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You can not make some travel on a path of self discovery if their soul isnt ready to leave where they are

Published December 28, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

I have been drawn to men draped in melancholy for quite some time I am beginning to think this has to do with my Saturn in the 7th house this isn’t exactly attracting the most joyous of partners  This placement often indicates marrying an older and colder partner. Ah it is what it is I suppose they can be older and they certainly do not have to be light but as of 2017 they will need to be happy.

You think that you can save them, you think that you can show them, you think that you can heal them but it never works that way.

I am telling you on your lengthy lists of what you seek in a partner you better put on the top of the list

  1. Happy
  2. Healthy

My Plutonic love-who this blog is written in dedication too- was heavy, depressed, his energy was thick. I would spend one night with him and sleep for days afterward. We were connected by etheric cords from navel chakra to navel chakra. He would drain me of my life force, that’s how we were connected. I was his source of power, maybe his source of light .img_1497img_1496img_1494 This is a man that has anything and everything you could possibly desire but he was perpetually sad. He has Sun Square Saturn and Chiron loosely conjunct his Sun and Mercury.

Saturn in aspect to planets will restrict and suppress the planets natural expression. Sun/Saturn often represents a father issue, perhaps inheriting paternal depression; other people have an absent father (Suri Cruise) or a general feeling of not being able to live up to the father.The identity (the Sun) is restricted. This placement is often found in millionaires as they use accomplishment and work (Saturn) to fill themselves (sun). Chiron on the Sun indicates a core wounding with in the sense of self. The sun is your identity, your self-expression, so here there may be a wound surrounding your sense of self. Not feeling good enough, you may feel like a part of you in missing, you may feel empty –Clearly these being the harsher manifestations

I also dated a crazy Gemini,  he was Saturian as well with his natal Moon placed in Capricorn this is common in people who are depressed and often found in alcoholics He had many addictions from gambling to cocaine but he will forever be one of my favorite people in the world. For all of his bad habits he was honest about all of them and never professed to be anything other than who he was.

Though I will say addiction is NOT who you are it is something you do that covers up who you are, that drowns out the voice of who you are. Addiction will fill you with lies about who you are but I will save that post for another day.

He also had Venus conjunct Saturn; blocks to love, suppressed feelings of love, past hurts that are difficult to get beyond in matters  of the heart.And as of late- the man who will culminate this lesson for me since I didn’t get it the first 10 times…well he is a Capricorn rising (Chart ruler is Saturn) I will tell you when I first saw him I thought well isn’t this a beautiful creature ( His Neptune opposes my Mars and Venus) he looked like a man that was oblivious to how beautiful he was (Natal Chiron square Ascendant exact, this shows a wound surrounding the way you look ) I remember thinking this man looks like he forgot the real meaning of life. He looks like he forgot what love feels like (he has Natal Saturn opposite Venus, blocks to love, chooses work over love, being closed to love). It never occurred to me that maybe he didn’t want to know what love was, maybe he didnt want to remember. Maybe he prefered it this way, life this way. Maybe thats why he keeps a door of revolving women, if you keep the rotation going you dont have to worry about anyone getting too close.

“When you have lived in a dungeon for a very long time the light when you see it can actually hurt your eyes” ~Marianne Williamson

That is Saturn in the 7th house attracting men with planets placed in Capricorn, planets in hard aspect to Saturn men that are blocked in some manner, men that think accomplishment is the gateway to self-love. Surprise it isn’t! No amount of accolades, money, or outer work will compensate for a lack of inner work

“You and I both know that we have shadow sides. We have edges my darling resistances to love” ~Marianne Williamson (She has Capricorn moon might I add and Sun square Saturn)

“A ring of fear surrounds love like rings around Saturn” ~Marianne Williamson

Even my crazy partying Gemini ran his own company work hard play hard was the motto.

I thought perhaps every time  that I could show them there is more to life, you think you can tell them life holds more beauty then 7 figures sitting in a bank account. I want to shout none of this shit matters !!!! But they don’t hear me. You can show someone the path but you can not make them travel it.


Richard Burton put it best when he said “we operate on alien wave-lengths. You are as distant as Venus–planet, I mean–and I am tone-deaf to the music of the spheres”

Maybe my Gemini listened more so then the others, he had Aquarius rising so he was evolved he use to tell me I think you know things no one else does. I was deeply honored

With this Capricorn Rising and my crazy Gemini My Moon conjunct their natal Chiron I don’t know if I possessed a conscious need to heal them. Chiron is where you carry your deepest wound accordingly to cafeastrology.com “Chiron represents insecurity, where we feel an endless need to prove ourselves”

I do not have a heavy Saturn or  Chiron in my natal chart I have Chiron hanging out in my 2nd house …we all have Chiron some place it opposes my Uranus in the 8th I read that those of us that have Uranus opposite Chiron “reiki, acupuncture, therapy are some examples of the subtle energy healing techniques that may be apart of your wounding, healing journey”

It was this Capricorn rising that inspired me to  get more involved in Reiki healing I am going for my certification at the beginning of 2017. I had touched him lightly in his stomach area and felt this wound, it was open, it was like I stuck my hand into another dimension and I quickly pulled it out.

It is said in synastry the moon person can heal and nurture the chiron person. I read on yahoo answers “when your moon conjuncts his chiron you possess the innate and uncanny ability to see through his facade and literally feel his pain”

Some people prefer to live behind a mask, some people prefer we don’t see the Wizard of Oz man behind the curtain. On some level they  enjoy their man made prisons it feels safer living with in them.

It takes alot to live your most authentic life, this personal path of endless self analysis that those of us are on isn’t easy. And yes we may meet people who have lost sight of who they are, and we may encounter people that forgot the beauty in love, and sometimes I think we- those of us in the metaphysical field- feel: I see the soul of you I know the whole of you… but you can not remind people who they are when they would rather forget. And you can not heal anyone that doesn’t want to heal. You can not make some travel on a path of self discovery if their soul isnt ready to leave where they are. It simply doesnt work this way. And while this saddens me I know I am living authentically I have gone to war with my wounds I am healed I am present and ready for great love and in the words of Nayyirah Waheed “You never ever have to convince someone to do the work to be ready. There is more extraordinary love out here in this wide and wild universe. And there is the love that will be ready”

 

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Ruler of the 1st in the 12th house; Edward Snowden and Julian Assange

Published December 27, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

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I am not comparing these men to one another I am comparing birth charts***

I watched the movie Snowden last night I confess I really didn’t know much about him.  I am not sure how I felt after the movie….let me retract that I know exactly how I felt:  I think if you take a job working for the CIA you take all the shady shit that comes with it. The Government is dirty business and to think otherwise I suppose either made him naive or just very idealistic. Naturally I ran his natal chart along side with Julian Assange and Chelsea Manning who happened to pop up (we do not have a birth time for Manning Assange Birth time is questionable) on an astrological article on whistle blowers. I thought it was interesting that they all have Natal Moon in Scorpio; planets in Scorpio are known for secrecy and hidden agendas, they never reveal their feelings or show their hand. They are known for their investigative practices and natural inclination to distrust others.

Donna Cunningham writes in her book “The Moon in Your Life” about the Scorpio moon individual “the world is out to get you -never let yourself be weak, never lose your cool,  always be on top of any situation”

Scorpio moon loves holding all the cards, having all the information. I was raised by a Scorpio moon the mantra was never let them see you cry and never write anything down you wouldnt want anyone else to read.

But what struck me the most was that both Snowden and Assange have the ruler of the 1st in the 12th house (if the birth time on these charts are indeed correct) Rulerships are often overlooked in astrology and yet they are very important.

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A house is never empty in astrology, you always have a sign on the cusp so while I have no planets in my first house Aquarius is rising this means Uranus is the ruler of my 1st house this is also known as my chart ruler Uranus is placed in my 8th house so I embody a Pluto/Scorpio like energy since the 8th house governs; sex, death and taxes. I always feel like parts of me are dying and I am continuously being reborn. This house also governs “occult” and here I am no explanation needed 

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Sometimes we have many chart rulers I for instance have Pisces intercepted so Neptune is also my chart ruler as is Jupiter (traditional ruler of Pisces)  and Saturn since Saturn is the traditional ruler of Aquarius

So all in all I have 4 chart rulers

  1. Jupiter
  2. Neptune
  3. Uranus
  4. Saturn

My Astrologer said this adds to a more complicated personality, I certainly cannot disagree though personally I mostly identify with Uranus in the 8th and Neptune in the 10th

You can do this with all of the houses for instance Cancer rules my 6th house this house governs work, your day to day activities with Cancer as the ruler you can assume I work nights (the moon) I work with the public (moon rules the public) It is hard for me to establish a routine (Moon fluctuates daily)  to look further into this we can see where the ruler of Cancer (the moon); is placed; the moon is placed in my 2nd house the 2nd house rules the money you earn I assure you I only work for the money. I have no attachment to my job other than that. I do not derive any sense of identify from my job like other people do it is simply a means to an end.

Here are some cheat sheets for houses and rulerships


I wrote about Paris Jackson here who is 12th house heavy ( as another variation of 12th house Neptunian energy)

Paris Jackson Natal Chart

And I wrote about the heavy Neptunian influenced now deceased Google Exec Forrest Hayes Here

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I tend to concentrate on the shadow aspects that come with 12th house/Pisces/Neptune energy they govern addictions, fantasy, illusion and what you don’t see clearly

Venus in the 12th, -secret affairs

Moon in the 12th-Mother with addiction or it could be a mother that died young

Sun in the 12th house can be an unknown father or men may be the cause of your own undoing

Anything Neptunian/Pisces/ 12th house I always caution the person about self undoing behaviors, about addiction, about mental illness because these are the shadow sides of planets placed here  but I also know a Psychiatrist with planets in the 12th house that works in a prison. Astrology isn’t one stop shopping so the influence of the placement may vary-

Also please do remember you have your entire life to live out the natal chart! You may not be an addict today  but can you say you will never be  one? You may not have an affair now but you never know where you will be 15 years from now

Edward Snowden and Julian Assange

The first thing I noticed when looking at Edward Snowden and Julian Assange chart was that they both have the ruler of the 1st (the chart ruler) placed in the 12th house.

Snowden’s chart ruler is Mercury and Assange is Jupiter and they are both placed in the 12th house the 12th house is naturally ruled by Pisces. The 12th house governs Psychiatric facilities, self undoing, prisons, the afterlife, solitude, secret societies and what you don’t see.

When the ruler of the 1st is placed in the 12th you can work in secret. Assage and Snowden also have Neptune in hard aspect to personal planets as did Forrest Hayes (see article above) when you are not an addict, when you are not a musician or an artist, a psychiatrist, an inmate, you very well can work in secret and behind the scenes. The 12th house also rules secret organizations, things that are done in private, things done behind the scenes, underground movements etc

With Mercury being Snowdens ruling planet in the 12th and Mercury being the messsanger (his Merucry is also in sign of rulership Gemini)  Snowdens leaks were Mercurial in nature; secret communications, text messages, emails, phone calls etc

Where as Julian Assange ruling planet is Jupiter that placed in the 12th house Jupiter governs publishing and clearly he has Wikileakes where he publishes (Jupiter) private or secret (12th house) information. Assange according to Wikipedia worked with a secret hacking group or began one.

The 12th house also governs self sacrifice I will say that with the ruler of the 1st being placed in the 12th you may be willing to sacrifice yourself for a greater cause.

My astrology instructor once told me “Aquarius will fight for the cause but Pisces will die for the cause”

I have to believe that Snowden and Assange must have felt called to do what they have done on a higher level, perhaps on a soul level. That’s Pisces/Neptune/12th house too

8 of Cups & 3 Of Swords RX Move on and Leave the pain behind you

Published December 19, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

I did a reading for myself today that resonated with me on a soul level

I have started to study tarot more in depth lately and am eager to offer more tarot readings on my Etsy shop sometime in February.

These metaphysical  studies seem to take on a mind of their own you learn astrology next you go to tarot and Reiki and crystal healing and on and on and on I suppose that is the natural evolution; you grow and expand.

The way I started reading angel cards came to me during a mediation session, give angel readings I was instructed. I didn’t even know what angel readings were.

I actually received my first tarot deck when I was about 15 I still have it The metaphysical always interested me now I am just studying with more dedication

This morning I consulted tarot and asked two questions

What do I need?

8 of Cups was the card I pulled

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This is always a clear indication: Move on

You need to move on, period. 8 of cups indicates the need to sober up.  The word sober to me isn’t just about abstaining from alcohol it’s also being of a sober mind and having clarity.

The 8 of cups is indicating that you are leaving something or someone behind that is NOT emotionally fulfilling and walking toward something greater something that offers the promise of emotional fulfillment. This isn’t a happy card, it is with a quiet resignation we carry on but nevertheless we must. You can see the person is hunched over even the crescent moon is adorned with a sad face but just as the moon goes through phases so do we and once again we will find ourselves full. That is the  message in the 8 of cups.

The 7 of cups (the preceding card) offered the dreams, the illusion and escape I wrote about that card here 7 of Cups and Neptune in Synastry

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But they didn’t quite live up to the promise or allure they projected. The 7 of cups in Thoth is called Debauch it represents yes the excess of sensual pleasures as well as drinking and eating. According to Dictionary.com Debauch also means to “seduce” and that’s what the 7 of cups does it lures you in, it says look at all I have to offer.

And after we feast and dreamt and drank we arrive at the 8 of cups which is sometimes called the morning after Diane Ross Love Hangover comes to mind. At the 8 we are faced with a sober mind the realization the dream couldn’t manifest into reality so we must move on.

And we journey toward the 9 of cups Lord of Happiness (according to thoth)

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We must master the lesson that happiness can only be found within ourselves –that is what the lone man signifies to me at least when well dignified- We must give up our illusions and not put our hopes in false prophets (7 of Cups) so to say. And after we have mastered the love of self we can go on to the 10 of cups which symbolizes happiness with others.

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What do I need I received the 8 of cups

What should I do? I received the 3 of swords reversed these are the 2 saddest cards in my opinion combined with 5 of cups ( God I never want to see that; Lord of Disappointment)

Three of Swords is called the Lord of Sorrow

A quote came to mind looking at this in the reverse “let the dead leaves drop”

Let the swords fall; let the pain go, let yourself heal

It signifies you took the hit, you felt the pain and now you must let it go. Let the swords fall, let the healing take place

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3 of swords reversed can also indicate a need to stop replaying the pain over and over again in our mind. “To heal a wound we must stop touching it” Often people hurt us once but we make a choice to relive that sorrow again and again. We need to gain control of our mind of our thoughts, stop reliving past hurts “let the dead leaves drop” “stop watering dead plants”

I encourage everyone to have the courage to let go of attachments that are unhealthy and not emotionally satisfying. Walk in faith 8 of cups style towards a fuller more satisfying future and leave the sorrow of the 3 of swords behind. I will leave you with one of my favorite quotes by Iyanla Vanzant iyanla-vanzant

 

Saturn Opposite Jupiter Transit; A Crisis of Faith 

Published December 19, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

Perhaps I should have called my first post on Saturn opposite Jupiter transit “a crisis of faith” that’s what it is really and the closer the orb gets the greater the crisis will be I imagine. Make it till January Danielle that’s all you have to do I tell myself while some days I am so lethargic and want to cry a lot!

I can be a runner in some ways but I have decided to face my shit so I’m not carrying it with me into following years. When sad in typical Cancer fashion I stay home call out sick for a week and nurse my wounds. This time I have decided to confront my wounds head on. Only then Can you heal them

Jupiter governs the 9th house in astrology home to religion, beliefs, politics when Saturn is in hard aspect to Jupiter via transit your beliefs come into question. I have found people have been talking to me about “God” more so than ever before I was checking in a guest and he asked me if there was a god a colleague of mine wanted to know why people post pray for Syria what does that mean if god existed would this be happening ? I don’t believe in god not in the sense that one man is in the clouds dictating our lives. I have never believed in God like that my guest called me a Humanist when I explained this to him. I shy away from labels generally speaking. How very Aquarius rising of me
I encountered an issue recently that set me back financially and a disappointment in my love life that was harsh. Disappointment can be debilitating to me I am often naturally so hopeful. Disappointments in love are not an anomaly I have Saturn in the 7th house it sort of comes with the territory. This year numerologicaly (universally) has been a nine year it is said it is the end of a cycle and I can see a montage of bad relationships choices laid out in front of me. The culmination of bad choices I refuse to carry with me into 2017! I refuse.

Stop putting Hope in false prophets may be another Saturn opposite Jupiter catch phrase . “I release the pattern within my consciousness that created this condition” is one of my daily Louise Hay Affirmations I’m forever drawn to melancholic men that wear sadness like a cloak. The next one has to be happy I tell myself that should be the #1 criteria You can’t save anyone shit sometimes you can even love them, they won’t let you.

“when you have lived in a Dungeon for a very long time the light when you see it can actually hurt your eyes” – Marianne Williamson

So here is Saturn calling me on my Jupiterian beliefs I believe in Law of Attraction I believe in working with the cycles of your life I love Eckhart Tolle and Abraham Hicks I believe (such a Jupiter word) in those teachings so now it’s time to find practical application for them (Saturn) I have a social media account that’s compromised of astrology but also of spiritual contexts I can tweet Louise Hay all day but if I’m not living it well that’s just bullshit. You aren’t what you say you will do….you are what you do. (Ah a major 2016 lesson) so it’s time to get real (Saturn) about my spirituality (Jupiter) it’s time to go to work on it. It’s time to wake up and go balls to the wall with my faith. Transcend my own man made prison, change my subconscious limiting beliefs, not crumble in the face of dissapointment and truly believe that “everything is working out for me” I’ll drag my ass out of bed one day at a time one affirmation at a time one mediation at a time with the belief (Jupiter) with in the next 4 weeks I will be shiny and new

Saturn the Buzz Kill to Jupiter

Published December 17, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

I am tired, drained really I do not have much energy and I feel the energy I do have is spent doing what I have to do, I don’t really have any excess to do the things I want to do. I have the sun in the 5th house my identity, my journey if you will is centered around love and creating responsibilities can exhaust me. It is very important that you tend to your natal sun, that you nourish it by the house that it is placed in. You need to remember to feed it. Energetically I always run very high I have Sun square Moon and a Cardinal T square in my Chart Cardinal signs are doers. My mom said she was going to buy me a makeup bag that read “I am busy” because I always am. I laugh at people that have the time to correct my grammatical errors on twitter, I am pretty sure they aren’t doing all that I do in a day. Running, going, writing, working, giving readings, taken a class, on and on and on until this week I hit a wall.

The culprit; Saturn is opposite my Jupiter via transit

Saturn Rules

  • Responsibility
  • Time
  • Work
  • Boundaries
  • Lessons
  • Practicality Zzzzzzz

According to Jeanne Avery in Astrological Aspects Your Inner Dialogs

Saturn “describes shoulds, musts, and oughts”

“Saturn is the testing ground of life and indicates the greatest karmic lesson to be learned”

I don’t do Saturn very well.

I believe if you look to the natal chart you will see how hard a transit for you will be. Not all astrologers believe this; I think if you are heavy say Plutonian Pluto transits will be easier for you because you are familiar with that energy. I have Pluto square my Sun, opposite my moon exact, trine Jupiter, sextile Saturn, Neptune & midheaven and trine my ascendant. Pluto is woven into me, death and rebirth it all comes natural. I just finished a Pluto opposite Sun square moon transit and it was pretty much all gravy.

But Saturn transits god you can find me laying in bed weeping. I do have Saturn natal in a grand fire trine which helps me out with work and money but it is square my Mars and Uranus. “You had me at fuck the system” has been the motto since birth.

Mars energy in a square to Saturn I will always be at war (mars) with authority (Saturn)

Uranus square Saturn indicates I rebel (Uranus) against the status quo (Saturn)

I am just not very good with rules and structure I prefer to be more free floating.

Saturn is now opposing my natal Jupiter in the 4th house it will be exact on New Year’s Eve Oh the joy

Jupiter Represents

  • Expansion
  • Optimism
  • Good Luck
  • Joy

“The Jupitarian quality is a marvelous combination of practicality and enthusiasm. The reverse quality is disappointment. If the aim is too high and the goals are missed the individual can be paralyzed by the let down” –Jeanne Avery

You want to look where Jupiter and Sagittarius are placed in your natal chart to see where you feel lucky or optimistic. I have Sagittarius on my Midheaven, I think this gives me a hope  that things will work out and when they don’t I would say I am greatly disappointed. I usually work from an inner knowing which I think is due to my Jupiter in the 4th house. The 4th house is the root of the chart and reflects what we carry deep within us among other things. So I have never been a 5 year planner I am a go with the flow listen to my own guidance sort of person.

I intuit mostly everything I do. I announced the other day at work I was booking a trip to Machu Piccchu and my colleague said Oh Peru…I had no idea where it even was! I sort of get called to do things

I have written before that I do not feel Jupiter brings us lotto wins or grand romances I think it infuses the planet or house with an optimism and belief that everything will be ok and usually it is until it isn’t.

And that brings me to Saturn opposite Jupiter

Saturn squashes the belief, the optimism, the joy that Jupiter holds. It tests (Saturn always tests) your beliefs, your truths, your inner workings (if Jupiter is in the 4th house).

Robert Hand writes in his book Planets in Aspect about Saturn opposite Jupiter transit

“During this time your opportunities for growth and expansion are limited”.

PROBABLY BECAUSE YOU ARE TOO F&%ING TIRED TO DO ANYTHING

“You often feel as if your personal freedom is unduly limited by others”.

“This transit is a useful if not always pleasant encounter with reality”

Saturn squelches the joy and optimism of Jupiter don’t let anyone ever tell you any different.

For those of you that have this natal oppositions can work like a swinging door so you can be optimistic, joyful, overly eager and then fall victim to Saturn the disappointment, melancholy, and depression can kick in. Robert Plletier writes in “Planets in Aspect” those that have this natal

“You fluctuate between knowing what you are worth to having doubts about your value”

I know there are worse transits, (they will happen for me in 2018 when Saturn enters Capricorn, I seriously just finished recovering from Saturn in Libra) that’s the beauty that comes with age when you are young you think this will never end, when you are older and know astrology you can simply open your ephemeris and say I may have to drag my uninspired tired ass all the way through December but as of January 1st this transit is over and I can go back to being my high energy manic self perhaps with a few lessons in the bag.

Mars in the 12th house I take action against my own best interest

Published November 22, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

Mars in the natal chart is where we take action, where we are aggressive. Mars rules young men, the military, often referred to as the god of war, it oversees sex and action. Its funny to watch Mars in action; if someone has Mars conjunct Mercury it is most apparent they will talk with their hands a lot. Mars ruler of action will work in unison with Mercury planet of communication.

Mars in the 12th house says: I take action against myself, I take action that goes against my own best interest. The 12th house is home to self undoing, what we don’t see. However everyone else can see what is happening in the 12th house its visible to others just not yourself. Mars is not comfortable in Pisces nor is it comfortable in the 12th house the aggression and focus gets lost, Mars becomes watery; think of the symbolization of Pisces two fish swimming in circles this energy isn’t direct. The person with Mars will stick to a decision to their own detriment; they blatantly refuse to see the choice they have made is not the best one.

I know someone with Mars in the 12th house that made a bad business decision I told them this is not the right choice, this is going to backfire on you in a HUGE way They were quick to deflect and put the issue back on me. That’s the negative side to Pisces and 12th house planets, they play victim, they do not want to take ownership. Mars in 12th house also suffers from misdirected anger. People were begging me not to tell this person about this poor choice as they would take it out on everyone else.

Fast Forward many months the bad choice became too big to ignore, it got out of hand and had to be dealt with. This person would rather die than admit I was right.

Having to be right is an ego thing, I was right I don’t need anyone to confirm this.

My point is those that have Mars in the 12th house should be open to guidance from others, they need to acknowledge that perhaps the action that they take works not for them but against them and most importantly get a hold of your anger. Anger should be dealt with directly; it will take a conscious effort but can be done. When you are upset or feel slighted address it right in that moment if you know you are upset or angry at one person do not take it out on someone else. Release the need to play victim, take ownership of your poor choices, be aware of your skill set; not everyone can excel in all areas in life and that is ok.

A Neptune Affair; you are the dream and I am the dreamer

Published October 22, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

In another life he could have been mine I suppose all of his planets fall in my 7th house and 3 of mine fall in his. Perhaps that is why I had to know him. The 7th house is what you seek in a mate and a part of me felt like wow there you are.  This vague I am so comfortable to be here with you.

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I see him through this film this kaleidoscope of colors. I think he is beautiful

I have had this song on repeat for a minute

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I was reading a book that said our combined energies is a “gossamer fabric” very beautiful and delicate, light and ethereal.

Neptune is the planet of dreams, addictions, escapism; it rules what you don’t see it over sees fantasies and all things magical.  Neptune eludes, deludes and is evasive. Now you see him now you don’t. My Tarot Reader who knows nothing is particular about my situation pulled out the Magician card a few weeks ago and told me “don’t let him dazzle you with bullshit”. Neptune themed relationships often involve someone with addiction issues, someone looking to be saved and most definitely someone looking to escape.

Sometimes I think Neptune relationships have a difficult time surviving  or even getting off the ground in this cold Saturn ruled world where buying homes and laying down foundations take precedence over dreams and connections on a soul level.  Neptune contacts after all are otherworldly and not of this plane.  The keynotes are telepathy, dreaming of one another, and they are marked by an evasive you just can’t put your finger on them quality.

I have Neptune conjunct my Midheaven, my Neptune is a part of my grand fire trine with moon and Saturn too much reality erodes me, I much prefer the dream the smugness of it all; the gossamer fabric.

Perhaps for someone more cerebral this would never do.

I feel him on the perimeter of me, so close but yet so far. The other day I yelled why are you hiding from me?! And laughed and thought what a Neptunian thing to say, hiding in plain sight. He appears and disappears like a rabbit in a hat. I told him I hope I haunt him forever; I have no doubt I will. One night I will seep into his subconscious while he is on his 7th dream.

 

My Neptune squares his Moon, Mercury and Mars; His Neptune opposes my Venus and Mars.

A lot of talk goes on about who is deceiving who in these connections, perhaps it is neither. Maybe we just deceive ourselves.

I am not sure how he experiences me, he is very clear if not heavy handed in speech and I wonder with my Neptune squaring his Mercury do I bring him some sort of mental confusion. I generally do not talk a lot, not an excess of words. I believe this aspect is said that the Neptune values the intellectual accomplishments of the mercury person but I also feel the Neptune person (moi) is here to teach the mercury person something about spirituality.  A lesson I am going to presume the mercury person doesn’t want to learn  because these two planets meet by square. A square is an obstacle, it shows tension.

With the opposition it has a see saw effect; it is often debated who sees who like a dream. His Neptune opposes my Venus and mars and I see him as this magnificent I don’t even have words to describe sort of way, I tell myself that isn’t who he is that is merely my perception but no matter I see him through that sparkling veneer. It can also be and I have had it the Neptune person project his ideals onto Venus, I dated someone for a year and we had this aspect 100 years later he will say he never loved anyone like me.

These relationships or connections can be marked by forgiveness and compassion so even if something goes wrong an element of –its ok- will permeate.

Neptune relationships are supposed to be the most heart breaking; the dream doesn’t meet the reality. That’s what is written, it offers the promise of paradise that it can’t quite deliver.

Time has taught me to let things be as they are, I do believe what’s meant for you flows to you effortlessly and lets hope whats meant for me strolls in on a pink puffy cloud

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Neptune in Synastry A Perfect Illusion

Published September 28, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

Neptune in synastry is a dream; Neptune rules illusions, deceit, con-artists, drug addicts, the victim and the savior.

Neptune corresponds with several Tarot cards one of them being the 7 of cups.

The 7 of cups looks like it has all these wonderful options all these cups are calling you; enticing you with promises of dream fulfilled. All you ever wanted, all you could ever dream of are right before you.

When you see the 7 of cups in a Tarot reading it foretells that A. everything is not what it seems, B. the person you are inquiring about may have addiction issues or C. (in a romance reading) they may have several options and are playing the field.

I have been thinking about Neptune in synastry lately mostly when I hear Lady Gaga’s New Song “Perfect Illusion”

I don’t need eyes to see
I felt you touchin’ me
High like amphetamine
Maybe you’re just a dream
That’s what it means to crush
Now that I’m wakin’ up
I still feel the blow
But at least now I knowIt wasn’t love, it wasn’t love
It was a perfect illusion (perfect illusion)
Mistaken for love, it wasn’t love
It was a perfect illusion (perfect illusion)

Gaga has a pretty hefty Neptune in her natal chart this is what makes her creative but with Neptune also squaring her sun she has to watch for the tendency to pick up men (sun) that have addiction issues or that she sees through this Neptunian filter.

They say nothing brings greater disappointment in love then heavy Neptune in synastry, the dream perhaps never meets the reality.

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(According to Abrhahm Hicks disappointment is taking score too soon. I love that)

Projection is very likely in Neptunian theme relationships, particularly with personal planets opposing Neptune you project your desires, hopes and wishes on to the Neptunian person. But people are people and it is hard for them to live up to ideals. If you place any one person on a pedestal it is only a matter of time before they fall.

It is a lot to live up too; being someone’s dream. I have been called a dream and have viewed others as my dream.  It is an impossibility really. Neptune will have you telepathically communicating, walking through portals in between worlds, it feels otherworldly not of this realm and that why perhaps Neptunian theme relationships aren’t meant to last this world is simply too harsh. I don’t think that it is the Neptune person that is always deceiving us perhaps as much as we deceive ourselves. Yearning to escape a world of mundane, drift away on puffy clouds when the cold real world (Saturn) is just too much to take.

Saturn aspecting Venus; This isnt personal its business

Published September 28, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

Lately I have been thinking about love being the antidote for everything & how its important to love people even when they are unlovable. Of coarse from a distance, on a universal level: I see you are a human being made up from the same molecules and stardust as I am so I can love you even you aren’t lovable. I can send you waves of love from the sanctuary of  my own space.

I have written extensively about Saturn in regards to love, I would say I write about Saturn and Pluto the most because these are the two energies I am most familiar with. I have Saturn in the 7th house I have written about this a lot, how those of us with Saturn in the 7th or on Venus (Saturn opposite, conjunct, square to Venus) struggle with divine time in our love lives, how we attract authoritative partners or we have to be the authority in our relationships, how we have to work so hard when it comes to love, the way we use defense mechanisms to hold people apart from us. We cant take rejection, we can set the bar very high in love, we can meet people at the wrong time, we can meet people that aren’t available and anyone we do meet usually has a heavy karmic debt or element to it.

Where ever Saturn is; life is hard, life is difficult. As a cure to my own Saturn in the 7th I think to myself if you hurt me I will love you –from a distance any way- I have made a conscious effort to not set the bar so high that people have to climb to some idealized height. When something feels uncomfortable and I wish the whole earth would swallow me whole I will stay and face it. I have decided the next time I find love I will put the work in instead of running for my life because this seems “so hard”. And I will accept that my relationships will never be equal, never on equal footing that someone will always run the show though in all honesty I would rather someone else take charge. If I trust you to lead I will surely follow. Saturn in the 7th believes in traditional roles, conservative relationships that last. And I do believe in love the kind that captures your soul.

I was thinking about the men I attract that have Venus in hard aspect to Saturn; these arent warm and fuzzy men I suppose. These are the type of men that put work over love, that have blocks to love, the types that might bail if they sense that you may require too much. Some that may take an intimate expression as a sign of being needy. People that have Venus in hard aspect to Saturn are often not comfortable with physical expressions of love, Saturn is the planet of Authority, business, coolness, structure, restriction and aspecting Venus planet of love and leisure they likely have blocks to love. They are not at ease expressing love and affection. They may chose work over love, hide behind their work, keep love at a distance and deep down believe that they are unworthy of great love. They may forgo real love all together believing it is simply too hard or unrealistic.

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We have to let it all go, people only love you from their own levels of consciousness

I wanted to caution those of you  (and perhaps remind myself) that have met someone with Venus in aspect to Saturn to not take it personally this is their issue. Sometimes we have to leave people to do the fucked up things they do, sometimes we have to recognize that people have blocks and defense mechanisms within them so high and so deeply embedded in their unconscious minds that an lifetime may pass and they will still hold love apart from themselves.

My advice: Don’t take it personal love them any way recognize it is all their loss. They may very well let a lifetime pass them by never knowing what it is like to let someone in close enough to see the texture of their soul In the words of Dr Wayne Dyer if-you-meet-a-soul

And Nayyirah Waheed

 

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“you’re needy” the air and water sign dilemma

Published September 25, 2016 by starsmoonandsun

I have been called needy before I have been told I require too much attention. I attract mostly air sign men though Libra and Gemini will be the two that most often label me this. Something about Aquarius suns they understand me most they really get me out of all the air signs. Perhaps that is because I have Aquarius rising.

I am not needy and laugh at the utter absurdity of labeling me as such. But generally speaking I dislike labels. I have an Aries Moon this it itself means I do not need anyone (the moon rules your needs and Aries is the sign of self). I am comfortable alone, I am actually quite the loner not particularly social So when someone labels me needy I really want to tell them instead of affixing me with such an insulting adjective why don’t you apologize for having the inability to actually meet my needs. Isn’t that really the case when someone calls you needy? This is their way of confessing they have an inability to give you what you desire

“People only see you from their level of perception”

Water and Air signs do not understand one another on an ego level…on an identity level. Though I am inclined to say water signs appreciate air signs intelligence I love someone intelligent it’s admirable to be well read to know facts and figures on topics I have really no strong interest in.  I as a Cancer sun can celebrate the more cerebral parts of a person. After all I do have Venus in Gemini and feel that love can first begin in the mind and nothing is as beautiful as a man with a big vocabulary. But I still possess a water sign sun and nothing could describe me more than the quote below:

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But we live in a society where intellect and achievement is valued over intuition and feeling. And here is where water signs are often labeled needy…our contributions aren’t celebrated like air signs and air signs rarely if ever can understand us. I am not sure they even try; sometimes I feel they are quick to dismiss us so easily feeling swept up under a wave of our emotion.

Air signs project qualities onto us without actually communicating or asking what we need or desire they so often think they know everything.

I dated a Gemini man that would always say to me “I don’t want to talk about having children”  this man assumed I wanted children he never even bothered to ask me …I surely would have  told him I don’t want any.

They see us only through their level of perception and that level of perception is what they think we need/feel/desire without having any real knowing of what we need/feel/desire

Air signs need to be free and have the most difficult times relating to others on an emotional level. If you think of air it’s the breath and they need plenty of room to breathe and roam. Air signs never want to feel held down they have the fear of suffocation…that’s an air sign for you. They filter everything through the mind and love if anything has no place being sorted out through intellect. It must be felt.

Water signs however use intuition to process everything we are formless like air yet we seek someone to house us and be our container. Water signs seek to emotionally connect, we want to merge with you on a soul level we want you to house and be a safe place for our ever changing emotional states.

Water signs use touch and non verbal communication as modes of expression

So while air signs tend to think we are all up there ass we are simply communicating without words how much we like/admire/desire them

Air signs use words as a means of expression.

I do believe this can be sorted out if water signs would allow air signs that room to breathe and if air signs would acknowledge and celebrate that we don’t need them we merely connect through physical and intimate expression.

I think water and air have a great deal to teach one another with air encouraging water to be more rational and detached and with water teaching air to get out of their head and into their heart. Water can teach air that in essence not everything that counts can be counted.

Liz Greene writes in her book “relating”

“The airy type has a problem with feeling…because feelings like everything else which comes under his microscopic eye cannot be classified, structured, analyzed or fitted into the framework”

She goes onto say about the air signs

“His richest relationships will be with the feeling types for they are both his greatest fascination and the reflection of his own inner self”

Greene goes on to mention that water signs have a “problem with reason”

And that “water is magnetically attracted to air and if these two types could cease their endless skirmishing they could learn much from each other about their own unconscious lives”

For a long time now I feel we should just accept people as they are without labeling them one thing or another. The truth of the matter is people cannot be boxed in, we are multifaceted human beings and often the things we love about someone are the same features we devalue overtime. (See the Before Sunrise trilogy) Water signs are drawn to air signs for the way they can be objective and analytical and air signs love water for their creative energy and for having a way of tapping into what the air sign needs on a subconscious level to diminish and weaken these connections with adjectives such as needy (water signs) and shallow (Air signs) is an assault on the very soul of what we love most about one another.

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