I want to cry, I want to scream I want to sleep for days & most of all I want to be left alone. I’am writing this while waiting for the train, I’m waiting because the doors just closed in my face. Last night I left work 1 hour early so I could get home early instead it took 2 hours. The subway announced something like this: attention all passengers due to track work expect delays in the early morning, in the late night & on the weekends. They should’ve just announced when there wouldn’t be track work. I’m having a Saturn opposite Mars transit. It’s getting tighter by the day. I’m unraveling more each day. Saturn Father Time, Lord of Karma, responsibility.. the authority is in the 9th house opposing my Mars in the 3rd house Mars rules action, aggression, the 3rd house rules community, transportation, communication, cars, transit, siblings, neighbors. Yesterday I was taking a nap only to be awaken by security in my building telling me to re park my car as it wasn’t inside the lines. Really? That’s Saturn for you, holding you accountable, he is the task master; making sure you do shit right. I don’t care about doing shit the “right” way. I want to do it my way. Mars square Saturn natal I say fuck the man, screw the system,rules are made to be broken. The night before I went out & when I wanted to take the train home I was informed I had to go six stops back to get on a different train to get to my stop. That seems to be the Saturn opposite Mars transit theme; six steps forward to go six steps back. I’ve read this is one of the more frustrating transits as you are filled with rage & you have to be careful to not go off on anyone or internalize it. Where is the release? The other day a car almost ran me over & I hit his mirror when he missed I was going to hit the car again but I slipped on ice & lost my footing …the universe was like no no be careful tread lightly. I feel like people are coming at me so I’ve made it a point to disengage my rage, I work with a woman that is quite erratic she once called the police on me after a work meeting & attempted to have me arrested when she didn’t like what I had to say. She became angry with me this week over some nonsense & I quietly said if you have an issue with me please don’t talk to me. I work with people all day & yesterday it appeared one after another were looking for an argument. I just kept telling myself don’t respond. This is going to be along transit & a difficult one. I hate saturn I hate him in synastry, natal & via transit. His energy is hard for me to adhere to. My chart is all cardinal I lead, I go, I’m on the move. My mars sextiles my mercury I’m fast mentally I grasp ideas & am quick verbally but the lesson of this transit is slow down ..really I wish someone could wake me when it’s over.
Some random Saturn lessons:
When Saturn squared my venus I learned love takes work more work than I was prepared to give
Saturn opposite my moon I was sad and spent time with a man that was melancholy. The theme misery loves company
Saturn square Sun: control is an illusion you can’t force anything in this life what is meant to be will be
Saturn conjunct my chart ruler: sometimes life doesn’t provide an escape hatch & you have to grin & bear it
Next year I’ll have saturn opposite Venus…oh goody I really can’t wait
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