aspect we can lose touch with reality, we lose ourself in love, we believe in things ; in people blindly we seek transcendental love we believe we have met our soulmate.

As I was driving to work I realized I had Venus in my Solar Return 12th house this is similar to a Venus/Neptune transit

When I first saw this I thought wow am I going to have an affair this year? What secret relationship am I going to engage in. When people come to me for readings and they have this aspect (the majority of my clients are married) it is with 90% certainty they are having an affair.
I’m half way through my solar Return and let me just say this is the year of not seeing men clearly. It would take a lot for me to fall in love Romantiscim is my thing but delusion isn’t.
The solar Return 12th house (home to secrets and self undoing) has Venus (planet of love) on my natal 6th house (work) perhaps I meet men at work that are the cause of my own self undoing. Perhaps I met a man at work I didn’t see clearly. Sometimes astrology is that literal
I love it when it is.

I see the soul of you

I know the whole of you

That’s the kind of day dreamy feelings that enveloped me
He is a player I was told and I laughed no he isn’t.  It’s still hard to believe that he is. I take full ownership of this situation afterall I never asked. I never asked if he had a harem of women. I never asked anything. That’s Neptune you don’t ask you just believe you already know
He was Neptunian in every sense of the word.
I don’t want to make this post sound as if I’m broken hearted it wasn’t that deep it was just a sort of light disappointment.  My deepest wound came when I had Saturn conjunct moon in the solar Return 5th house. Nothing will ever hurt like that.
Dissapointment :That’s the hallmark of Neptune in relationships in love that’s the staple the dream never meets reality.
Just wanted to caution those of you with Neptune in the 12th of your solar Return it’s the secret lover, the love that causes your own self undoing, the lover you see through rose colored glasses, the Pisces lover, the alcoholic lover, the married lover, the fantasy lover that can’t breathe a breath in the reality of your life lover.

You can not make some travel on a path of self discovery if their soul isnt ready to leave where they are

Published December 28, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

I have been drawn to men draped in melancholy for quite some time I am beginning to think this has to do with my Saturn in the 7th house this isn’t exactly attracting the most joyous of partners  This placement often indicates marrying an older and colder partner. Ah it is what it is I suppose they can be older and they certainly do not have to be light but as of 2017 they will need to be happy.

You think that you can save them, you think that you can show them, you think that you can heal them but it never works that way.

I am telling you on your lengthy lists of what you seek in a partner you better put on the top of the list

  1. Happy
  2. Healthy

My Plutonic love-who this blog is written in dedication too- was heavy, depressed, his energy was thick. I would spend one night with him and sleep for days afterward. We were connected by etheric cords from navel chakra to navel chakra. He would drain me of my life force, that’s how we were connected. I was his source of power, maybe his source of light .img_1497img_1496img_1494 This is a man that has anything and everything you could possibly desire but he was perpetually sad. He has Sun Square Saturn and Chiron loosely conjunct his Sun and Mercury.

Saturn in aspect to planets will restrict and suppress the planets natural expression. Sun/Saturn often represents a father issue, perhaps inheriting paternal depression; other people have an absent father (Suri Cruise) or a general feeling of not being able to live up to the father.The identity (the Sun) is restricted. This placement is often found in millionaires as they use accomplishment and work (Saturn) to fill themselves (sun). Chiron on the Sun indicates a core wounding with in the sense of self. The sun is your identity, your self-expression, so here there may be a wound surrounding your sense of self. Not feeling good enough, you may feel like a part of you in missing, you may feel empty –Clearly these being the harsher manifestations

I also dated a crazy Gemini,  he was Saturian as well with his natal Moon placed in Capricorn this is common in people who are depressed and often found in alcoholics He had many addictions from gambling to cocaine but he will forever be one of my favorite people in the world. For all of his bad habits he was honest about all of them and never professed to be anything other than who he was.

Though I will say addiction is NOT who you are it is something you do that covers up who you are, that drowns out the voice of who you are. Addiction will fill you with lies about who you are but I will save that post for another day.

He also had Venus conjunct Saturn; blocks to love, suppressed feelings of love, past hurts that are difficult to get beyond in matters  of the heart.And as of late- the man who will culminate this lesson for me since I didn’t get it the first 10 times…well he is a Capricorn rising (Chart ruler is Saturn) I will tell you when I first saw him I thought well isn’t this a beautiful creature ( His Neptune opposes my Mars and Venus) he looked like a man that was oblivious to how beautiful he was (Natal Chiron square Ascendant exact, this shows a wound surrounding the way you look ) I remember thinking this man looks like he forgot the real meaning of life. He looks like he forgot what love feels like (he has Natal Saturn opposite Venus, blocks to love, chooses work over love, being closed to love). It never occurred to me that maybe he didn’t want to know what love was, maybe he didnt want to remember. Maybe he prefered it this way, life this way. Maybe thats why he keeps a door of revolving women, if you keep the rotation going you dont have to worry about anyone getting too close.

“When you have lived in a dungeon for a very long time the light when you see it can actually hurt your eyes” ~Marianne Williamson

That is Saturn in the 7th house attracting men with planets placed in Capricorn, planets in hard aspect to Saturn men that are blocked in some manner, men that think accomplishment is the gateway to self-love. Surprise it isn’t! No amount of accolades, money, or outer work will compensate for a lack of inner work

“You and I both know that we have shadow sides. We have edges my darling resistances to love” ~Marianne Williamson (She has Capricorn moon might I add and Sun square Saturn)

“A ring of fear surrounds love like rings around Saturn” ~Marianne Williamson

Even my crazy partying Gemini ran his own company work hard play hard was the motto.

I thought perhaps every time  that I could show them there is more to life, you think you can tell them life holds more beauty then 7 figures sitting in a bank account. I want to shout none of this shit matters !!!! But they don’t hear me. You can show someone the path but you can not make them travel it.


Richard Burton put it best when he said “we operate on alien wave-lengths. You are as distant as Venus–planet, I mean–and I am tone-deaf to the music of the spheres”

Maybe my Gemini listened more so then the others, he had Aquarius rising so he was evolved he use to tell me I think you know things no one else does. I was deeply honored

With this Capricorn Rising and my crazy Gemini My Moon conjunct their natal Chiron I don’t know if I possessed a conscious need to heal them. Chiron is where you carry your deepest wound accordingly to cafeastrology.com “Chiron represents insecurity, where we feel an endless need to prove ourselves”

I do not have a heavy Saturn or  Chiron in my natal chart I have Chiron hanging out in my 2nd house …we all have Chiron some place it opposes my Uranus in the 8th I read that those of us that have Uranus opposite Chiron “reiki, acupuncture, therapy are some examples of the subtle energy healing techniques that may be apart of your wounding, healing journey”

It was this Capricorn rising that inspired me to  get more involved in Reiki healing I am going for my certification at the beginning of 2017. I had touched him lightly in his stomach area and felt this wound, it was open, it was like I stuck my hand into another dimension and I quickly pulled it out.

It is said in synastry the moon person can heal and nurture the chiron person. I read on yahoo answers “when your moon conjuncts his chiron you possess the innate and uncanny ability to see through his facade and literally feel his pain”

Some people prefer to live behind a mask, some people prefer we don’t see the Wizard of Oz man behind the curtain. On some level they  enjoy their man made prisons it feels safer living with in them.

It takes alot to live your most authentic life, this personal path of endless self analysis that those of us are on isn’t easy. And yes we may meet people who have lost sight of who they are, and we may encounter people that forgot the beauty in love, and sometimes I think we- those of us in the metaphysical field- feel: I see the soul of you I know the whole of you… but you can not remind people who they are when they would rather forget. And you can not heal anyone that doesn’t want to heal. You can not make some travel on a path of self discovery if their soul isnt ready to leave where they are. It simply doesnt work this way. And while this saddens me I know I am living authentically I have gone to war with my wounds I am healed I am present and ready for great love and in the words of Nayyirah Waheed “You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready”

 

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